Chapter 4
It had been three days since Kim had told her best friend about her feelings. She had taken some sick leave to fully rest from the emotional toll it took on her. Her bedroom was a wreck, but Kim had gotten what she needed and now felt she was back to her normal self.
Charles stood by his wife. He had helped her throughout her time off. He wasn't a good cook, but he did know how to order in. Charles did the laundry and cleaned the kitchen in this time of need.
Most importantly over the last few days, Charles was loving and available to his wife who needed him. He bathed her daily and put rose pedals in the water. He opened the curtains for her and gave her flowers. He delivered food to her bedside and purposefully played the role of her butler. Kim did light up with laughter when she heard Charles' British accent. Charles laid out clothes for Kim and brushed her hair. Most importantly, Charles was there with his wife, comforting her.
"Good morning, sunshine!" Charles happily kissed Kim's head as she rolled over. Kim's hair had grown nests and stuck to her forehead.
Kim, well rested, opened her eyes with zest! She stretched. Then yawned. You look like you are feeling better. Charls looked at his energetic wife.
"I am." Kim rolled herself out of bed and walked to the bathroom.
Charles smiled; he was happy Kim was feeling better.
He left the beautiful, oversized room they shared.
Thirty minutes later, Charles had a nice little breakfast prepared for Kim.
She strolled in looking both happy and healthy. Her beautiful, dark hair shined and swung across her body. Her smile was back too.
"Charles the butler has made a fancy breakfast for his madam, I see", Kim joked in a bad snobby, British accent.
Charles laughed, watching her walk toward him.
Kim walked right to her husband and leaned over his seated body. She planted a kiss on him, with just a little tongue. They both broke the kiss with smiling faces. Their teeth even hit together, before they separated.
Kim brushed her hand around Charles' ear. She looked down into his eyes. Kim's amazing smile showcased her true happiness. Charles gazed back into her wonderful eyes and could see her thankfulness and admiration for him.
Kim grabbed a quick bite to eat but needed to get her life back on track. She wasn't the type to be disorganized. "I'm going to go to the gym," she told her husband. "I need a good sweat."
She knew the gym would help her get moving, physically and mentally.
Charles knew it was good, but he was a little disappointed he would not get to spend the morning with her.
Five minutes away, in the busier part of town, Jess and Mark lay soaked in sweat. Their act had finished, but their legs were still tangled, and they held hands.
"We need silk sheets." Mark said to Jess. His head rested on a pillow and his neck turned towards her.
Jess looked Mark in the eye," how many times has that been?"
Mark looked back unknowingly, he barely shrugged. He didn't care.
"At least 15 times for you and 20 times for me!" Jess thought back counting in her head. "Wow! I've never had so much." Her breathing was still a little fast, but it was beginning to normalize.
"Yes, I will pick up silk sheets from now on. We've earned them!" Jess said happily and proud.
Mark reached up to her head and stroked her hair. He smiled at her personal amazement for the previous three days sex.
"I want to ask you how you feel and what you think. And other stuff. But I'm not going to get a better understanding than us touching each other together, am I?"
Mark understood her complex question. How could he answer questions about sexual urges when he can't communicate the feeling itself. How do you have a discussion when you can't explain how or why? There are many feelings at any one instant. Yes! He wanted to tell her more than anything, but he couldn't. He didn't know what to say or where to start. Humans just call it chemistry. But even that word has limits as to how deeply two people understand and can bond.
His strong new urges gave him things to think about. So much so, Mark was becoming a philosopher, ha! He laughed to himself. He was still uncomfortable and tried his best to ignore any thoughts of other men in his head.
"Yeah. It turns me on. Why? I wish I knew. I know I need you. Lately, something changed or just surfaced. Maybe opened up. I don't know. The thought of you with other men really really turns me on." Mark looked away from Jessica.
"Since we've been talking about you and Charles it's been stronger, much much stronger." Mark tried to explain.
"I looked into it a little. Online." Mark swallowed. "Similar to hot wife or cuck kinks. I don't want to be degraded or embarrassed, though. I'm not into that. That would make me feel bad, like less of a man." He thought. "Emasculated. That would emasculate me and take away my confidence. Maybe worse"
Mark was trying his best to have an open and honest conversation. It was taxing on him to find the right way to say how he felt. It helped him to tell Jess as much, as it helped her to hear him.
"That is extremely important information," Jess said. "I never want to do that to you." She moved her hand and placed it on Mark's chest. She needed him to know she cared.
"You have had a stronger need, over the last few days," Mark tried his best to ask Jess the right questions. "Have you thought about Charles? Or something else?" He wasn't sure he was asking the proper way. Then again, is there a proper way for this conversation.
"I've only thought about him a few times. I'm kind of like trying to warm myself up to being with him like that. I don't know." Jess was very uncomfortable, but she was trying her hardest to open up to Mark.
"I like thinking about you watching me with other men." Jess was happy she could formulate this thought into clear and understandable feelings. "That turns me on. And now that I know you like it...I want to do it for you. Like I want you to be happy." Jess turned in the bed a little, moving her legs.
"I want that. I worry this fantasy or need will cost me a lifetime of you." Mark told Jess the hard truth. "We don't know how things will end up, but I will always love you. It's something we have to try."
Mark was ashamed. He had never been so honest with Jess.