I pulled my car up to the edge of his driveway and killed the engine. What am I doing? Who shows up twenty five years after a three month relationship? I ground my teeth in frustration. It had felt like more than a fling, and he just disafuckingpeared on me without a word. Anger washed over me and I put my key back in the ignition preparing to leave.
No! I was not going to just meekly go away. That was the old me; the new me was ready for anything that came my way. I was going to march up to that door, poke him in the chest, demand he apologize, and make him regret dumping me! AND catch him staring at my ass when I walked away. It took me almost a year to make my butt look good in these jeans so he damn well better watch it. I humphed at myself and took several steadying yogic breaths.
Feeling a little more centered I exited the car and walked up the stone path to his front door and ring the bell. As I waited I noticed how amazing the front door was. A solid piece of what I think was walnut in a protective lacquer with sturdy bronze hardware. I ran my hand over the wood and suddenly realized I had been waiting too long and wasn't angry any longer.
I squared my shoulders and gave the door two hard thumps with my right fist. Or at least that was what I attempted to do, but the door jerked open swiftly just before my fist could land that second blow. Slight off balance, the draft of the massive door pulled me over my toes and I only stopped from falling by catching myself on his lower chest.
I have caught myself on more than a handful of people in my life. Don't be judgy, you drink, you wear heels, you sometimes need to catch yourself. Anyway, most people sway when you do that. He felt like a wall with damp skin. I did a double take as I realized my hand was on damp, bare skin and jerked back in surprise.
Twenty five years ago he was a skinny nerd with long hair and t-shirts. Before me he stood with red sweatpants an amazing head of hair, and nothing else. He had obviously just showered and the hair was so curly and thick and sexy. He wasn't Brad Pitt, but compared to anyone I had dated in decades he looked pretty hot.
No again! I will not be seduced by this man! For several months we had a whirlwind romance and he showed up at my door every night. If you have ever been in love you know that insane desire to be with that person who consumes your waking thoughts. When he was there I wanted to be touching him and when he wasn't there I wanted to be touching him. He was sweet and kind and smart and treated me with respect; then we make plans and he disappears. Not a word, nothing until I accidentally see him at my office over twenty years later.
"Do you remember me?" I asked glaring at him.
"Of course" he responded.
"You treated me like shit!" I declared.
He looked...he looked sad. He nodded slightly at me and said "I agree"
I was struggling keeping my mad on. I didn't know what to say next. When I played this out in my head he denied it. Though in my head I ended up standing on his tie and making him kiss my foot before I stormed away.
Shit. I needed to go.
Just as I determined to leave he stepped back and holds the door open saying "How rude of me, won't you please come in?"
I looked at him carefully trying to determine if he was mocking me, or hitting on me, or doing something on me that I could get mad about. What the hell, I walked past him into the house.
The space literally took my breath away. A short entry way opened into a two story room of light woods with massive skylights and green plants spaced around the second story walkway. Many different vining plants spilled over the rail. Someone had grown up to be very classy.
When I hit the middle of the space I turned around still uncertain what I should say.
He held up his hands and said "Please, you are absolutely right. I was a total ass and I will make whatever atonement you came seeking."
The thought of me standing my lovely leather heels on his tie swept through my mind and I blushed. I just stood there looking at him with my emotions roiling. I was pissed at him, I think I liked him, and I was suddenly very aroused.
I was just going to demand an apology and go. He glanced down and looked startled to be topless. It was so sincere and cute I smiled. I felt sudden resolve. I was going to wring every bit of apology I could out of him and I was going to enjoy it because he owed it to me.
He looked up and turned toward double doors through which I saw a king size bed.
"Let me grab a shirt" he said.
"Wait" I demanded.
He turned and looked at me. As I chose my words he cocked his head to the side, just like my cocker spaniel when she doesn't understand me. I needed to say something now. I looked at him carefully trying to decide if he was sincere and more importantly if he was attracted to me. I knew him. We hadn't been together long, but when we were we really were. I remembered how jeans and hose had him squirmy halfway through a meal. I glanced down and was pretty sure the front of the sweats were bulging out a bit. Yeah, he was attracted to me.
I opened my mouth and then closed it carefully considering what to say. I didn't want to move too fast. I wanted the hook to set before I jerked that line. "I want a proper apology" I said looking at him coolly.
"Of course", he said. "I'll just get dressed and "
"No" I said firmly cutting him off. "You came to my apartment often enough and expected me to be naked. You take off your pants, get on your knees and apologize like you mean it."
I had to fight laughing as he stood looking at me transfixed like a deer in headlights. His jaw was actually hanging open, then he suddenly closed it making a distinct click as the teeth came together. He started blushing and suddenly straightened his spine like a soldier coming to attention causing some muscles to play across his chest.
Really not bad, I thought. Could stand to lose a couple pounds and maybe a little more muscle, but that was being very picky. My last boyfriend had been 15 years younger and didn't look half as good.
"As you wish" he said just like Westley and pulled off his sweats exposing a very hard cock. Damn straight he was attracted to me. He kneeled down trying to ignore his obvious arousal and said "The way I treated you was inexcusable. I showed up at your door unannounced like some... some booty call; which is a rude way to treat anyone. You were nothing but kind and, " he paused and cocked his head again then continued ".. and all around amazing. You deserved far better and I sincerely apologize."
With that last he looked straight into my eyes and I again searched for words. I began tapping the toe of my heel as I thought and watched as his eyes followed the noise. And kept following the noise as he stared at my foot. His erection was twitching like it wanted to break loose to get to me.