I love my husband. He's kind, he's handsome, he's sweet, he's an attentive lover, he works hard and his job is good. We do have the occasional fight from time to time, as all couples do, but not about kids. A cruel twist of fucked-up genetics means I cannot give birth, and Jeff prefers romantic holidays for two over the screams of child-friendly resorts.
No, the arguments we do have are about Jeff's perverse desire to watch me fuck other men. In particular, he wants to watch me with a black man.
Den blinks, shocked. "He what?"
"Jeff wants to watch a black man fuck me," I repeat, "preferably one with a very big cock."
I work part-time doing admin at a charity warehouse. Den's a co-worker, currently single, a couple of years younger than me, and black. "How do you feel about that?" he asks, eyebrow arched quizzically.
"It used to bother me a lot," I admit.
"Not any more?"
I shrug. "It would depend on the man, I guess. I don't think I could relax with a stranger."
He eyes me speculatively. I like Den. I don't know him well, but he's difficult not to notice. Tall, muscular, a loud laugh and an infectious smile. Used to flirt in a friendly way with Amber who worked in reception, despite her being married. "And you're telling me why?"
Despite everything, raising the subject with him already has me feeling unfaithful. "I love my husband," I say firmly, an insistence as much for myself as Den. "But I find you very attractive - and not because you're black." And not because he's supposedly hung like a horse. Well, that certainly doesn't hurt. Although it might.