You type my number into your phone and then pause, unsure about whether to press the dial button. You think about how much you'll regret not calling and press the button before you can change your mind.
The phone rings four times before I pick.
"Hey!" you say, trying to sound confident.
"You called!" I reply. You can hear my smile down the other end of the line. I wasn't sure if you'd go through with it.
"I said I would..."
Your sentence tails off and you hear silence in reply. You worry that the relationship that's been developing online is going to flounder in the real world.
"That Facebook conversation was getting pretty intense," you continue, trying to find a way to break the ice.
"Yeah... well... sorry about that," I say.
"No, no. Don't apologise. It sounded like you've had a rough time of it, and I like to talk, and to listen, so..."
"Thank you. It was nice to talk. And now it's nice to hear what your voice sounds like."
You blush. "You too," you say, and then, after a pause, "You've got a lovely accent." You hope that returning the compliment will raise the colour in my cheeks too. You wish you could see me, to see how I'm reacting. The only pictures we have of each other are those from Facebook profiles.
You laugh. "Is that what you say to all the girls?" I ask. I continue before you can reply. "But I told you I've lived all over the place. First Wales, and then England, and now Sweden. You can't help but pick up a bit of a varied accent."
"I suppose so..." You fail off, not sure how to follow up. "Still, it's lovely to hear. Very melodic." I smile at the compliment and butterflies stir in my stomach. It's been a long time since a man paid said something so nice to me, and so eloquently. I can't think how to reply.
"You're much quieter on the phone than the Facebook messages," you say.
I laugh, thankful that you've broken the tension. "Oh, just you wait until I get going. Terry, that friend I was telling you about. Although actually, she's my niece, but a friend as well. Well, Terry, she says I can talk the hind legs off a donkey. When I'm relaxed and wotnot."
You smile to yourself, and realise that you've just gotten a glimpse of how I can be when more relaxed. There's another pause.
"So, are you relaxed now?" you ask.
"Not really... I mean, it's not every day I get phone calls from strange men off the Internet."
You laugh. "I don't know about strange."
I laugh too. "I'll be the judge of that, thank you very much." The mood has lightened slightly.
"Besides," I continue, "you sound very relaxed. Like you do this all the time. How many strange girls off the Internet have you called up lately?"
You realise that I'm half joking, and half fishing for information.
"You're the first," you say, and I think I believe you. "But maybe I'll start to enjoy it and make a habit, you know?"
Your laugh makes me smile.
"Anyway," I continue, "you sound nice and confident. Not nervous at all."
"And you're still nervous?"
"Yeah... a bit."
"Anything I can do about it?"
The line goes quiet and then you hear me giggle.
"What ya wearing?" I ask. I can't believe I just blurted out one of the clichΓ©s of Internet chat. It makes you laugh, though.
"Oh, nothing much..." you say teasingly. I raise an eyebrow, forgetting you can't see it. "Just t-shirt, jeans, socks... how much detail to you need?"
I laugh. "Maybe I'll imagine the rest," I say.
"And you?" you ask hopefully.
"You can stop that right now, mister!" I say with faked outrage. You laugh, suddenly desperate to know the answer but not willing to push. I like that you don't. The line goes quiet again.
"Has that helped?" you ask.
"Helped what?"
"With the nervousness."
"Well, a bit..." I say, "But there is something that would help."
"What? I'll do what I can."
I giggle. "You could take your t-shirt off. That might help."
"Take my t-shirt off?" you say, somewhat confused, "On the phone? How will that help? And you can't even see?"
I laugh. "Oh yeah. It'll help. Definitely. And you did ask..."
You wonder how the conversation suddenly took this turn.
"So if I take my t-shirt off, you'll be less nervous? How does that work? What if I just say that I have without really doing it?" you say.
"I'll know," I say firmly.
"You'll know?"
"Women's intuition. I know how a man sounds without his shirt on." I smile to myself, hoping you'll fall for that line.
"Okay then..."
You put the phone onto the table, think for a second about just pretending you've taken your t-shirt off, but then pull it over your head and throw it onto the chair next to you. Why not? You think. The curtains are closed so no-one can see. You pick the phone up again.
"Okay. It's done," you say. You hear another giggle as I summon some more courage.
"Photo? To prove it?" I say hopefully. You laugh.
"Uh-uh, missie," which raises a laugh, "And besides, I can never work out how to do that on this phone without hanging up first."
"What a lame excuse! But, don't do that," I tell you, "Send one afterwards instead."
You laugh. "I will if you do first," you say.
"Oh sure, I can send you a photo. What do you want one of? A cat? My books? The Eiffel Tower?"
You laugh. "You know what I mean," you say, "You without your blouse, or t-shirt, or whatever you're wearing, and if I get a photo from you I'll send one too."
"I'm wearing a tight stretchy top," I say, "but it's staying on. You're trying to stop me feeling nervous, remember? I don't want to be at a disadvantage."