Part 2: The First Time Watching My Sweet Wife
For several weeks after Nikki's confession, I experienced a vast range of emotions: Fear, anxiety, nausea. But mostly I experienced jealousy and arousal. Nikki and I talked on occasion, mostly by email. I often fantasized about what they were doing, but Nikki didn't go into detail about her excursions with Matt. So the anxiety eventually subsided a bit.
Finally, I got great news that I would be going home in August. I had been begging Nikki to let me watch her and Matt, but she kept putting me off. Three weeks before I was to return home, Nikki emailed me and told me Matt is, "absolutely into making you watch us." She said he had been reluctant because, despite her assurances, he wasn't convinced I'd be able to handle it. I suspected that Nikki wanted to continue seeing him even after I returned, and so she wanted to let me watch while I was gone as kind of a test run. Somehow she convinced Matt. I imagined her begging him to let me watch.
We set a date to Skype. Nikki also thought it would be hot if I bought some sexy lingerie for her to wear. I wasted no time going to Victoria Secret online and ordering the sexiest lingerie I could find, spare no expense, rush delivery.
I was literally sick with anticipation for three days prior to our "date." Honestly, I hated the anxiety. Nikki had made me promise not to jerk off three days prior to our date, so when the time came, and the camera clicked on, I think I was seriously a bit delirious. My beautiful Nikki sat there smiling, wearing a sexy, short little dress and heels, which she took off as she sat on the bed.
"I love your dress," I said.
"Matt likes it too. I wore it for him tonight on our date." I felt a pang of jealousy, and Nikki knew it.
After some chit-chat, she said, "Are you sure you're ok with this?"
"I'm 100% sure." I said. "Are you?"
"Oh, I am. I want to make sure you are."
"I am."
"So I was thinking about what you said, and talked to Matt about it and ... I just want to make sure we're on the same page with the boyfriend/girlfriend thing."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I want you to know that I love you and I would never leave you ... I just want you to remember that when you are watching us."
"Sure," I said.
Nikki continued. "Matt understands that you're still my husband, and when I'm with you, you come first... . But you did agree I could be Matt's girlfriend, so when I'm with him I have to put him first. So I'm not going to ask you permission for every little thing. I have to make my own decisions about what is ok and what is not ok. You know what I mean?"
"Ok," I said.
"When I'm with you I'm yours, completely... . But when I'm with Matt, it's only fair that the same rule applies. I'm his, completely... . Not yours."
"Ok," I said.
"No, I want you to say you agree," Nikki demanded. I felt like Nikki was setting me up for something, and I loved it.
"I agree," I said definitively.
"Good. Then we're on the same page... ."
"I feel like you're preparing me for something unexpected."
"It's just that tonight you're going to see me with him for the first time, and ... well ... it's a lot different than when you and I are together," Nikki said sympathetically.
"So you're saying I'm going to be jealous."
"Ahhhh, trust me ... you're going to be jealous. Matt said he'll make sure you're jealous," she smiled.
"I want to be jealous," I said. "It turns me on, remember?"
"Do you want to see what I'm going to wear for my boyfriend tonight?" Nikki asked. She pushed the camera back slightly with her foot. (I will not get into the various reasons that subtle move with her foot turned me on so much, but I found it invigorating and humiliating, as if I were there and she was pushing me back with her foot.)
"Definitely." I said.
Nikki slowly unzipped her dress. She was completely naked underneath. I noticed she shaved her pussy. "Matt likes me smooth," she said. She put on a little ankle bracelet, which she knew I loved. Then she picked up a thin silver necklace, took her wedding ring off, slipped it on the necklace and put it around her neck. She rubbed some lotion on her legs, arms, and breasts. She took her time, making sure I could see she was making herself perfect for her boyfriend. She picked up the tiny pair of tiny white, lace thong panties I sent her and slid them on. Then she put on the matching bra, and finally the little white, sheer teddy.
"Do you like?" Nikki smiled, as she spun around. "Thank you for the lingerie. Maybe sometime I'll let you enjoy me in it, but Matt will get to enjoy me in it first."
My face must have turned beat red.
Nikki smiled almost sympathetically. "Awwe! You're embarrassed. That's so cute." Then she added more seriously, "We're going to see if Matt can get it up for me." Another jab at my inability on several occasions to get it up.
My heart was racing.
She continued. "And if he can, then you're going to see him have me naturally tonight."
"You mean ... "
"No condom." She said.
"So is that what you're taking from me?" I asked.
"Besides your dignity?" Nikki giggled. "No. I already have," she giggled.
I stammered. "What's the game?"
"Tonight I'm going to try and make both of you cum. Whoever cums first loses."
"What do you mean 'loses'? Loses what?"
"Control." Nikki said. "Right now, when you get back you really call the shots. You're my husband, so if you asked me to stop dating Matt, as hard as it would be, I would. Tonight you're going to decide how far you want to take this."
"Ok," I said, unsure of where this was going.
"So the winner tonight gets to call the shots from now on. If you win, and you can hold off cumming until Matt finishes, then you get to say when and how often I get to see Matt, if at all... . On the other hand, if you lose because you can't control yourself, I get to see Matt as often as I want for as long as I want. And Matt gets to say when and how often you get to fuck me."
I listened, unsure about the deal.
"You really have a big advantage," Nikki said. "He'll be fucking me. You'll just be masturbating. So you have a lot more control. It's really more of a matter of what you want deep down, isn't it?"