"It looks unusually small tonight darling β did you have a sneaky wank when you were in the shower?" I asked my husband, as I climbed into bed, fresh from my own shower, and nuzzled up to him, putting my head on his chest and reaching down to gently feel his turtled manhood between my thumb and forefinger.
"No!" he replied indignantly. "It's cold in here and I've been waiting for you for ages. What were you doing in there for so long?!"
"Just shaving my pussy darling β it takes a while to do it properly you know. I don't want to miss any bits", I said as I shut him down. He didn't have a reply to that as he loves my pussy being clean shaven, and instead he reached under the covers and pulled up my nightie, feeling between my legs, just to make sure I wasn't kidding.
"Get out of there!" I playfully rebuffed him, pushing away his advance. "Only boys with big cocks get to feel my pussy β yours doesn't qualify!" He feigned indifference, and withdrew his hand.
"Play with that little dick of yours for me for a moment", I tell him. "Make it good and hard for me, there's a good boy. You know it's not big enough to be called a cock don't you? It's hardly big enough to be a penis really. It is a dick though β a very small one. Perhaps dick-let describes it better."
He should have been shocked at my tone and choice of words, and until not long ago, he would have been. Recently however, during a love making session, we had been discussing what turns us on, and trying to discover each others secret fantasies. We were both at the height of our arousals, and he confessed β not that willingly and not without some embarrassment - that he had discovered he had a fetish. One that I hadn't heard about before, but which had evidently been coined on the internet as a small penis humiliation fetish, or SPH, for short.
Apparently I had unwittingly sown the seeds for this fetish on two occasions several months earlier. Once when I let slip that one of my previous lovers was very well endowed (which my husband correctly interpreted as being much larger than his own manhood), and once when he was prancing around our flat in the nude and I playfully told him to put some clothes on and cover up his little willy, which was making even my little finger look large. I hadn't meant to humiliate him on either occasion β they were just a passing comments.
He admitted to having been instantly aroused at both these comments, though he didn't really understand why at the time. That led him to do some 'research' on the internet, and surprise, surprise, this was apparently quite a new, and relatively unknown trend, which was becoming popular with guys of all sizes, and with woman who were seeking to change the power balance in their sexual relationships.
I must admit I was initially quite taken aback about the admission. It went completely against the grain of the alpha male, which in almost all other aspects, my husband was. At over six feet tall, and of a muscular build with broad shoulders and a narrow waist, and with a career that required him to carrying an air of authority and dominance about him, this wasn't a fetish I ever imagined he would ever have.
Whilst surprised, but not offended by it at all, my initial thoughts were that it was just a passing phase that would not last. So far though, his desires for me to point out and tease him about his shortcomings in the genitalia department had continued unabated. I was starting to learn more about what it was that turned him on about the subject, and had even began doing my own research into small penis humiliation on the internet. You could say I was fast becoming somewhat of an expert on it...
Essentially SPH is a form of male sexual arousal, created by the excitement and fear of humiliation that arises when a man is being told that he is not enough of a man to satisfy his partner sexually, because of his small penis. Sometimes there are other aspects to it as well, such as a desire to be sexually submissive, to be told what to do - to be dominated β especially by someone who may not normally be the decision maker or boss in the relationship.
The one thing that really surprised me though, was that many men who enjoy this form of humiliation do not necessarily have a small penis. The actual size of their cocks is largely irrelevant. The real thrill appears to be generated from either knowing or being told that there are larger cocks out there than their own, for which they must compete against or be compared with, and being humiliated or chastised for being so much smaller than their partner's preferred ideal size, whatever that might be.
It is true that one of my ex's had a very large cock, I'd guess maybe 7 or 8 inches. It is also true that my husband's seemed smaller than all the other cocks I had experienced in my time aβ certainly when he is soft, but probably also when he is hard β though I had never felt the need to find out exactly how his penis measured up to the average man's. It honestly never bothered me; it did the job and I was very satisfied with it. It seems that men are more hung up about dick size than women are, whilst I guess women have their own insecurities which men remain completely oblivious to.
I guess my vagina must have naturally contracted a little since being exclusively with my husband, and in doing so, I had mentally consigned the bigger cocks I had previously experienced to distant, lustful memories. When my husband enters me now, it still hurts if he doesn't take it slowly, so it certainly feels big enough to satisfy me. He is also a skilled lover with his tongue and his fingers, as well as his cock β I've never had a more fulfilling sex life. I've read that one of the positive spin offs of men with small or even average sized penises is that they try harder to make up for their short comings. That's just fine by me!
However I had decided to 'go with the flow' and indulge him with this new fetish. As long as we were both enjoying it, and neither one of us was being hurt, I would continue with it for as long as he found it arousing. So far it had given me plenty of enjoyment, although initially I felt quite bad during the first few occasions for mocking and humiliating him the way he asked to be. I love him very much, and I don't find the size of his penis limits our sexual satisfaction or experiences at all; I remained very content and sexually fulfilled with our sex life and our relationship in general, as was he by all accounts. The last thing I would ever want to do would be to hurt him or his feelings.
After those first few humiliation sessions though, it was very clear that it gave him a huge thrill to be humiliated and shamed in this manner, and I realised that at the end of the day, it was just a game of sorts for both of us, which we could discontinue if we grew out of it.
Who knows? I thought to myself at the time. I might even begin to crave being the dominant one in our sex lives, and gain the same sort of thrill as he was enjoying, but from the opposite side of this fetish of his. Little did I realise how much of an understatement this thought would later prove to be.