4. Domestique
Joanna woke once that night, put her hand on me so I woke too, then I massaged her to sleep. Then for another 45 minutes in the morning before she left. I found myself with a honey-do list, and I found myself doing it. Finished putting up shelves in our home offices. Ran a snake through the upstairs bathroom pipes, which had been running slow. Scrubbed tubs, showers, sinks, toilets, windows. Re-mounted towel bars the previous owners had anchored in drywall but which would pop out if you didn't lift the towel before pulling it toward the shower. I keep having to buy bigger drywall anchors. Did whatever pots and pans were in the kitchen, scraping off every blemish. Swept, vacuumed, mopped, even dusted. I already do some dishes most days and the heavy cleaning every few months except the dusting because ... who dusts? Sorted through some of the old computer equipment, CDs, and documentation in our basement. Three old laptops and two desktops were past salvage, plus mice, keyboards, cables. Jeez, I hadn't looked at this stuff for years - there were a couple boxes full, plus the desktops. Would be nice to have it gone, yeah.
Joanna came home, said "Happy Hour with Bre and Anne. What did you plan for dinner?" She handed me a new list for tonight and tomorrow. "Make dinner tonight" was prominent, so was "No alcohol before it's ready." DAMN it, I like a beer and/or a glass of wine while cooking. Or two, heh. I thought about it, decided on chicken with capers and roasted lemons, which I hadn't tried before but which had sounded good since I first saw the recipe, and all the ingredients were handy. I got to scrubbing, slicing, seeding, roasting, pounding, chopping, dredging, sautΓ©ing, grating. Orzo on the side with butter, parm, parsley, and garlic, then haricots verts. I'm the only one in the family who actively likes green beans, but Joanna and the kids tolerate them, especially swimming in butter and parm that maybe defeats the purpose, but ... my family's relationship with greens is complicated.
She returned when the chicken was nearly done, kissed me on the cheek.
"Smells good, darling ... really good," then kissed me on the lips, longer. I was feeling pretty satisfied, actually. Got a lot of nagging overdue stuff done without nearly as much fucking around as usual, and my day of unquestioning obedience was nearly done.
The chicken was outstanding, the orzo is always good, and the green beans, well, reactions varied as always, but at least everyone ate some.
"Wash up for me, sweetie?" Joanna said/asked. I got the kids to rinse and load dishes into the dishwasher, did the pots and pans myself. I try to minimize the number of dishes used so I will also minimize cleanup, but you know how that goes.
Joanna was on the living room couch, put her laptop away.
"Build a fire?" she said, and I did. Light starter paper under heavier starter like broken-up egg cartons, then light kindling for tinder, heavy kindling, and at least one level of logs, each level of wood crosswise to the one below to absorb and reflect that heat back down while still facilitating airflow. Do it right and you only have to light it once. For the rest of us, there's extra starter, deep breaths, and time. Still, in about 5 minutes the fireplace was crackling and the light kindling was turning to coals. I once again envied the gas starter pipes my parents installed when I was growing up. Once the big logs get going the fire will take care of itself, but getting to that point can be tricky.
I sat down in front of the fire but to one side ... can't obstruct the heat radiating into the room or why bother?
"Sit with me?" Joanna asked, and of course climbing to the couch with her was exactly what I did next. It was nice: kisses, embraces, warm fire. We played a game of cribbage. She's good but I'm better, and since she hadn't told me she wanted to win ... she didn't. She seemed unhappy.
"So I only have a couple more hours of being totally in charge of you?" she asked.
I nodded.
"Bob, I really enjoyed this, you got so much done today, and there's so much more we can do together," she said.
I nodded, wondering.
"So what happens if I tell you I want to be in charge for another day?" she asked.
"I don't know," I said. "I'm new to this."
"Let's try," she said. "You will obey any command I give you for the next day." And she snapped her fingers.
I wanted to nod, wanted to not nod. Settled for kinda bobbing my head.
"Do you understand?" Joanna asked.
I nodded.
"Do you agree?" she asked.
I hesitated.
"You agree," she said, and snapped her fingers.
I nodded.
"Do you like it?" she asked.
Another hesitation.
"You like it," she said, and snapped her fingers.
And I nodded.
"And will you do it?" she asked.
I nodded.
"I love you, sweetie," she said, and kissed me.
She kissed me more later, and I kissed her back. And front. And everywhere. And I liked that, too.
Joanna's updated honey-do list was short: "Clean out the garage."
No big deal, right? Except most of what was in the garage was stuff she'd put there. Not that I hadn't also contributed and I certainly knew some was excess. Waste wood including furniture components she'd accumulated from garage sales or neighbors or auction sites or other random people. So many busted kites, old plastic sleds and bike parts, two bikes and several pairs of skis and poles the kids had outgrown, our college papers and notes in the same cardboard boxes they'd sat in for decades, aluminum cans, old paint cans from the previous owners, milk cartons I'd been hoping to build into a summer festival float. For 15 years. More old computers, printers, a big CRT, some even back in their original boxes. An old box spring, a carpet remnant Joanna had gotten from some college friends that we'd never come close to using. There was a truckload of stuff in there, plus the stuff I'd collected from the basement yesterday. Four destinations: electronics recycler, metal recycler, donate the surplus bikes and skis, and another to the dump. I rented a truck, hauled everything away, and still managed to return the truck by late afternoon.
Joanna had been to the spa. She was radiant. The spa visit meant her feet would be as soft and smooth as the rest of her. I liked that.
"What's for dinner?" she asked.
I hadn't started anything but there was still time. I *