I had been paralyzed from the shoulders down for two months when I started getting messages on Facebook from a cute guy across the country, named Adam.
Adam was very sympathetic and kind. He Had seen some public fundraisers regarding my car accident in which I had broken my neck. He was really interested in me and wanted to know every detail about my life and my injury. At first I was embarrassed to talk about a lot of things because I wasn't comfortable with my paralyzed body yet. Slowly I began to open up to him. He was so persistent and so interested unlike other guys acted since my disability. So move the questions he asked were really personal and made me feel strange but I answered anyway. He wanted to know what kind of diapers I wore and how I went to the bathroom.
Soon he began to tell me how beautiful my body still was and expressed a lot of romantic interest. He said he was attracted to my strength and perseverance as much as he was to my beautiful paralyzed body. He started talking about how he wanted to take care of me.
We had been texting for several months when another guy hit me up. Brad's profile picture was attractive so I accepted his request immediately. Not many hot guys want to talk to a girl who is totally paralyzed from the neck down.
He also expressed interest in getting to know me and had a ton of questions about my disability, even more than he had questions about my personality and my life before the accident.
A third guy slid up next. He didn't have a profile picture at all and his message was simply "Hey, would you consider chatting with a devotee?"
I thought, "devotee of what?" And ignored it. Weeks later another guy, a friendly looking older man sent me a similar message.
This time I asked but got ghosted.
I was still chatting with both of the other guys. Adam was someone I talked About everything related to my disability but the talk had turned very sexual with Brad. Then he confessed to me that he had been with another woman in a wheelchair in the past. He told me that he was attracted to women in wheelchairs which sounded very odd to me. I realized he probably wouldn't be talking to me if it weren't for my handicap.
Knowing that Brad preferred me to be paralyzed felt somewhat insulting so I didn't understand why it gave me a little tinge of sexual desire I hadn't felt in a long time.....
I didn't dare message him again.
The next time I saw the word devotee was in one of my spinal cord injury support groups.
Some women were complaining about the devotees that kept hitting them up. Using my mouth stick to type on my touch screen phone painstakingly plucked out my question.
"What's a devotee??"
The girls were quick to tell me that they were men who were infatuated with women who were paralyzed and in wheelchairs. I thought of Brad right away.
The girls warned me that they could be very strange and bothersome and I could block them from messaging me.
I didn't though. I thought a lot about how it made me feel when I realized Brad wanted me to be paralyzed. It didn't turn me on because I was glad my body was desired. It turned me on because it just felt so insulting! I couldn't explain it.
Even though he liked to talk about my diaper and my wheelchair a lot I started talking to Brad more. Sometimes he would make me feel a deep ache way up inside me and my whole body would convulse with muscle spasms and excitement. It didn't happen when he talked about eating my pussy and sucking my tits and fucking me though. The hot rush of lust that ran through my paralyzed body occurred the most when Brad talked about my paralyzed body, called me numb and handicapped.
One night after lots of teasing me, Brad went to sleep but I wasn't done.
I can't touch myself because my hands are paralyzed so the horny feeling is torture with no relief.
I recall a partner from my past who taught me the ecstasy of orgasm denial. Danny taught me a lot, actually. Sometimes I had to be tied to learn, but now I knew I would make an excellent student!