Chapter XXVI
Destiny awakened at dawn after her night with Juan. She was surprised to find herself on her couch in front of her television in DC. She was hot and sticky, and was wearing her clothes from Court. She had slept soundly for nine and a half hours. The weather was already steaming hot.
Itâs going to be another lovely summer day in the swamp that passes for the nationâs capitol.
God, what a dream I had, Destiny thought. She tried to put the pieces together but it was too fractured.
It seems like I went all over hell and back last night in my sleep. First Rodriguez on the island, she recalled, then her old junior high school boyfriend. God almighty, Iâd forgotten about that! She shuddered at the memory. Then off to the amusement park where she got a new, revised and very interesting version of the serial killerâs murder. And what was that bit about her and Nathan having lived together for seventeen years? What would her subconscious dream up next? she wondered. Iâve got to get this on tape before my memory dims.
She went into her bedroom and pulled out the tape recorder.
Well, at least there are no new surprises here
she thought as she looked at the label. She plumped up a pillow and lay back in bed. She closed her eyes and switched on the tape recorder. Dreamily she tried to reconstruct her memories of the dream sequences she had experienced during the hours she spent sacked out in front of her television.
As she spoke the memories became more and more real to her. She remembered the interlude on the mountain top with the unknown stranger. She had a sick feeling she knew who the stranger was.
Stephen, from the law firm, or Esteban. Maybe I should just think of him as âthe demonâ from now on.
As she spoke into the tape recorder she became more and more convinced that the dreams were real.
Her wrists were still bruised from yesterday. And there was the undeniable fact that John Rodgers from her dream of the amusement park was the John Rodgers she had met yesterday in Court. She became even more confused when she tried to sort out where and how Juan Rodriguez fit into the picture.
Had her fantasizing brought Rodriguez to life? Or had she made a trip to San Angeles Island in a parallel life two years ago? The first alternative made her feel very uncomfortable: All logic decried the possibility that her fantasy could be strong enough to bring Juan Rodriguez into being.
Is there a Juan Rodriguez on San Angeles Island? I donât even know if there is a San Angeles Island. The second alternative was almost unbearable disconcerting: Could there actually be a universe where Nathan and I stayed together and I had an entirely different career? If so, what was the result of my meeting Juan on the island two years ago.
She finished taping her memories and commentary, and added the label DL dream 4. Then, with a flash of paranoia, she decided to make a copy of the tape. She grabbed an extra tape from her office and used the tape deck in her living room to make the copy. She pulled out an old law school text book that she hadnât opened in 18 years and grabbed an exacto knife out of her tool box.
One thing dad was good about was making sure I was prepared for emergencies. I wonder how many single professional women in this city can put their hands on an exacto knife when they need one?
She carefully cut a square of pages out of the book, making room for one of the tapes. She put the original into the book and put the book back where it belonged, dust and all. She made a new label for the second tape and put it in the zipper compartment of the inside flap of her briefcase.
I know Iâm being paranoid, but it doesnât hurt to be careful
she told herself.
Her client that morning was one of the few who was actually in compliance with his Court orders. Actually, he was a pretty neat kid with a lot going for him. Probation had been a positive experience for him. He had a probation officer who had helped get him back on track with school. And he had gotten some drug and individual counseling out of the deal.
I wish they would all work out so well.
She decided to double check her calendar before getting ready for Court and realized she had a 1:30 appointment with Dr. Phaeton.
This will be a very interesting session
. She was undecided as to whether she would share her tape with the doctor. Sheâd only seen him once before and wasnât quite sure she trusted him. Suddenly she wished John were there to give her advice.
Itâs amazing how quickly I came to trust John.
Then she realized how much they had been through together and decided it wasnât quite so surprising after all.
Destiny showered, shampooed and shaved her legs. She put her hair into a French braid without drying it. Her apartment didnât have central air conditioning. The weather was too hot to put up with a blow dryer. Using it would evaporate all benefit from the nice cool shower she had just taken.
She dressed carefully that morning, wearing her favorite lavender cotton twill suit. The skirt was short and showed off her legs. The Jacket was short sleeved with a scooped neckline, nice and cool for the summer weather. She wore dressy white sandals with a low heel, and silk panties and bra.
She applied her best make up, using a little more than usual. She suddenly realized she was dressing provocatively in the hope of running into John. She wondered if he would be in the cafeteria when she got to Court. Officers with morning Court responsibilities often gathered in the cafeteria between 8:00 and 9:00 a.m. Destiny decided sheâd get to Court early and eat breakfast in the cafeteria. Maybe Johnâd be there and she could invite him to come with her to see Dr. Phaeton.
She fed Top Cat, picked up her briefcase and purse, and headed out the door. It was still relatively cool so she decided to walk. She snagged a white rose for her lapel on her way. She hummed the old Led Zeppelin tune âStairway to Heavenâ
and if you listen very hard, the tune will come to you at last, when one is all and all is one, yeah, to be a rock and not to roll,
under her breath as she walked.