Never tried writing anything like this before, but it was fun to write -- I hope it's fun to read, too!
As usual, everyone involved in any sort of sex is 18 or over.
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They stay that stage fright fades over time, and you can get used to more or less anything. I, however, would disagree.
Sure, I've performed before, and that had followed the usual progression from pants-wettingly terrifying to simply fun. All of my experience had been on a
lot
smaller scale than what I was facing tonight.
Even the fact that everyone else thought I could do it didn't help much.
Taking a deep breath, then letting it out slowly in an attempt to calm my nerves, I opened my eyes and faced my reflection in the hotel room's full-length mirror.
At first glance, there wasn't anything that really stood out about my appearance, just another human woman among a couple of billion others. With a fluffy white towel wrapped around my hair and another around the rest of me, I wondered briefly if I'd made a really
really
bad decision.
My reflection's vibrant green eyes met their real counterparts, and I took another deep breath, ruthlessly ignoring the butterflies in my stomach.
Just get on with it, you daft bitch.
Dragging the towel off of my body, I let it fall and ran a critical eye over the figure that was revealed. Tanned, graceful limbs, a tight belly, perky tits that would have filled out a bra quite nicely if I'd been wearing one... and the rather startling sight of no hair at all between my legs.
That wasn't something I normally did, but it seemed to fit what was happening tonight, and I'll admit to having felt a bit of a thrill as I'd shaved myself clean in the shower.
A twist around, and I checked myself out from the rear as best I could, and nodded in approval of the way my perky butt did the rest of me proud. I couldn't see any sign of tan lines, either, which was a bonus, and proof that the time I'd spent on a sunbed hadn't been wasted.
Okay, nothing gone wrong there, which is a start
.
Next up, the towel around my head, and I took a moment to whisper a series of arcane syllables before letting it fall to join its companion with a soggy thud. Freed from the fabric that had just had all the water left from my shower drawn into it, hair the shade of fresh blood tumbled down past my shoulders, unravelling itself until it brushed the base of my spine.
I considered running a brush through it, but figured the more rough-and-tumble way it looked right now probably suited the situation best, and thanks to the cantrip I'd just cast, it was fully dry already.
A very handy spell, that one, and possibly the single most commonly used one in my repertoire.
"Okay," I told myself in the mirror. "You've ready for this. They picked
you
to do it, and there are gods know how many people who'd kill for the shot you're being given."
As pep talks went, that wasn't too bad, but it didn't quite hit the spot.
"Don't. Fuck. It. Up."
After a moment, I burst out laughing at the sober, serious stare I was giving my reflection, and shook my head as I turned to head over to the bed.
And promptly tripped over the towels and nearly fell flat on my face.
"For fuck's sake..."
Muttering about the fact I seemed determined to screw up even the smallest details, I kicked the towels out of the way and grabbed the lacy black bra that was laying on the bed. Slipping it on, I scooped up the t-shirt next and hauled that over my head. A few seconds of getting my hair sorted, and the rest of the outfit followed: panties that matched the bra, figure-hugging jeans, socks, and a comfy pair of sneakers.
What I'd
actually
be wearing for tonight would be waiting for me there, but this would do me until it was time. And speaking of time, a knock on the door came just as I was straightening up after getting my sneakers on.
"Miss Khaine? You ready, or do you need a bit longer?"
I didn't recognise the voice, but when I opened the door, I definitely recognised the source. At nearly seven feet tall and built like a chunk of geology, the orc was rather smart in his well-tailored suit, and I felt oddly reassured to see him.
It had been made clear to me when I'd been introduced to him that his main function was my safety and well-being, and whilst I was a bit wary about the fact my new employers thought his presence was necessary there was no denying the comforting notion that such a powerfully-built individual was dedicated to keeping my favourite self safe and well.
He was pretty easy on the eye, too. For an orc. Personally, I've never really gone for the big and green type, but there was no denying that he was a good looking example of the breed.
"Just need to grab my purse," I told him, and he nodded calmly.
"No rush, Miss Khaine."
Turning to do just what I'd said, I paused to look back at him over my shoulder. "You do remember that I asked you to call me Candice, don't you?"
"Yes, Miss Khaine."
"And you're not going to do it, are you."
"No, Miss Khaine."
"And now you're just fucking with me."
He didn't say a word, simply giving me a smile that widened into a quick grin as I stuck my tongue out at him and grabbed my purse.
"Okay, Joshua. All ready. Are getting a cab or something?"
Stepping back to let me step into the hall, he gestured toward the elevators and fell in beside me.
"Or something."
Frowning slightly, I looked up at him, rolling my eyes at the faint smile on his lips. I saw no reason to admit it to anyone, but despite how little time we'd known each other - about 13 hours by this point - I kinda liked him, and his sense of humour.
Quite what he was talking about, I was sure I'd find out soon enough. Though I was somewhat surprised when he pushed the button for the lobby. Somehow, I'd expected something more...
Actually, I wasn't sure, but it wasn't something so ordinary.
That feeling of unexpected mundanity didn't last, though. Not when he took me by the arm, escorting me in an imposingly gentlemanly manner across the lobby, out of the door - with a polite word for the doorman - and right up to a car that looked like it should have belonged to some third world dictator or something.
Stopping dead, I ignored the cool evening breeze that tried to remind me that I'd forgotten a jacket as I looked between the car and Joshua. "Seriously?"
A solemn nod, and he opened the door, beckoning me to climb inside and make myself comfortable.
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First appearances had not deceived, and the back seat of the car was, indeed, comfortable as hell. It was also big enough that, even with Joshua taking up as much space as he did, it didn't feel cramped at all.
Settling back into the leather upholstery, I ran my gaze over the car's interior, pausing for a moment when my eyes settled on what looked like a damned mini-bar, then carried on until I was looking out of the window as the driver pulled smoothly away from the curb and into traffic.
Definitely the most luxurious car ride I'd ever had... and it did nothing at all to counter the way the butterflies in my stomach were getting active again.
"You're nervous," the orc beside me said after a couple of minutes, and it was quite plainly not a question.
"No, it's fine."
Another minute or so passed as I carried on gazing out of the window, resisting the urge to wipe my palms on the legs of my jeans as I wondered yet again what the hell had possessed me to to agree to this.
Fuck, why had I even tried for it when the opportunity arose? It wasn't like I had any experience at this scale, and it only took two brain cells - which I had apparently not owned when I'd said yes to my agent - to work out that being a total fan-girl was
not
the sum total qualification needed.
"I'm really okay."
Once I'd accepted the offer my agent had called to tell me about, things had moved fast. It was hard to believe that it had only been a week, what with all the rushing for the audition, the nervous wait for a call back, the second round of screening, meeting everyone that I was going to need to know, learning the extra spells that were a vital part of what I was supposed to be doing...
"Really, really okay."
The car turned off of the main road, and the shift in direction jolted me back to the here-and-now, leaving me no excuse not to see that we were only another couple of minutes from the arena.
Okay, it wasn't a
big
arena, and nothing close to any of the truly massive stadiums, but it was still about ten times bigger than anywhere I'd worked before... and I'd never even set foot in the place. There was going to be no sense of familiarity to settle me down, no success to fall back on for reassurance.
"I think I'm gonna throw up."
The sound of Jousha shifting his bulk beside me barely registered, but his arm going around my shoulders, pulling me closer until I was nestled against his chest, definitely did. Normally, I might have taken exception to what he was doing, but right then...?
It actually helped.
"Just relax, Candice. You'll be fine. Remember nobody worth a damn thinks you'll make a mess of this."
"I wish I could share their confidence," I murmured back.
"They picked you. Not any of the other couple of thousand hopefuls.
You
. And they know what they're doing."
With the level of success they'd achieved, one would damned well hope so, but that meant nothing at all to my dry throat and sweaty palms.
"I guess it's too late now, anyway."