Tanya shows she's more than a gifted actress when Lisa reaches a breaking point.
*
With my first lesbian scene ever behind me, I took some time to learn more about my co-star. "So how long have you been a bi-sexual?" I asked Ginger as we sat together after my first lesbian scene.
"Ever since I found I could almost double my income," she said.
I laughed at her but she seemed to be serious. "I was one of the first hires here but there wasn't any work for several months. I did some clips and some anal but it wasn't enough to pay the bills. I saw that Starlight was filming a lesbian series so I asked for an audition. I'd never been with a woman so I watched lesbian porn. Lots of it in fact, but when I auditioned, they sent me to a lesbian coach who taught me a whole new side of lesbian porn. That was a turning point. I didn't accept it overnight, and in fact, I hated it at first because I felt like it was forced on me in a way by the situation. The coach was patient and so helpful and now I love it."
"So who was your lesbian coach?"
"Delaney Sanders. You'll meet her in a few minutes. Sweet as a honey crisp but a lot more juicy and a great coach."
"Two minutes every one," Wanda called. "Room 2."
We walked into the room to polite applause from everyone there. "Okay, let's settle down," Jeanine called. "Find a chair so we can talk about that scene."
I grabbed a chair between Lisa and Ginger and took Lisa's hand. She offered a weak smile and leaned into me to whisper. "I need to talk to you."
"Are you all right?"
She shook her head and turned her head away to hide the tears I knew she was fighting.
I squeezed her hand and leaned against her. "Right after the meeting."
"Okay, so I'm sure we all know that we didn't hold to the script or anywhere near it but congratulations," Jeanine began. "That's the new way of making adult films. That's the Bellweather Studios way. Now, it will change some, but you've all heard time after time. "It has to be real." It doesn't get much more real than that. Trust me, this studio is very real. We do things differently than anyone else.
Now let's get down to the specifics. I am so proud to see that no one used the prompters at all. If you blew a line, and you blew a lot of them, you kept going and your instincts were dead on. You just made two beautiful, very emotional, very real and smoking hot scenes. Ladies, we'll talk to you individually later. Cameras and sound, you were fantastic staying with the emotions and getting the tight shots that sell movies. It was just a fantastic job everyone and you absolutely justified our way of doing things. Now, if you'll excuse us, we need to go change our panties."
I told Ginger to cover for us and we went to the vacant room next door.
I blocked the doors and we sat on boxes with only a little bit of light making it through the top of the doors.
I took her in my arms and as we pressed our bodies together, the dam broke and all the emotions she'd been holding in check were released in the form of tears and deep sobs that wracked her body until they eased and the hic ups started. I talked her down and kissed her face before she wiped the tears away with her hands.
"Talk to me."
"Oh god, Tanya, it was terrible. I tried so hard to get through it in spite of my emotional issues. You know, the parents and the church and all, and I did pretty good, but the guilt had me crying inside most of the time."
"Calm down, babe," I said, stroking her back and arms and kissing her face."I'll talk to Jeanine and see if there's anything we can do. You go take a shower and I'll go find Jeanine."
I threw a robe on and went in search of Jeanine. If I couldn't pull this off, Lisa would lose her contract and I'd lose a friend.
I found her, still in the break area, along with Georgia and Delaney.
"I need your help," I said. "Well, actually Lisa does."
"We were just talking about her," Jeanine said.
"Is there something we can do to help her overcome that guilt problem?" I asked.
They exchanged worried looks before Jeanine replied. "I'm not sure," she said. "Delaney has expressed some doubts."
"I've seen this before," Delaney said, "and to tell the truth, it's really hard to overcome."
"Can I offer an opinion and maybe a suggestion?
"Of course you can," Jeanine said, "and just so you know, we don't want to lose her. She's cute as a button, sharp as a tack and what a body."
"I think part of the problem," I said "is that she learned basically at the last minute that she was doing a lesbian scene and she simply didn't have time to reconcile her issues ahead of it. I think with some time, patience and some one on one, she'll be able to accept it."
"Let me put it to you bluntly," Delany said. "Time is something we are short on. We're under a deadline and in fact, you're getting another screenplay today. If you want to see if you can help her, be my guest because we really need her in the project."
I found her, still sitting where I left her, with her head down and facing away from the door.
I sat next to her and leaned into her, determined to save her career. "Can I have this dance?"
"I'm sorry, hon, but I think the music died."
"It hasn't died, Lisa, it's just been muted and I think we can still hear it but we need to fix something first."
She turned to me, tears streaming down pale cheeks. "I'm so messed up, Tanya"
"Do you have a problem being naked next to me?"
She shook her head and pressed her body into mine.
"Can I try something?"