We were quiet in the car for a while, a thoughtful look on Stony's face. She stared straight ahead.
I thought I ought to break the tension with something kind of neutral.
"He must have given her permission."
"Who? What?"
"Henry. He must have given Moe'Neyah permission to compete on White Girl Pride Day."
"Oh, that. Yeah."
"Got him super hard thinking about Pharaoh fucking his girl."
"Yeah."
"She was being a good girl, excellent submission, both White Girl Day and letting him watch Bri eat her. And you know I think he's right. Why would anyone have a rule about lesbians? Most of us never believed it was even possible."
I laughed at my own little joke. I'd just witnessed two beautiful women undoing that theory.
"Girls knew. We whispered about it. Even some of the female teachers in Health and Submission admitted it, but we were always told it was like one in ten billion girls or something."
"I guess it's more," I said.
Stony finally looked over and smiled at me. "That's my guess too. I just never knew a girl could be out shopping for an outfit and an hour later she's getting her pussy eaten by a girl she never met before."
"Yeah, that is a surprise...so, tell the truth, are you mad at Bri?"
Stony gave this a little puff of dismissal. "I did tell the truth. No, really I'm not. But it's like I said, confusing."
"Yeah...so..so do you think you want to..you know...again with Briana?"
"Well, hard to say...and maybe it depends on where she goes with Moe'Neyah, like do they keep going?"
"Doesn't sound like they traded numbers or emails or anything."
"Jeff. Think. Bri knows where Moe's boyfriend lives. If she wants to get with Moe again she'll be able to figure it out. I bet next time Henry isn't invited," she ended with a laugh.
"hmmmm maybe. I'm just glad I get invited."
This surprised her. "Jeff, you're not 'invited'. I mean I am crazy about Bri and her body and doing those things, but I'd never be there without you. Don't you know that? That I need you?"
"hmmmm thank you." This seemed like the time to ask, so I did. "What do you think about the other thing? The other thing Briana said?"
I think Stony knew what I meant, but played dumb. "What thing? She said a lot of them, whew!" And laughed.
"About us. About us being perfect together." It made me nervous just to say it out loud.
"Oh, that," she said, her voice flat.
"Yeah."
Stony waited a long time. We were getting close to her house. She'd be happy cause it was only 10:40. On time for her Mom. She finally looked at me, raised her eyebrows and said, "Why don't you ask me that when you're not married?"
I pulled in front of her doorway. Stony touched my hand nice and leaned in to kiss my cheek. She got out, ran up the little path to her house and disappeared inside. I sat there for some time thinking. Eventually her Mom, I'm sure it must have been Stony's Mom, started blinking the doorway lights off and on, letting me know it was time to leave. I drove off slowly.
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***Thursday, August 29, 2304***
I didn't sleep well at all that night. Tossed and turned and got up for a sip of water, then got up for a pee, and then tossed and turned some more. Each time I dropped off there was this wild dream. I was up on that mountain Stony told me about. Only it's me and Alicia inside. We stand side by side looking out, not touching. Outside is like everyone. Alicia's sister Beth is there with her husband, talking about the baby. Roger is looking through the window to see if Alicia is nude. Lady Florence is trying to climb a sheer face of rock. Dad has one of those old-fashioned ear trumpets and Mom stands in front crying and screaming into it. Stony is there sitting alone. Bri and Moe'Neyah are there too, holding hands and laughing. Scots Willy is running around singing his national song and handing out pictures of Alicia in her bikini. Klara and Dr. Glockenspiel are going from girl to girl selling, getting them to look inside a little box I know contains a clit-ring. Draymond is there writing everything down, like he's doing a book report. Elizabeth is on her knees blowing her husband. She looks up at us and says, "Roxie told me to". Judith Mogumbo is there screaming, "Sluts! They're all sluts!". Then Moe'Neyah is with her boyfriend Henry and the two of them lift this huge boulder and throw it full force at the window Alicia and I stand behind.
That's when I woke up for good. I guess you can see why I didn't get the best sleep. It was very disturbing.
I was up drinking coffee at 4 a.m., couldn't leave for work for at least three more hours. That's when the guilt hit. Big time. What on earth was I doing? What happened to my morals? All the rules I was breaking, and with two different women. Breaking my marriage vows. Encouraging the girls to do even worse things, things I never dreamt of. It all hit me. Hard and deep and fast.
I knew Alicia let Dray fuck her, and yeah he was probably still fucking her, maybe. Knew she sucked off Eric a whole bunch, maybe 43 times. Knew she probably betrayed her girlfriend Briana. In some sense Alicia deserved it. Guess it made me feel better to think that.
Then I thought about it. Alicia probably didn't deserve it, not really. What about me? I let Stony suck my dick before I ever knew the worst about Alicia. I even let her swallow. I guess I was no angel either.
Then you think about everything all together. Everything that had happened. Alicia was on exemption with Eric and learning some valuable skills. Even with Draymond I knew she was learning how to please her betters, which we were taught is a good thing. And this thing about Draymond still fucking her? Did I really know that? Just cause she knew Sweet Tea and Mongoose? That didn't prove anything. Maybe he just fucked her that once, and then lent her a book on fucking, kind of like a thanks for the one fuck. Maybe she knew Sweet and Mongoose just from reading. Or maybe some other upper girl told her about them. Maybe she really was faithful now.
Plus, whatever she had done, I began to see it was all part of Alicia's destiny. She was destined to serve Eric, destined to be with Draymond, destined to become a finalist on Pharaoh, destined to become Pharaoh's girl.
Destiny. A big word.
You think about destiny. It has to excuse a whole lot. Really. Greatness demands some sacrifice. While you make those sacrifices to learn and develop, like Alicia had with Eric and Draymond, well it doesn't look too good right then while you do it. But then one day the greatness comes out, the destiny is fulfilled. We witness God's plan and we realize, Oh I see now.
When that happens who would ever look back and say, "Oh, I was wrong to do those things which I had to do to show the world that greatness is possible and that anyone can achieve it if they just work hard and do everything in their power." Kind of like us lazy people are always trying to bring down people who really accomplish a lot, kind of finding all these little things our betters did wrong. Which is only cause we don't really have to do much to keep society rolling, so we have all this extra time to criticize.
If it really was Alicia's destiny to be with her Pharaoh, then what? She shouldn't have sucked Eric's dick 43 times? Shouldn't have learned Shaft and the other things that might bring him, a war hero, pleasure? Learned so that someday she'd know these things for Pharaoh? Shouldn't have let Dray fuck her? When for all she knew it was the first and only time she'd be able to get fucked by an upper, by a black man? So she'd be ready someday when her Pharaoh fucked her? Could she earn Pharaoh's bed if she never had these wonderful opportunities to learn and grow? Could she be worthy of submission if she refused to learn and work hard?
It's like this book I read as a kid on the ancient game béisbol where these guys stand around doing nothing till some other guy strikes béisbol with a stick. Then the guys who were standing around doing nothing have to run around like crazy trying to find béisbol. Back in the 20th century you were considered a good béisbol if you could strike béisbol one out of four times. Why it was so hard I don't know.
Along comes this guy Todd something, who, even if he's white (I think), strikes béisbol two out of five times, which is a bigger decimal on my calculator. Before then everyone thought Todd was kind of a dick, but afterwards thought like, "Whoa!, Todd can béisbol the best who cares if he's a dick?" And they took his head off and put it in a jar which is still in some museum in Africa I think. Striking béisbol was Todd's destiny.
Todd's head was reanimated in the year 2243 with a new, young athletic body (don't ask). When they found he couldn't strike béisbol even one out of 10 times they put his head back in the jar. I guess his destiny was over. Someday my Alicia's destiny would be over too. But not yet. She still has her destiny. And I'm going to leave her for a couple of sluts?