A knock on my bedroom door.
'Daddy, can I come in?'
I had the door closed as I planned to do a little porn surfing on my iPad..
'Sure baby, come in.'
Lizzy was wearing her oversized Harvard t-shirt, a shout out to her alma mater. I know she had Stanford and MIT t-shirts as well, they came in second and third in her selection of a university with a top notch biology program.
She had moved back home temporarily after graduation to ponder her choice for a masters school and ensuing doctorate. The same three in the running. She liked the idea of a school on the 'left' coast.
Plus, she has several offers for summer internships from some top notch biogenetic companies, mostly in Silicon Valley..
Although, there is one company in London that has caught her eye. I told her it might be worth a look, something to broaden her horizons.
All the companies are developing mRNA vaccines for cancer cures. It is her dream to do that - cure all 200+ cancers.
My gut is she is heading west. Bye-bye Harvard. We will see.
I was truly astounded when she returned home after her academia achievements... top of class! So good.
In addition, she left home a number one in her high school class, 18 years old, dance team captain, class president, etc. and came back home mature beyond her years.
Her girlish looks cocoon left behind replaced by a gorgeous woman. Some lucky guy could not do better than marrying her.
Her and I had guessed that she had someone who was very interested in marriage, but through out the four years we never met him... or her.
Her Mom liked women more than men. I couldn't stand it and I filed when I caught her with a 'friend'.
Mary eventually married her 'friend' Magdalene.
Talk about adding insult to injury.
My response, bury myself in work taking on any kind of case, including several pro bono cases.
Word got out that I was a 'winner' and would work for free. Most of the time those wins were followed with civil cases where I made my money.
The irony of it all, I liked Maggie. She was attractive, sexy, witty, and smart with her own accomplishments.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to share a bed with her and maybe Mary too.
Yeah right.
'Dad?'
'Oh yeah baby, what's up?'
I put my iPad down. She gave me a look like she knew what I was planning. Good thing I hadn't launched my favorite site.
'May I?'
She pointed to the bed.
'Sure.'
Even in high school, she would join me in bed for talks about school, her dreams, and sometimes her current boy friend.
She pulled up the sheets and covers and slipped in next to me.
I laid on my side to look at her, she did the same.
A neat freak, so when she pulled the covers and sheets over her, she had to smooth them out on her side and mine.
Working my side, she brushed up against my chest, hip and thigh.
If I had been laying on my back she would have touched my...
A tingle of excitement roared through my balls.
Why?
I closed my eyes and quickly walled off any thoughts, ideas or reactions.
We have done these talks hundreds of times. Why now? Why a sexual arousal reaction?
My good voice said, 'No, no, no!'
My bad voice said pull the sheets off of both of you. Show her what happens if she touches Daddy's penis, show her how much it grows. Ask her to touch it. Ask her to put her lips around the head. Ask her to...
'Daddy? Are you OK? You seem to be drifting off on me.'
Her face was no more six inches away.
I could smell mouth wash on her breath, perfume on her body and an expensive shampoo in hair.
Her lips were full. I watched them move.
'Daddy!' she said loudly.
'If you are sleepy, we can talk tomorrow.'
She started to leave.
I grabbed her arm.
'Sorry, there is a case that has been puzzling me. I was lost in my thoughts.'
i had ruffled the covers. I knew she was going to smooth them so I shouldn't have... but I did, I laid on my back.
Bingo!
When she moved the sheets over my body, her hand ran across my growing erection, clearly a bump in the sheets.
She realized what she did and looked at the bump.
'Sorry... I didn't...' she stuttered.
I rolled onto my side to look at her again.
I was bed, I knew that would happen and I still did it.
I am going to hell.
'Don't worry Lizzie. It was nothing.'
'It's just... it made such a bump... I am sorry. I didn't mean to do it.'
'Honey, forget it. So let's talk. What is the topic?'
We settled down, our heads on the pillow, inches away, our bodies face to face as well.
Oh shit! As I rolled onto my side, the head of my cock slipped out of my open pajama fly.
What do I do? I decided to do nothing right now. When we are done talking, I will rearrange.
'Dad, I am a little embarrassed to talk about it. And a lot bummed out about it.'
I instinctually caressed her cheek.
'Go ahead, just blurt out if you need to.'
I knew she wouldn't.
'So I believe you and Mom suspected I had a boy friend. I did. We met freshman year, starting hanging out, then dates.'
'It led to sex then living together in my off campus apartment.'
'Dad, we were so in love. We talked about marriage, about doing that after we graduated.'
'Wow! So why didn't you bring him home to meet us? Did you meet his parents?'
'He comes from a very strict Catholic family. They abhor any couple living together and especially having sex before marriage. He didn't want to risk them finding out if I came home with him.'
'Sounds flimsy, but whatever. And how about us?'
'He was uncomfortable meeting when you and Mom were getting divorced. Especially with her marriage to Maggie.'
'Lizzy, I question his logic. Are you sure you are going to marry this guy?'
'I am not.'
'What? You're not?
'No, he is marrying his long time high school girl friend.'
'You're kidding!'
'No I am not. Remember after graduation when that guy came by to say hi?'
'Yeah, kind of. That was him? He had a girl...that girl is the one he is marrying?'
'Yes.'
This hard for her.
'He took me aside later to let me know. I almost exploded but didn't, I kept calm and told him that I wish him the best.'
'You spent four years with this smuck and you...'
I stopped. It was not cool what I was about to say. It's not her fault he is an asshole.
'Let me guess. On the vacation times he went home to be with her?'
'Yes. But...'
'But what?'
'I am pretty sure he doesn't have sex with her. She comes from a strict Catholic family as well. Bet you she is a virgin and doesn't have a clue on how to please him.'
The last part of that was very interesting 'doesn't have a clue on how to please him'.
I guess she does.
'So you gave me one of your looks when I talked about her virginity. Yes, he took mine freshmen year.'
'I didn't need to know that.'
'There is more while I am on a roll.'
'He and I learned together. We went slow at first, handjobs while making out, moving onto fellatio and cunnilingus for me. I really got into fellatio, I like the feeling of his erection in my mouth.'
'I guess I should have said 'liked' the feeling... past tense.'
She sniffled a little. So, I took stock of my erection, as best I could tell most of it was out of the fly. I wish she would stop talking about her experiences with sex. Way too exciting for me.
But.. I want to hear more and I didn't want her to stop.
'Eventually I mastered deep throating which, oh my god was a totally different excitement. Picturing and feeling the head of his glans pushing back my epiglottis was exciting.'
Biologist talk, she can skip that.
How about the big cock head jamming her throat?
'We moved onto intercourse. Trying every position, exploring how each one would enable an orgasm for both of us.'
'For him, any position worked. At first he couldn't control himself, ejaculating in the stereotype type man in minutes without an orgasm for me.'
'Eventually that improved over time and we met our objective of orgasms for both of us.'
I can't believe she is talking about this. I am rock hard now, my erection inches from her body. Please don't move!
'You are probably wondering what are favorites are.'
I just nodded. Really? No way I would say 'not'.
'I love being in control, so cowgirl works the best for me including reverse which he likes'
'He on the other hand, likes missionary. Pounding my vulva, his erection deep in my vagina.'
'Sometimes cumming inside. Sometimes pulling out, moving forward to let me edge him to ejaculation.'
'I liked the taste of his cum, so I always tried to get every drop.'
'We had fun role playing. I would be 'caught' by Daddy wearing Mom's sexy bedtime lingerie. He would punish me by spanking and making me suck Daddy's cock till he came.'
'Sometimes we reversed, I would be Mom, catching him masturbating with my panties. I stroked his penis while he sniffed my panties. Then I would make my 'son' sniff my pussy then lick it and suck on my clitoris.'
'My gosh, I would cum so quickly when we role played,' she said.
Suddenly she stopped.
'Daddy, I am sorry, I shouldn't be talking about this, especially when it arouses me. too many memories.'
'It has only been a month and I already ache for sex. Every male I see, no matter the age, I fantasize about having sex with them.'
'Is something wrong with me? Do you have the same problem? It's been, what, three months from finalizing divorce? Do you ache for sex like me? Do you fantasize about having sex with every female you see? Do we share the same problem?'
Do we share the same problem? Yes. Oh god yes. The problem is the solution.
I have got to get her to stop.
Talk about fantasies. My bad voice telling to make a move on my daughter and give her what she aches for.
My good voice saying get the hell out of there.
But how do I retreat, get out of bed and head to the bathroom with my erection poking through the fly?
Even if I managed to put it away, there would be a tell tale bulge. Maybe I can keep it pointing away from her.
'No honey, nothing is wrong with you. Nothing at all.'
'As for sharing the same problem... yes, we do.'
'But what do you do? Masturbate? I have never had to do that. I guess I can learn how.'
'Uh... yes... sometimes... uh yes.'
'How do you do it?'
'Do you fantasize about someone? Or do you look at porn?'
'Honey, i think we should stop talking about this.'
'Please just answer my last question, please, please.'
She moved into to hug me and rammed into my hard on.
'I just need...'
She paused, realizing I was poking her.
'Daddy... I... you... you have...'
She lifted up the sheets and covers.
'Oh my god! Daddy you have an erection!'
Like I didn't know?
'Yeah sorry.'
'Why? Why do you have an erection?'
'You said you were aroused talking about... you know. It had the same effect on me.'
She kept looking at my cock.
Without breaking her gaze, she asked.
'Does that mean you were aroused thinking about... about me?'
I had to lie.
'No, I was thinking about Mom and the sex we had.'
'Oh, that makes sense.'
She sounded dejected.
She continued to stare at my erection.
'So Dad, can I... yeah I, do an experiment?'
I can't imagine what she was thinking about.
'Sure. What is it?'
'I'd like to take a rough measurement.'
'OK, measurement of what?'