Iris had another friendâsomeone she had known ever since she had begun teaching at Westminster College four years ago.
Marla Roberts was an elderly professor of history who had been instrumental in hiring Iris in the first place, recognizing that this graduate of Villanova and Bryn Mawr was far too good a prospect not to snap up. In fact, she had worried that Iris would scorn a tiny and relatively unheralded college like Westminster; she couldn't have known that Iris was in fact longing to return to her hometown. So Iris had eagerly accepted the offer of an assistant professorship, and Marla became both a friend and a mentor. Her own expertise, in colonial and antebellum American history, meshed well with Iris's, and they collaborated on some papers while also spending a fair amount of time in each other's company.
But, only a year after Iris arrived, Marla had to take a leave of absence, at the age of fifty-nine, to tend to her ailing husband of more than thirty years. Sadly, he lasted only a year, succumbing to a particularly virulent form of cancer. Marla decided not to return to work, although the department offered to restore her full professorship. She had spent the last two years on a long-range project that she wondered if she would ever finish, but which kept her busy and occupied. Iris continued to see her occasionally, wondering if her friend was really as contented living alone as she claimed to be.
And so, one evening a week or so after Damon had moved into Iris's house, Iris found herself at Marla's place, sipping tea. It had been some weeks since Marla had seen her friend, and she noticed immediately that something had changed.
"My oh my, Iris, you're really looking well!" she said admiringly.
Iris, always quick to blush, felt herself turning crimson. "Oh, I guess I've been doing pretty well."
Marla knewâand lamentedâthat Iris had largely kept to herself during her years at Westminster; in fact, she couldn't recall her ever going on a single date in all that time. Maybe she had and just not mentioned it to Marla; there was no reason why Iris should confide any intimate details to her, and Marla recognized Iris as a basically private person. So, even though she discounted the possibility, she did want to do some probing.
"Anything new in your life?" she said with a twinkle in her eye.
Iris's response struck her as curious. She became stiff, the teacup abruptly halting its progress up to Iris's mouth. She put the cup down carefully, but looked as if she had seen a ghost.
"Iris, what's the matter?" Marla cried in alarm.
"Nothing," Iris muttered, but she had risen up and begun walking about the little room. After her husband's death, seeing no need for a big house, Marla had discarded a lot of her belongings and moved into a small apartment on the edge of campus, which she maintained had everything she really needed.
Marla knew better than to press Iris harshly. Her friend would tell her when she was ready.
Iris gazed down at her friend, then sat back down on her seat on the sofa.
"Well," she began uneasily, "I guess I've gotten myself into a kind of situation." At Marla's look of apprehension she rushed on: "It's a
good
situation, Marla, really it is! It's just a bitâunusual."
"Do you want to tell me?" Marla said quietly.
Iris let out an enormous sigh. "Well, you see, I've met someone."
Marla gasped.
Well, you could have knocked me over with a feather!
She knew little of any past involvements on Iris's part; Iris had simply not told her about such things, and there was no reason why she should have. But this admission still struck her as a bolt from the blue.
"I don't know what to say," Marla said in a shaky voice. "Who's the lucky guy?"
Iris seemed suddenly energized, her face lighting up and her eyes shining. "Oh, Marla, he's just the most wonderful man! His name is Damon. He's strong and muscular, but also tender and kind-hearted and caring and, um, very affectionate."
"He sounds like a dream," Marla said a tad enviously.
"He is." But a cloud passed over Iris's face. "There's only one problem." She refused to go on.
Marla's heart sank.
I knew it was too good to be true.
"What is it, dear? You can tell me."
Iris abruptly got up from the sofa, unable to look her friend in the face. "Well, you see, he's"âher voice descended to a whisperâ"an undergraduate."
Marla closed her eyes, and she suddenly felt light-headed. She thought she might faint.
"Omigod, Iris, what have you done?" she said quietly but tensely. "How could you be so . . .?" Now it was Marla who couldn't say anything more.
Iris whirled around to gaze at the older woman. "It's not what you think!"
"What do I think?" Marla said in the same quiet voice.
"You thinkâyou think it's justâjust s-s-sâphysical. It isn't that at all!"
"Isn't it?"
"No, it's so much more! He'sâ"
Marla now exploded. She herself rose precipitously from her seated position, seeming to tower over her former mentee, even though she was in fact an inch or two shorter. "Oh, Iris, you silly girl! How can you risk everything you've worked so hard to accomplishâyour career, your standing in the academic world and in this communityâfor this infatuation? I just didn't expect this of you!"
"It's not an infatuation!"
Iris all but shouted. "Not for him, and not for me."
Marla looked at her with pity on her face. "Look, dear, I know what it is to be lonely. I've been pretty damn lonely these past two years. But my career is over, and frankly my life is pretty much over."
"Oh, Marla, don't say that!"
"Well, it is. And that's fine. I've accomplished a lot of what I wanted to do in life. But youâyou have everything to look forward to. You're on the way to being a great historian and a great teacher. I've seen you in class, and there's no one better. But you can't throw it all away over a silly boy. He's not worth it. You know how conservative this little town is. We may have one of the great liberal arts universities here"âshe was referring, of course, to the University of Virginia, not to Westminsterâ"but the townspeople are still mired in the past and would not look well upon aâa relationship of this sort. I don't know
anyplace
that would look favorably upon such a thing."
Iris was seething more and more as she heard each sentence of Marla's speech. The insult she feltâdirected both at herself and at her loverâwas getting too much to bear. But she was not one to lash out viciously, especially at a friend and colleague who meant so much to her.
"If only you could get to know him," she muttered, more to herself than to Marla, "you wouldn't think the way you do." Then, as if suddenly seized with inspiration: "Why
don't
you meet him? I'm sure that would change your mind. He could come over hereâ"
"Here?"
Marla said. "You meanâby himself?"
That hadn't actually been what Iris had intended, but she snatched at the idea. "Well, sure! Believe me, he's one hell of a guy. I'm sure you've never met anyone like him."
"And what exactly," Marla said in a tone of scientific inquiry, "am I to
do
with him?"
"Just talk to him," Iris said. Then, with a glint in her eye: "You could do anything you like. Anything."
Marla flushed at the
double entendre,
so unexpected from her friend. Then she seemed to go pale.
"Iris, you're being silly. There's no way a boyâ"
"He's not a boy! He's a fine, strapping young man."
"âa
boy
will have the slightest interest in an old woman like me."
"You're