The Empress had installed me in a place I was quite familiar with. It was the luxurious room with the lattices, from which I had first watched Bishkur meeting with his tutor. That was where I spent the bulk of my time. I had books, and Notroh, the cross-eyed guard, brought me food, or escorted me to the baths. Otherwise, however, I was basically a prisoner.
There was another guard on my door - Notroh's partner. He was equally young, and obviously under strict instructions never to speak with me. I asked Notroh what his partner's name was.
- "I cannot tell you that." was his answer.
So I gave the other guard a name. He had no distinguishing features, so I thought of him as N.P. - Notroh's Partner. And so he became 'Enpy', to me. There were two - or possibly four - other guardsmen, who took shifts at my door, to prevent me from leaving the room. But I never interacted with them at all. Yasina wanted my existence kept secret.
That's why, when Notroh came to get me, I was eager to go. I wondered what Yasina would have to say as I put the hood on. Notroh made me wait inside the room while he opened the door, and looked both ways. Enpy stared straight ahead.
Notroh indicated that I should follow. We turned left. I saw two more guardsmen, stationed at the very next door.
Notroh walked six paces, and stopped. He saluted the two other guardsmen. I was ushered between them as the door opened, and I entered the room. I was tempted to laugh out loud, but I'm sure that the guardsmen would not have appreciated it.
Bishkur was waiting for me, idly scanning a scroll. He was the Emperor, but I kept thinking of him as Prince Bishkur.
- "Carrach!" he said, with genuine warmth.
I bowed. "At your service, Highness."
- "And I at yours." he replied, politely.
- "Now that you are Emperor, Highness, I'm not sure that you need to say that."
- "Oh? Perhaps not." He smiled. "But then, you need not ... address me as 'Highness' at every turn."
He had brought a number of scrolls.
- "Which of these do you ... recommend I read first?" he asked.
- "Before we begin, Highness -"
He held up a hand, palm outward.
- "I'm sorry. I was simply going to tell you, before we say anything: the Empress has ordered me to report to her, in writing: everything you discuss with me."
- "I understand." he said.
- "You don't seem surprised." I observed.
- "I have very few secrets from my mother, Carrach." he said. "But I appreciate your ... candor."
We got down to business. He had brought chronicles of famous campaigns, treatises on military strategy, and travellers' accounts of the lands around Zamarka.
- "Which should I read first?" he asked. "Which would you ... recommend?"
I glanced at the titles, and quickly made three piles.
- "These." I suggested, pointing to the nearest pile. "Rabashik first -
Principles of Strategy
. It's old, but it's still the best. He's a good writer, too - you'll enjoy it. Then, if you have the time, or the patience, you can read these two."
"After those, you'll be better prepared for the chronicles. Sarran is probably the best. He gets a little carried away with the Battle of Hyspa, but that's because he was there, in person."
- "Really?"
- "Best way to learn." I said. "As for the travellers' journals, most of them are pure embroidery. Tales of distant lands, where men have three eyes, and the camels' heads face the same direction as their tails. They're meant to entertain. But you can rely more on Sohrip."
- "Why is that?" asked Bishkur.
- "He was an Imperial spy, employed by your grandfather. He visited the Kilchiks, the Roxoni, and many others. He counted their settlements, and described their customs, their dwellings - everything he saw. It's strictly factual - and even more interesting."
- "And this pile?"
- "A waste of time." I told him. "Don't even bother."
- "Have you read them all?" he asked.
We had a pleasant discussion about history, and reading. Every so often, I remembered that I was speaking to the Emperor. You might think that would be unsettling to be looking at someone who so closely resembled me. We might have been brothers - even twins (though I was a few years older).
No, the odd thing about conversing with the Emperor was the thought that I had slept with his mother. Or, rather ... that she had slept with me. Did Yasina harbor some strange desire for her own son? Best not to think about that too much.
Then Bishkur changed the subject. "The other day, Carrach. Why did you ask if I was heterosexual? It did not strike me as simple ... curiosity."
- "I was ... concerned, Highness. Sorry."
- "Can you explain the nature of this ... concern?"
I took a deep breath. "The Empress used me once, as a decoy, a double for you. She may choose to do it again. Hopefully, in a less violent setting."
"But there are other dangers. What if, in the course of impersonating you, I encountered a close friend of yours. Perhaps even someone that ... you were intimate with."
- "I begin to understand." he said.
- "They'd know instantly. I would fail to recognize them, to provide the sort of signal, or recognition that they would expect."
- "I am not in the habit of kissing or embracing close friends in public." he said. Bishkur was not angry - he understood what I was driving at.
- "No - I know that. But they know, instantly, just from the way you look at them, where they stand in your affections." I said.
- "And all of this, you ... deduced, from the way I looked at handsome men?"
- "Partly." I admitted.
- "Well, then ... we must not put you in situations where that could ... occur."
- "But if we do that, Highness, then we limit my potential usefulness. If I
cannot
pass as you, then why keep me here? And if the Empress has no further use for me ..." I deliberately left that last bit hanging.
- "I would gladly find employment for you." he said.
- "It's not unemployment that I fear, Highness. I am privy to a few too many secrets."
Bishkur was no fool. He studied me gravely. "You believe that she would have you killed?"
I didn't have to say anything. In truth, I was worried that she would have my father and Minika killed, as well. Sumad's fate was a clear indication of what happened to people who knew Yasina's secrets. But I could not say all of that to her son.