Note from author: This is my first story and so I'd very much welcome constructive feedback. Enjoy :)
It came from nowhere - the thought of it, strange, sudden, and unbidden.
Sarah lay beside me, well fucked, breathless, and sheened with sweat. Her legs were parted, just so, and her pussy lips swollen, oozing pearlescence, wet with her cum and mine. It was then, right then, that I found myself wondering how her creampie might taste.
'What?' she said, with a quizzical half-smile, as if reading my mind.
I rested my palm against her tummy, then to her thigh, wanting to run my fingers through the dark shade of her trimmed pubic hair - I had wanted her to shave bare, but she thought it made her look like a slut.
'And why would you want that?' she said.
I traced with my fingertip, gathering up her moistness and circling the vivid pink of her swollen clit, she shivered at that, and then down along her labia wanting to press my finger deep into our shared juices.
'Don't,' she said, with a half-frown, 'I'm dirty'.
She rose and closed the bathroom door. My finger was still wet, her cum and my cum mingling. I sniffed at it, tasted it with the tip of my tongue, then sucked in my finger savouring the sweet and saltiness and sheer fucked-up dirtiness of it. I reached for my cock: I was rock hard.
Behind the bathroom door, Sarah ran the shower, humming softly to herself.
With Sarah, it was always the same. We'd been together just shy of a year, courting and chaste for that first month, making out like horny teenagers for the second - she was 29, me, at 35, older - and then fucking from the third month on.
And Sarah was an enthusiastic fuck, we did click, but it was pure vanilla: missionary for the week and doggy for the weekend, which made me wonder how much experience she'd had before we met. I once asked her and she replied with a sphinxian smile, 'Oh, I've had one or two'. But I continued to wonder.
Sarah tits were incredible. C-cups and ripe, but little more than the perfect handful. Her flesh was milk-white with a shock-trace of deep blue veins. And her nipples were rich red-brown and hardened and swelled at the slightest provocation. A couple of times I'd persuaded her to fuck me cowgirl, just so that I could reach up and toy with her perfection whilst she rode me. And she fucking loved it as I licked at the beading sweat from the cleft of her chest, she holding me all the while, her hand against my neck, pressing my mouth against her ripe buds as if wishing that I would devour her whole.
But only a couple of times.
'It hurts my knees,' she said.
But I guessed better. It came down to a deeper shame, something that she wouldn't share no matter how I might ask. All of it leaving me to speculate as to the reasons why she was as she was. Imagined crises involving absent fathers, neglectful mothers, and dishonourable boyfriends. Something that held her tight, preventing her from ever truly letting go.
But there were moments. Times when she would lose herself despite herself. Times when she would take over and, in those moments, it was she who was fucking me with all of the passion and all of the wonder of her full 29 years. But then, after, came that strange detachment and sad regret.
One time, I asked her to suck my cock.
'I'm not a slut,' she said.
'Sucking cock doesn't make you a slut.' But she didn't look convinced.
'Any girl who eats cum is a slut,' she said, resolved. 'Everyone knows that.'
I thought to argue, but she was already standing, pulling her nightdress over her shoulders, making her way to the bathroom.
Each time, before we fucked, she'd want me to finger her, but couldn't bring herself to ask. We'd kiss, touch, press our bodies together, each of us becoming more frantic still. Then she would untangle, lie back beside me, part her legs just so, and I'd trace down with my finger, seeking out her wetness, stroking the bud of her clit.
She wouldn't suck my cock, but she would let me go down on her. Not every time, and even then she'd cover her face with length of her arm, as if the act of seeing me eat her out made her complicit in some strange way.
And then we'd fuck, but penetration would never take her over the edge. It needed me to bring her off first, with my hand, or with my mouth.
Sarah was vanilla. Too vanilla to suck cock. Too vanilla to ask for head. And too vanilla to even contemplate me eating her out after.
And if I wasn't such an irredeemable pervert, I would have left it there - in the realm of fantasy. But the idea of it grew, insidious, and that night, it was all I could think of, her cum mingled with mine, still there, right there, the faint scent and taste of it on my fingers, my lips, my tongue.
The next morning, she showered again, gathered her stuff and headed back to her place. The front door swung shut, her car started up with a splutter, and the iPad was already propped against my chest as I searched for 'creampie eating porn,' my cock as hard as it had ever been.
I was late for work that day, wanking like a mad thing, starting first with the crappy staged stuff: the badly dressed set, shitty dialogue, fake-ass porn actress, and the same dupe, video after video, pretending to be the husband, bored, watching some hung black bull turn her out, before then dipping his tongue into their shared cum for half a second or less, face screwed up as if he'd rather be doing anything else.
That night I was at it again, this time searching for 'Amateur creampie eating porn,' which mostly pulled up more of the same. 'Real creampie eating porn,' was better, and 'Homemade creampie eating porn,' delivered the jackpot. Normal looking guys in normal looking bedrooms fucking their normal looking girlfriends. Boyfriend after boyfriend grunting as he pumped cum deep inside girlfriend's fuckhole, and her, sweating, serene, legs spread wide and beautiful, a crook of the finger - 'Get to it,' - and then boyfriend down between her thighs, lapping away as if it were his last meal on planet earth.
For the next two days I fell down the rabbit hole wanking myself sore, but knowing that she would never willingly give me this. I considered the options: should I cheat, find some local skank who'd let me fuck her any which way? But I knew it wouldn't be enough. It was Sarah that I wanted. Her pussy. Our shared juices. Our taste.
And then it came to me. A way I might actually get what I want.
Fast forward to Friday night and Sarah came over as planned, expecting that we might hang out, stream some anodyne reality TV shit, and then fuck.
'Let's go out,' I said.
'Ooh,' she said, surprised, but clearly down. 'Where?'
'Cocktails and dancing,' I said, and she clapped her hands.
'I need to change.'
'Can I watch?' I said, as she headed into the bedroom.
'I've told you before: I'm not a slut.' But she said it with a grin, and then closed the door.
The first step of the plan. Sarah loved dancing, the intensity, the thump of bass, the swell of bodies - one pressing into the other - the tang of sweat, and the two of us at the centre of it all: hands against each other's neck, back, hip, ass. Her tongue in my mouth as the room undulated all around.