"A lot of Arabs are racist toward Africans, even in Canada," the young Middle-Eastern woman sitting across from me said with a sigh, looking at me as I got ready to get off the OC Transpo bus at Baseline Station. I looked at her and shrugged as I exited the bus. Everyone on the bus was looking at me but at this point, I didn't give a damn. Sometimes, a brother has just about enough of Ottawa-area people and their unique brand of passive-aggressive racist bullshit...
"Whatever," I say to the focal point of my rage, a young Arab dude sitting on the middle seats. While I was cussing him out, he called me something in Arabic which I did not understand. Whatever. Earlier, the dude got on at Fallowfield Station and sat next to me, and started looking at me in a shifty, vaguely hostile way while surreptitiously sneezing at me. You read right, the dude was sneezing at me. I got pissed and called him out on it, and got his attention by poking him on the arm. Dude, um, didn't like that...
What followed was a lot of angry staring and shouting between me and the sneezing Arab male passenger. I'm not buying that he was casually sneezing. The Arab dude was looking at me in a weird way since he got on the bus. A lot of people in this town are hateful and passive-aggressive, especially towards young black men. I seem to be the only one who calls them out on their bullshit. Guess I don't mind causing a scene. Just a big and tall, well-dressed brother with an Afro wilding out on the bus. Nothing to see here...
Shaking my head, I got on my way and watched the bus speed away. I wrapped up my coat and headed to the Ottawa Public Library at Centrepointe, which sat in the distance. I headed there and picked up the two books I had on hold, Star Trek novels taking place within the Klingon Empire. Yeah, I'm a Trekkie. Black male Trekkies do exist, ladies and gentlemen. Get used to it. Ignoring the endless stream of old people and brats coming in and out of the library, I head back to Baseline.
It's a cold day, and I hate waiting for the bus at Baseline Station because it's too frigging exposed. The only places in the City of Ottawa with heated bus shelters are Lincoln Fields and, um, Place d'Orleans. And huge distances separate the two of them. Fortunately for me, I don't have long to wait. A 94 bus comes and I hop on, and flash my U-Pass to the bus driver, a middle-aged white dude. Guy nods at me and I get on the bus, and look for a seat.
I ride the bus till Bayview Station, and then sigh in relief as we finally reach Carleton University. I've got to use the washroom, seriously. I made a beeline for the University Center building and head straight for the men's washroom on the first floor. I am barely able to unbuckle my pants, pull down my boxers and sit down before the stuff starts coming out of me. I sigh in relief, and shake my head as I do my business. That's what I get for eating three-day-old Chinese food that I brought home from Manchu Wok, I guess...
I exit the washroom a few minutes later, after washing my hands thoroughly. As I head toward the elevators, I pause at Tim Horton's. Now, there's about twenty people in line, which is surprising since this is Reading Week and Carleton University is supposedly on winter vacation. I shake my head and head for the elevator. I'm in a foul mood today and don't really care for lining up behind the other peons to get some coffee. Thanks but no thanks.
I reach the service elevator to the side of the building, and punch the button. The doors swing open, and a tall, skinny white dude exits, flanked by his tall and somewhat plump African girlfriend. Our eyes meet and I smile politely. Both of them look away and walk past me. Whatever. I punch the fourth button and head to the Atrium. There's a campus tour guide speaking to a bunch of folks, young and old. I walk past them and hit the tunnels, as I head toward the Mac Odrum Library.
It's a cold day, but for some reason, I cut through the quad. The grass is covered with leftover snow, and there's salt all over the floor. I resolutely walk toward the library, and almost trip on the steps. Some fool left a clear plastic cup that I somehow missed. I almost fall, but catch myself. Damn, I could have fallen and busted my damn head on the library steps. Can this day get any better?
"Watch yourself there," comes a feminine voice, and I look up to see a young Middle-Eastern woman standing there, holding the massive steel door. I hurry up the steps and enter the library, nodding thankfully at her. Now, I'm the outspoken type when people mess with me, but it might surprise you to know that when I'm not dealing with fools, I'm a gentleman through and true.
"Here you go, ma'am," I say with a smile as I hold the secondary door for the young woman, and she smiles. I pause as I stand in front of the library's in-house Starbucks. I have a craving for a panini sandwich, but there's like ten people in line. Great. Just great. Hmmm. Perhaps I'll get the sandwich later. Might as well go get some work done first, you know?
Resolutely, I stride forward. I head toward the elevator, and ride it to the third floor. I love this floor mainly because it's the silent floor. Sure, there's some construction going on but whatever. I still like it. I head to my favorite spot, a computer terminal at a corner near the back window. I smile as I notice that it's unoccupied, and there's no bozos sitting nearby. Great.
"Is this your favorite spot?" comes a voice, just as I start to log on. I look up and notice the young Middle-Eastern woman from before. She's standing there, looking quite lovely in a black jacket over a red turtleneck shirt and blue jeans. Now, the average man reacts in predictable ways when dealing with an attractive young woman. I'm not the average man. I'm a recluse and somewhat on the neurotic side, with misanthropic tendencies. I barely stop myself from telling to get lost...
"Hello again," I reply, with a smile I hoped was pleasant. Grinning, the young woman grabs the seat next to me and drops her backpack on the desk, causing almost the entire row to shake. I silently grind my teeth, for I hate it when people do that. The young woman starts logging on the computer, and flashes me a smile I knew must melt many a young man's heart. Doesn't work on me. What does she want?
"You don't remember me, do you? We spoke on the bus this morning, I saw what that guy did and you were totally justified in confronting him," she says with a smile, and I gasp in shock as I suddenly recall where I'd previously seen her. I see a thousand faces on the bus everyday. Sure, this gal is pretty but there's lots of attractive women on the bus. Small world, I thought to myself. Again, what does she want?
"I'm usually respectful, quiet and laid back, but I loathe racism, especially the passive aggressive kind," I reply, through gritted teeth. Nodding in apparent agreement, the young woman holds out her hand, and keeps on smiling. After a brief hesitation, I shake her hand, mostly to be polite. As you can probably tell, dearest readers, I'm not the most social man on the planet earth...
"I know what you mean, I'm Farizah," the young Middle-Eastern woman replies, and as she shakes my hand, the strength in her grip surprises me. Seriously, she's about five-foot-six and although she's a bit on the chubby side, I am pretty sure I can pick her up with one hand. Not that I would ever do such a thing. Not big on human contact. In fact, I usually come to the library's third floor to get away from the noise and socializing that plagues much of the Carleton University campus.
"Pleasure meeting you, Farizah, I'm Adam," I say as pleasantly as I can, and Farizah nods. For an awkward moment we look at each other, and then my slow computer finally finishes logging on. I reach for my backpack and pull the headphones I bought at the Saint Laurent Mall's Dollar Store and put them on my ears. I plug them into the PC and head straight for YouTube.
Someone recently uploaded entire seasons of the old show Star Trek online, and I'm watching one of my favorite series in order. Good stuff. I smile politely at Farizah, and hope it's the end of this chatter. Farizah looks at me curiously, then takes headphones out of her purse, and starts listening to something. Out of curiosity I glimpsed at her screen, and notice that she's watching a French film called Rengaine. Cool. I resume watching my show. Moments later, I feel a tactile sensation on my shoulder. Farizah is tapping my shoulder excitedly...
"Oh, Adam, sorry to bother you but you've got to check this out," Farizah says, laughing, and I look into her face. Two thoughts hit my head like Thor's hammer. One, this gal is really pretty, with her lovely almond-shaped brown eyes, round little face, pug nose and full lips. Kind of reminds me of Hollywood actress Salma Hayek in her Dogma days. Secondly, Farizah is extra annoying with annoying on top. Like, what the fuck, man?
"What is it?" I sigh as I take off my head phones, and Farizah touches my arm, then points at her computer screen. The movie Rengaine is playing, and the protagonists, a young black dude and an Italian-looking lady are sitting on the grass, kissing and smiling like real lovebirds. Cool. So what? I am seriously curious about what is so damn important that she felt the need to basically grab my attention...
"Oh, I just love these two, the heroes of this movie, Dorcy and Sabrina, are fighting for their love in Paris, he's African and she's from the Maghreb," Farizah says with a wink, and she smiles and says "aw," something I hate hearing women say, by the way. Last time a woman said that to me, she friend-zoned the hell out of me...after we'd been out on like five dates.