"Babe, I'm kinda scared of these clippers you bought... Babe?"
I stood in front of the mirror in nothing but my blue boxers, shiny clippers in hand, waiting for my girlfriend Gina to respond. Hi. I'm Bill.
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If this were a dating app profile, you would probably see pictures of me, your run-of-the-mill average dark-haired, white frat boy type doing stuff like holding up a giant marlin with my dad, probably a shirtless beach shot to show off my well toned physique, and most likely your standard golf shirt, patio holding a beer looking like a bland doofus shot. It would point out that I was 27, 6ft tall, liked Netlifx and sports, and blah blah blah blah. See, I get bored with myself.
Gina, my girlfriend of 7 years, was the exciting one. Part latin, all spitfire, and an endearing ability to go from zero to bitch in no time flat. I loved this woman so much, which is part of the reason why we've been together for so long. The other, is because she knows how to push my buttons, get me angry and get me away from the beige, milquetoast existence I seemed fated for years before we met.
For the first two years, we dated like stupid people in their early twenties date - big eye on the future, holding the ideals of having a family and a mortgage, but then as we hit the quarter life crisis, it was like the scales fell away from our eyes. We would break up and get back together, flirt and cheat on one another. Cry, yell and fight, but still circle back to each other. What finally solidified things between us was a single argument, I had been unhappy at work and was complaining to her again, which garnered no support from her whatsoever - in fact she got pissed off at me and started screaming about me being weak and wimpy. I argued back, yelling at her in my defence. She didn't back down, instead getting in my face and demanding to know what the hell I actually wanted. I was speechless. Any attempt to avoid answering that question, and she pushed me back. At that point, something broke in me, and it was amazing. And that's where we found our loop.
I would hold things up inside of me, instead of connecting with her - she would push me to be honest about what I wanted, which helped focus me, and better our relationship, because I could be a whole and honest person.
So I quit my job, and stood up for myself, and finally went about doing the things that I felt were necessary for me.
And that all extended to the bedroom as well.
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"Bill, they're clippers. Gimme," Gina took the device from my hands, and clicked the ON button. The clippers buzzed loudly, and made my balls clench. "Now drop trou',"
I thumbed the waistband of my boxers open, and let them fall around my socked feet. My dark, bushy pubes belittled my sleepy dick, and I shot Gina a sideways glance in the mirror. "We're just trimming, right?"
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Most of my early sex with Gina was, again, your boring typical, standard affair. I tried to do my due diligence with her lady bits, but for the most part, it was doggy, missionary, sideways or her on top if I was tired, then sleep. But during our rough patches, when we were broken up, or when i thought or knew she was cheating on me - I tended to seek out more dangerous, perverse, hard-to-explain, sexual partners and scenarios than what I was used to. When we patched things together, I would often wonder what Gina would think of some of the things I had done, or whether she had gotten up to stuff just as crazy. But I never said anything about it, hoping not to start another row.
Then, one day, after a decent bit of mattress fun, Gina asked me if I didn't like going down on her. To be honest, I really hadn't given it much thought, I guess I had felt that it was important to give her a couple licks to get her wet before fucking, but - I mean, fucking was where it was all about. She got indignant, which in turn made me angry, and so we're naked in bed having this fight, when finally she tells me to fuck off, she's going to shower and go home. So I follow her into the shower, still arguing with her, and then mockingly get on my knees and beg to eat her pussy. So Gina says, fine, you want it - you've got it, and plants her crotch in front of my face. I start eating her out, stopping to add sarcastic commentary, when she literally, starts pissing on me. Its in my eyes, its in my mouth, I can taste it, and smell it, and I'm in utter shock, just sputtering and wiping the piss away from my eyes. Yet until she finishes, I'm kneeling there taking it.
We absolutely destroyed my apartment that day. We did every nasty thing I'd ever done with all the throw-away girls I'd been with, hell - she even ate my ass out. Again, scales from eyes, we never looked back. Gina could tell when i wasn't being my genuine self, and would push me to be honest - which most of the time meant, I didn't want to be some boring, uncurious loser.