Nikolai woke up and felt the tight feeling in his arms. He looked down to see his arms in stitches. He sighed and tried to move his hands again. The same result occurred and Nikolai sighed. He was beginning to think he would never get the use of his hands back.
"Hi, Nikolai." He heard from the doorway. He turned and looked to see the ever so beautiful Clark standing at the door.
"To what do I owe the pleasure of having a fine young man such as yourself at my door?" Nikolai rolled his eyes, he was feeling bitter today. Clark seemed to flinch but didn't seem to hurt by Nikolai's remark.
"I heard you were getting surgery the other day and wanted to stop by to see how you were doing." Clark shrugged. Nikolai stared him down, eyes slightly squinted.
"Why?" He asked. Clark seemed taken aback by this and searched for an answer.
"Well... I consider us friends." Clark said. Nikolai raised an eyebrow and thought about Clark's answer. He eventually just shrugged.
"Where's Ana?" Nikolai asked.
"She's not feeling to well today." Clark said. There was a shadow in his eyes that showed the pain he was going through.
"She'll be fine." Nikolai said. Clark suddenly burst into laughter.
"What?" Nikolai asked.
"That's the first truly nice thing you've ever said around me." Clark smiled, he walked inside and sat on the chair near Nikolai's bed.
"So, I didn't know you spoke Russian." Clark said.
"My name is Russian. I thought it would be cool to at least speak the language." He shrugged.
"I never learned how to speak a foreign language. I bet it's cool." Clark chuckled. Nikolai shrugged again.
"Do they hurt?" Clark asked, Nikolai saw he was looking at his arms. He turned his arms so they were palm down.
"Don't make me go all Geico on you." Nikolai said.
"What?"
"Come on, you've seen the commercials." Nikolai said. When Clark stared at him blankly he sighed.
"You know, can you really save 15% on your car insurance by switching to Geico? And then guy says something stupid followed by a literal clip of what he just said. Like do woodchuck's chuck wood, and is shows the woodchucks throwing wood into a lake. Or does the buck stop here and the buck just stops walking right behind him. Or does it take two to tango and it shows three people trying to tango and it just looks awkward. Or... what?" During his whole speech Clark was slowly laughing more and more until he couldn't contain himself anymore.
"You couldn't have just said yes?" Clark laughed. Nikolai looked down and a smile slowly spread across his face until he was really laughing for the first time in a long time.
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"Can you tell me what happened?" Henstridge asked.
"Why, it doesn't matter." Nikolai said.
"Yes it does." Henstridge pushed.
"Does it? Does it matter if it was one guy or two guys or a girl, or a fucking Popsicle stick. Does it matter what happened? Just that it did..." Nikolai snapped.
"Yes, it does." Henstridge repeated. Nikolai sighed and rubbed his forehead.
"Why?" He whined.
"Because, if you cant even talk about what happened to you..."
"I cant do this. Someone get me out of here, please?" Nikolai shouted. A nurse cam in and began wheeling him out of the room.
"I'll see you tomorrow." Henstridge called out. Even down the hallway she could hear Nikolai groan. She chuckled to herself as she got ready for her next patient.
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"Hi, Nikky." Ana sat down on his bed. He sighed.
"Hello, Ana." He grumbled, though she seemed unphased by his grouchiness.
"Hi, Nikky." Clark came bouncing into the room exactly like Ana had, sitting on Nikolai's bed. Nikolai rolled his eyes and glared at Clark, who just giggled.
"What are you doing here? shouldn't you be working or something?" Nikolai asked.
"I took the day off, it's Ana's birthday tomorrow." Clark smiled.
"Happy Birthday, Midget." Nikolai smiled down at the young girl.
"She wanted to come see you." Clark had an apologetic look on his face. Nikolai nodded that it was okay and turned to Ana.
"I wanted you to come out for my birthday with us." Nikolai raised his eyebrows and looked at Clark, who rubbed his neck while looking at his shoes.
"Don't you want to spend the day with your dad? Just the two of you?" Nikolai asked.
"No! I want you to come." Ana played with his hand.
"I don't think I can, Ana."
"Why not?" The small girl questioned.
"I'm allowed to leave." Nikolai shrugged.
"But its only for a day."
"I still don't think I can leave, Ana. I'm sorry." Nikolai apologized
"But it's my birthday..." Ana was almost crying now. Nikolai felt his heart ache for something other then his own pain for once.
"Ana I'm sure Nikolai has other-"
"I'll see what I can do, Midget." Nikolai said. Clark looked up at him and they shared a glance before they turned back to Ana who was singing happily.
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"I need to leave tomorrow." Nikolai told Henstridge. She looked up from her clipboard and stared at him for a long moment.
"Why?" She asked. Nikolai fidgeted.
"It's Ana's birthday." Nikolai muttered.
"Let me get this straight..." Henstridge had a smile on her face. "You want to leave the hospital... WHILE you're on suicide watch, to go to a little girl's birthday party." Henstridge nodded her head.
"She has cancer. Are you going to deny a little girl with cancer her one and only gay depressed Russian? That's just cruel." Nikolai said.
"Doesnt she have another one that can come to her birthday?" Henstridge joked.
"I'm the one and only." Nikolai said.
"I'll see what I can do." Henstridge said, making a note on her clipboard.
"Wait what? You're seriously considering this?" Nikolai expected a flat no.
"Yes, I think it's good that you're caring about something. It shows that there's still something left alive in there." Henstridge nodded her head at Nikolai's chest.
"Don't get all shrinky on me. We were having a nice moment." Nikolai glared at her.
"I'm sorry." She laughed.
"No! It's to late, It's ruined." Nikolai shrugged. "Oh orderly!" He called in a high voice. The orderly came in and began wheeling him out.
"Wait, you're really going to leave before we even start talking about anything?" Henstridge asked.
"Ta ta!" Nikolai waived over his shoulder.
"Hold on just a second." Henstridge chased after the orderly. She followed them down the hallway, trying to keep pace with the orderlies long steps.
"If I get you permission to leave tomorrow, I want two things in return." Henstridge said.
"And what's that?" Nikolai continued looking forward.
"I want you to promise you will come back."
"Okay."
"And I want you to stay for a full two hour session."
"Hmm." Nikolai thought about this.
"That's it?" He asked.
"That's it." Henstridge nodded.
"Okay."
"Really?" Henstridge stopped walking.
"Really really." Nikolai called out as he was pushed into his room.
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"How did you do it?" The nurse asked.
"Do what?" Nikolai blinked innocently.
"How did you get the 'okay' to leave for the day?" The nurse buttoned his shirt for him.
