I wake up before the alarm sounds, so I contemplate getting up early to start the day. Instead, I just lay in bed trying to process what happened last night. It was all so unexpected. I had started teasing my son, Josh, on the first day when I saw him get obviously excited when we stripped half naked, doing what we could to escape the heat. It was fun, and I was surprised to find that I enjoyed doing it. But the porn video was legitimately unanticipated. And for it to be porn that so succinctly aligned with my kink was just serendipity. The whole thing was incredibly hot. I haven't had a JO buddy since my college roommate, and I think I missed the camaraderie involved in satisfying our dicks. It's not that I am attracted to men, and I'm certainly not attracted to my son, but I do enjoy pleasuring myself with another person.
I've had a few truly gay experiences growing up, but I have only ever been physically and romantically drawn to women. I don't mind dick, but it's not a matter of attraction for me. I like dicks for their potential and the sense of brotherhood. It is something I didn't fully realize until I met my cumslut wife. I guess somewhere along the way my fantasies got entangled with hers. Not that it matters, I guess. I love women and I love cum. Cum on women, cum in women, whatever. It's hot. I also like watching men ejaculate, knowing the bliss coursing through them as it funnels through their cock as they unload. I think I just enjoy sharing the experience of pleasure. There really is no better source of male bonding... which is why I started my son and I down this nebulous path in the first place, I suppose.
I really did not have some devious 12-point plan in place, I was just having fun teasing my son. It was all just an organic extension of our already existing bond. I would have loved to have a more open relationship with my father, and now Josh knows more about me than anybody besides my wife. And I am learning more about him. I think it's pretty cool. And he seems to be into it. I suspect he may be as big of a deviant as me, a thought that makes me laugh internally. The apple doesn't fall too far from the tree and all that. But fuck it, we can be pervs together if that is what he wants. I can be a safe haven for him as he discovers about himself and his particularities, whatever they may be.
My musing is interrupted by the horrible buzzing of the nearby alarm clock. I reach over and smash it hard, kind of hoping that it breaks. It doesn't. I just sigh and prepare myself for whatever the day brings.
I look at the next bed over and call out to Josh's sleeping form. He is lying motionless on his bed, splayed out in the heat like he's trying to keep any parts of himself from touching. At some point he kicked off the thin sheet, revealing his young, toned body, covered only by his little briefs that he fills out quite nicely. He really is a good-looking kid, getting the best qualities from me and his mom. He is going to be a commodity when he gets to college, particularly if he can hold onto that physique of his. "Josh!" I yell over again, trying to rouse him. It's insane that he can sleep through that horrible alarm.
I let out a heavy sigh before forcing myself up. Having a mattress on the floor really is no way to live. I walk over and give Josh's bed a few kicks, which finally succeeds in getting him to acknowledge the waking world, and he too begins to shuffle out of his bed.
We both mill about in the kitchen, half awake, in search of breakfast and coffee. The temperature makes it so neither of us attempts to put on anything more than the underwear we slept in. I can see Josh sporting some morning wood as he is moves about, his dick probably half erect if I try to judge. I am a little disappointed to see how uncomfortable he is just openly existing with it, always trying to hide it or position it away from me. We make small talk, making a game plan for the workday. I give some thought to bringing up last night but can't think of how to do it gracefully. When he finishes his breakfast, he gets up from his seat at a weird angle, trying to hide his hard-on, which has apparently not completely subsided. I just kind of roll my eyes, but when I see him reach down to try and adjust himself, I see an opening. I give him a chuckle to try and put him at ease, "Hey now, don't forget we have work to do before we get to play with our dicks. Save it for tonight."
He gives what I am sure is a genuine smile, but he pairs it with a nervous laugh. He seems uneasy with attention being called to erection. I sigh internally. I would think he wouldn't still be so gun shy after what happened. But I suppose last night was more of an exhibition for me than for him. Poor guy never even managed to take his cock out. Thinking about it again starts to give me a chubby, but I try not to dwell on it as the conversation moves on.
I make us another pot of terrible instant coffee, and his hard-on fades as the morning progresses. I am surprised it lasted so long, but I guess that is one of the blessings of youth. We continue to chat as we nurse our mugs, both of us preferring to plan the work rather than actually do it. I am happy to see that our everyday relationship seems unchanged. Having a new JO bud would be great, but I would never want that at the cost of what we already had.
As we finish, I watch Josh as he starts to clean up from breakfast. Him in his little briefs. They really do a wonderful job of highlighting his physical assets. His package looks so full and heavy and his ass so brawny. I'm going to have to get me a few pairs when we get back. Or maybe just keep wearing his.
The actual workday is a slog. We make some good progress, but it is still hot as hell inside this house, although maybe a little better than yesterday? It's hard to tell. Although the lack of extra layers definitely helped. And it was great to see Josh become more comfortable being nearly naked with me. By the end of the day, he might as well have been wearing his typical T-shirt and shorts combo, his body posture and demeanor becoming more and more casual as the day progressed.
Thinking about it while we worked, I decided that I am not going to bring up having another movie night again. I made that one comment this morning, which I think made my position pretty clear. Other than that, we hadn't really spoken about it throughout the day. I need to be sure that it is something that he desires and that it's not just a path that I am leading him down. He has to want it. It's only fun if we are both equal and willing participants.
As the sun starts to set, we finally call it a day. We worked longer than we typically did, but the week is practically over and there is still so much to do. Over dinner we talk about life, his plans for the future, and my time at college. As we laugh talk and laugh together, I am once again struck with gratitude that I got this opportunity to spend this time with him before he leaves for school next year.
Josh finishes first, pushing his empty plate away from him and as he leans back from the kitchen counter where we take our meals. I am starting to think that he isn't going to say anything. Maybe we are just going to finish our meal, take our showers, and get a good night's rest. I spear the last of the broccoli on my plate, surprised at how disappointed I am at the thought. Then I hear him finally say it, "So dad... is it time to play with our dicks yet?"