All characters are at least 18 years old.
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Leon
I walked along the paved path through the grass, keeping an eye out for her. It was a rare thing to have this many people around and yet have things be so quiet. People as far as the eye could see, and yet not a word was being spoken. I think most found it unnerving, but I quite liked it. It gave us a chance to talk, to stay in the moment. I spotted her and smiled, walking right up to her and taking her in. It suddenly hit me that this was going to be more difficult than I thought. But I would weather it; anything for my girl.
"Happy anniversary, Rose," I murmured, setting the flowers down on the grass. Despite her name, she liked daffodils, and the yellow blooms were the one spot of color on such a dreary day. I sighed and put my hands in my pockets, bowing my head. My lip quivered a bit, but I took a deep breath to calm myself before looking up at the overcast sky. "...I miss you so much."
She never said anything. She only listened, and she was good at it. I chuckled humorlessly.
"I, uh... didn't bring Cherish again this year. And I know what you're gonna say. 'Just tell her, Leon. She can take it.'" I shook my head. "Well she made that all too clear a few days ago, actually. Pretty sure I messed up on that front. Heh. Who'd have thought, right?"
With a sigh, I looked off into the distance, seeing one or two other people visiting their loved ones.
"We were supposed to do this together," I croaked, voice thick with emotion. "Parenting's hard, but not because it takes a lot of skill or anything. It's just most of us don't know what we're doing. And it's just easier when you can... brainstorm with somebody. Get a different take, have somebody to balance you out or stop you before a huge mistake. I really wish you were here.
"Y'know, most people, after eighteen years? They forget what their loved ones sound like. What they act like. Without photographs, sometimes even what they look like. And yet here I am, cursed with never forgetting." I bowed my head again, looking at the rock that marked where the love of my life was buried. "I wish you could see her. She's so much like you, it's like you gave yourself back to me, except from the very beginning, weird as that is. But I'm a bad father. She's so much like you that... I'm having thoughts a father shouldn't." I frowned at myself in shame. "And these past few days, more and more, I'm getting the sense that she has those thoughts too. I know I promised you. I promised I'd make sure she was a happy girl. But what if what makes her happy is something I can't give her? Something that would betray your memory?"
I groaned to myself. Just the thought of what I was going to do tonight made my heart ache. I didn't know what Rose would say or think anymore. I still couldn't really wrap my head around how things had played out.
"There's something I need to do now, Rose. A friend of mine says I need to protect our daughter, and... I don't know how to choose between keeping her safe and making her happy. So... whatever happens... please don't think less of me."
I kissed the top of her headstone before straightening and giving her one last smile. A gentle breeze blew through my hair, and I looked up in time to see rays of warm sunlight break through the grey clouds. I chuckled. Nature was so clichΓ©.
"I love you, Rose," I said, promising that the next time I came, Cherish would finally meet her mother.
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I arrived home just as Cherish seemed to be on her way out. Her hair was in a double dutch braided bun, which could only mean she had a lot on her mind.
"Going skating?" I asked. She nodded, hefting the duffel bag on her shoulder, not meeting my eyes. "Mind if I come watch?" Her gaze flicked up to meet mine briefly before darting away to the side. Another nod. "Then I can drive you there," I finished with a smile.
The drive to the ice rink was quiet. Cherish kept to herself, staring out the window at the passing buildings. I didn't know what to say to her. Inside, I was dying to ask her about Monday. We still hadn't talked about it. She'd been calling my name as she touched herself, sitting in my chair and using my pen. And she was... envious of her mother. Was it just for my attention as a father, or something else? I knew both she and Drew had been upset when Colette and I had gone on our date months ago. Or maybe they just didn't like the prospect of being step-siblings. I chuckled to myself. Yeah, that was totally it.
We arrived, and Cherish headed off to the changing room while I headed to the spectator stands. Surprisingly, nobody was on the ice today. Typically there would be a skating class going on, and Cherish would have to come at night to get any time alone. She was on good terms with the rink staff, and they let her in after hours.
She came out in her favorite outfit, a glittery deep green dress with a slanted skirt. The small rhinestones made her look like a dancing emerald, and the clever use of materials gave the effect of being an off-shoulder dress. I couldn't remember if I'd ever told her, but it was my favorite too.