Preface: It is the eve before the battle that will end the war. Lord Commander Aria Schezobraska is anxious, and visits the tent of her lover James for a hand. Written from James's point of view. An erotic short story featuring original characters Aria Schezobraska and James Stromiskar.
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The aroma of apricot tea boiling in the kettle did nothing to stave my apprehension. I had my sword, hung by the doorway, sharpened just before dusk. At dawn, I would be forced to use it. And only the gentle scraping of a quill under burning midnight oil—most certainly not sleep—could calm me.
"Lord Commander, are you there?"
Her sudden voice shook me. Gah! And there it went. I had knocked over the ink well and soiled the letter.
Godsdamnit.
"Yes!" I exclaimed, hastily containing the mess. "Is everything alright, Aria?"
Her shadow was cast upon the tent wall. There, she drew the curtains aside and entered, ducking below the ceiling lamp, as tall people do.
Like me, she was dressed in full armor--silver greaves, dark breeches, and a breastplate fitted to her full bosom. A bastard sword was strapped to her back. Though appearing grave, her fair countenance, blemished with a thin scar over her right eye, still shined as though a cracked diamond. Her hair, a shade of uncommon violet, cascaded down her shoulders.
"I'm sorry, James," she said. "Is this a bad time?"
"No, no need to apologize. I didn't mean to shout."
"Is that the letter to Count Avoret?"
"It was." I managed a chuckle. "Want to help me write another one?"
"James, I think you need to sleep. The Empire's forces will be here in seven hours' time." She might have sounded admonishing, but her tone was tinged with concern. I smiled.
"And so should you, Lady Commander Schezobraska," I retorted.
"Well, admittedly, I'm having trouble sleeping too."
"Then that makes two of us."
I tried to force a laugh with her. It didn't happen.
Nonetheless, Aria's quaint lisp put me at ease. Of course, this idle chat was not at all why she was here.
I rose from my chair with a creak. We'd been through this song and dance before. Sometimes I would initiate an encounter, but of late it was she who did so first. Oft she visited to discuss upcoming battle strategies. Other times, she wanted to share food and drink. Or a kiss, which I welcomed—and returned—wholeheartedly.
The kettle quietly boiled on the hearth while a symphony of crickets chirped. There, I sat with her.
"Part of me wants to believe that everything will be alright," she started.
"Renoir assures me so. As usual. But, I know that most of our forces will probably be dead by the end of tomorrow."
"Aria, we can't keep dwelling on those who are dead, or will die. There is a time to fight, and there is a time to mourn."
These words I borrowed from my late mother, lest you wonder whether I am as wise as I seem.
"I know that, of course. It's just... I realize that this is a final night's sleep for many. How many lives would be spared if we just... just stopped and turned around?"
I was tempted for a moment to actually heed her words. Lord Commander though I was, I didn't want to die. I wanted to live with Aria, make love with her, and find our ultimate happiness. But those are not the words that came from my mouth.
"The men and women of this company are prepared to give their lives for our country's freedom," I said. "Those who aren't have already left."
"Well." She tilted her head. "You're... right, of course."
"You have doubts now?" I frowned. "After devising the battle plans yourself?"
"It is not so much doubt," Aria smiled ruefully. "But the uncertainty of life. I've prepared as much as I can, but there's no telling what will happen now."
"If that is not doubt, what is it? Aria, remember Harforth? Reinbach? Queensgallow? We took all of those strongholds with your careful planning. You're an excellent tactician. I see no reason for you to doubt yourself now, of all times. Unless something has gone wrong?"
My mother always said that the most reliable people will fail at the most crucial times. Aria was not, to my knowledge, such a person.
"No, I think everything is going according to plan." she sighed. "I just need..." She trailed off, looking away. The glowing embers danced excitedly in her placid, blue eyes.
Oh. I get it now.
Yes, that one tryst, on the seventh day of winterlight not so long ago. Given the nature of our lives, often we had not the time or convenience to bed each other properly. But passion and desire, whether curse or blessing, still manifested and needed to be handled, for lack of a better word. That one night, Aria bade me touch her in pleasant ways so that she might dispel her immediate needs. I didn't know how successful I was until now.
"I see. Do you need a...?"
"A hand? Was it that obvious?" She blushed fiercely.
"It's not the first time."
"I couldn't do it myself. Not alone, anyway. It's not too much trouble is it?"