It wasn't easy clearing my head in there. I watched her cooking up the disgusting and dreaded
K.D.
in what she called a 'skort', basically a pair of tight black shorts attached under a little skirt, and that short, tight, white shirt she usually slept in. She was in very good shape and it wasn't helping.
"Mom's pretty fun to party with, huh?" she asked.
"Yeah, she's,... a lotta fun."
"What are you doing later?"
"I don't know. Sober up some and see if anyone wants to ride, if I still feel like it."
"Oh. Well, if you don't, we can go swimming. If you want."
"Yeah,... maybe."
"That means no," she said, turning and catching me staring at her thighs while I spoke.
"It means maybe," I said, casually looking elsewhere and hoping she'd dismiss what she saw.
"Guess what?" she asked with a sly grin.
"What?"
"I'm not really making you
Kraft Dinner."
"You're not?"
"No. I just got the box out and filled the pot in front of you to fuck your mind up. I'm giving you vegetable beef soup mixed with good ol'
Mr. Noodles.
Don't you just love me now?"
"I gotta admit, I do."
"I don't care what they say about
Mr. Noodles,
I love the stuff."
"Me too," I agreed. "The funny thing is that Mom never even knew we were buying it and still doesn't. Guess it goes to show how handy it is to learn to cook for yourself."
"She'll probably find it now that it's ended up here, though," she said, her head turned again. "She does a lot of cooking now. Good stuff, too, like before."
"I haven't noticed."
"You haven't been around as much."
"You have?"
"Yup. Here and at Livy's, mostly."
I nodded, even though she couldn't see me while I watched the side of her braless tit in that little shirt.
She finally served and then sat across from me, her elbows on the table, chin in the palms of her hands.
"Are you gonna get a girlfriend at university?"
"I don't know. Why?"
"Just wondering. Are you nervous about going?"
"Yeah, a little. I don't think it'll be like school, though."
"But, we can still live home."
"Yeah."
"You like the soup?"
"Yup, thanks."
When I was done, I took a shower and crawled into my bunk, telling Jen that I'd be up in a couple of hours. With the curtain closed, I laid back, finally away from her body and alone with my thoughts. I remembered again what happened earlier with Mom, the recent memories starting a reaction in my underwear. I stopped thinking about that and instead tried to berate myself for the things that happened. I mean, for gods sakes, I was licking my own mother's pussy and I made her orgasm. I came on her boobs and in her face. But, it only served to turn me on again. The 'Department of Things to be Pressure Washed Away' was a joke that was a lot more cruel than dryly humorous at that point. I don't remember falling asleep.
~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
I woke with a start to find someone in the bunk with me. The sun was just going down outside and the warm, reddish light illuminated Olivia's face in a dreamlike way. Jimmi Hendrix was playing at low volume on the stereo and she passed me a lit joint.
"Now you'll be up all night," she said as I took the joint and puffed on it.
"I could drink until I pass out," I sleepily offered.
"Y'know, I don't like when you drink. Some beer, maybe, but not whiskey."
"Why?"
"I don't know. I just like you better without that stuff, is all."
"Well, maybe I like you better with it."
"Maybe you just like me and that's that."
"I'd rather not chase you down that little rabbit hole right now."
"Fine by me. Hey, guess who you're hanging out with tonight?"
"Who?" I asked suspiciously.
"Me," she said proudly, taking the joint.
"Olivia, I'm eighteen, you're,... whatever. I don't feel like watching you play
Farmville
all night."
She exhaled in my face as she looked at me, then said, "I'm not surprised you don't have any friends in town. Your personality is like salted sandpaper to the crotch. That aside, I'll have you know that I
don't
play
Farmville.
I'm fucking you, your mom and your sister, do you seriously think I'm the type of woman who has any interest, or time for
Farmville?"
"Well, you know what it is, don't you?"
"So, what? So do you."
"Yeah, but
I'm
not playing it," I said with a smile.
"There," she said, pointing as I took a drag.
"What?" I croaked around a lungful, passing it back.
"You like me. You're lying here smoking a joint with me, teasing me with a smile on your face and a nice big hardon. You like me."
"I'm not smiling with you, I'm smiling at you. Because you're delusional. And over sexed."
"I thought I was undersexed."
"No argument about the delusional part, huh?"
"You little shit!" she said, but still with a smile.
I watched her take a drag as she looked at me. She balled up the roach and popped it out the open window when she was done.
"So,... my young man,..."
"She told you," I said.
"We have no secrets, you know."
"I pretty much have to assume that."
"It's alright."
"I didn't exactly stay true to you, did I?"
"Your mum doesn't count, obviously. No, I'm glad you enjoyed yourself."
"I'm actually trying not to think about it. Now that I'm a lot more sober, I just can't believe,... Oh my god," I toned, remembering everything and waking up completely to it now.
"I said it's alright. Park stuff, it never happened."
"See? Delusional."
"Don't you put aside reality when you watch a movie, or read a novel? Playing a video game, or even fantasizing?"
I only shook my head at this and looked away. She was actually starting to make sense, her circular logic beginning to seem acceptable in the light of my desires, recent deeds and my need to excuse myself of them somehow.
"Anyway, I didn't want to get into that tonight. At least, not yet. Like I say, we're hanging out."
"But you haven't said what we'll be doing."
"Well, if it'll satisfy your paranoia,... remember Bob and Sasha?"
"Yeah."
"End of season, last year, just before I had to leave, they did a very nice favour for me at a very convenient time. I've been holding off on visiting them until something I arranged for could be brought in and it came today."
"Okay,..."
"It's an air conditioner. Nobody else has one because of the extra power load, but because of Bob and his condition and the fact that they rarely go out, I convinced Dad. We're going over to say hi and to install it for them."
"Wh- uhh,... You know about AC, right?"
"Nope."
"Well, neither do I."
"It's not like we're building the unit, we're only installing it."
"We have to wire it up, don't we?"
"I would think that it just plugs in, but so what if it doesn't?"
" ... Electricity, Olivia. It kills people, there's statistics-"
"Piss on your statistics, how hard can it be? Look, I'm not just bringing it and leaving it, that's like buying the toy for Christmas without getting the batteries."
"But, it's going to be dark soon."
"Elmo has halogens we can use. C'mon, get up and get dressed," she said, opening the curtain she'd obviously even closed behind her when she somehow climbed in without waking me up again. "We'll figure it out, it'll probably be easy."
Well, it wasn't.
We both looked at each other with that mutual expression of perplexed panic many times, worrying and wondering about this and that, asking ourselves why we were so quick to cut the window hole larger with the 'saws-all' while calmly assuring Bob and Sasha that everything was just fine.
After a few hours of me whispering things like, "I told you this wouldn't be easy!", and her whispering answers such as, "Would you fuckin' just shut up!?", we finally completed the job, a good job at that.
We'd been beered, fed and jointed the whole time by Bob and Sasha and, when we finally finished putting Elmo's tools and his ATV back, we collapsed on the chairs at his back door. He and Trixie were probably already down at the club, as it was past nightfall, and we sat in the darkness, not speaking for a bit.
"I told you we could do it," she finally said.
"Yeah, I guess. But, if it weren't for me, you'd have electrocuted yourself."