"My train was late the next morning, so I would have every chance of being later than Bill. I went straight to the stockroom and was greatly relieved to see the costume back in place - it was against the rules to take any of the costumes home without permission and I didn't want to see Bill get into trouble. At lunchtime I caught him just as he was leaving the premises."
"'Oh Bill could you give me a hand, please, before you go to lunch', I said to him."
"'Certainly,' he answered."
"'Follow me then,' I said, marching into the women's stockroom."
"'Come closer,' I said encouragingly, as I reached the nightgowns section."
"I took the nylon chiffon nightgown off the rack and said, 'It's lovely, isn't it?'"
"Bill blushed. 'Er, yes, I suppose it is.' He began to look very uncomfortable."
"'Look, Bill, I know you took this home with you last night.'"
"'How?'"
"'Just take my word for it. You know they'll sack you if they find out.'"
"Bill was really looking scared now. I wasn't handling this very well, so I decided to put his mind at rest immediately. I put my hand on his shoulder and taking a huge gamble, said to him as kindly as I could, 'Would you like me to make one like this for you?'"
"Bill's face broke into an expression which was a mixture of relief and gratitude. 'Yes, please, Mary,' he said, his eyes filling up with tears."
"'Well buy me lunch and tell me all about it,' I said, grabbing his hand."
"I took him to a pub with booths where you couldn't be overheard and he bought us both a drink and a sandwich. 'Why are you doing this for me, Mary?' he said, sitting down."
"'Well, the straightforward answer is that I doubt that you could get hold of such a glamorous garment in the shops, even if you could afford it.'"
"'I'm too embarassed to go into the shops in the first place,' Bill answered, 'but I still don't understand why you'd be willing to help me. In fact I'm surprised and delighted. Only the other day I overheard two of the assistants in your section talking about a man who'd tried to hire a female costume. You would think by what they said that he'd exposed himself to them. They obviously embarrased the poor man so much he left the shop empty-handed.'"
"'Yes, some women are so narrow-minded,' I said. 'Anyway, tell me how it all started, first.'"
"'Well first of all, I'm not effeminate, I'm not....you know?' Bill began.'"
"'No, I don't think you are,' I reassured him."
"'Do you remember all those old films where the heroine wanders around in a billowing chiffon nightgown?' Bill asked. I nodded.
'Well,' Bill continued, 'I began to notice that every time it happened in the film, my heart would suddenly start beating very fast and I would begin to feel hot with excitement. I also realised that I wanted to touch those nightgowns, to feel them against my bare skin.'"
"'Then as I got a little older I began to get erections at the same time, but I knew that I must keep this to myself, although it felt perfectly natural. How would a young boy get hold of a nightgown like that? My mother didn't own any glamorous chiffon garments, except for one that she'd rescued from her bombed-out house during the war, but that comes into the story later. She certainly couldn't afford anything like that once rationing had finished because my father died suddenly when I was about two years old and the small pension that he'd left her was barely enough to live on.'"
"'Eventually my mother met a travelling salesman who became her boyfriend just about the time I started senior school. He earned a lot of commission which he mostly spent on my mother. Nevertheless it made our lives a lot easier for a while and Mum got taken out regularly. One Easter holiday when I was about thirteen they got invited to a fancy dress party at a posh house, so no cheap local costume hire shop for them. A few days before the party they went up to London to a very expensive theatrical costumiers whilst I was at school. I arrived home just in time to see them taking their costumes into Mum's bedroom. I just caught a glimpse of some black transparent material.'"
"'I knew they were going out that evening and I couldn't wait to see what Mum had hired. I gave it a few minutes after they left and then wandered into Mum's bedroom. The costumes had been hung up on the outside of the wardrobe, with hers underneath, so I had to lift his out of the way. It was a very heavy 19th century military uniform, including a sword and I very nearly dropped it when I caught sight of Mum's outfit.'"
"'It was a black chiffon nightgown and negligee, just like those I had seen in those black and white films from the 40s. With the costume was a long blonde wig, so I presumed Mum was going to the party as someone like Lana Turner. What really caught my attention, though, were the sleeves of the negligee. I had never seen anything so beautiful. The way the chiffon billowed out softly from the shoulders, getting wider and wider until finally being gathered at the delicate cuffs was just so attractive. It was inevitable; I just had to try it on. I hurriedly undressed, wisely keeping my underpants on (they were already bulging).'"
"'My hands were shaking so much, I was almost unable to take the negligee off the hanger. In no time at all my arms were plunging into the silky caress of the sleeves. As I was then about the same size as Mum, it fitted perfectly. My hands were still shaking as I managed to do up the tiny buttons on the bodice and cuffs. Just then I heard the front door open and close and then Mum's footsteps swiftly coming along the hall of our flat. I was still struggling with the buttons on the bodice when Mum appeared in the bedroom doorway. I've never been so embarrased. "Oh Mum," I blurted out. "I'm ever so sorry!" Instead of getting angry with me, she walked up to me and did up the buttons I had just undone. "No need to be, my love," she said with a warm smile on her face. "Now where's that hankie I forgot."'
"'She stopped at the door on her way out. "You can keep that on all evening if you like, as long as you don't get it dirty and make sure it's back on the hanger before we return. I'll have a little chat with you tomorrow when you get home from school - nothing to worry about. Have fun!"'
"'When I got home from school the next day Mum was waiting in the living room with her costume draped over one of the chairs. "Sit down Bill," she said. "Now don't worry, I just want to ask you a few questions. Be honest, won't you?" "OK Mum," I answered. "Have you ever worn any of my clothes before?" she said. "No Mum." "So it's just this costume?" "That's right Mum." "And how did you know?" "When I saw them in those old films on TV. I used to get excited." Mum thought for a bit. "Then I think it's because of something I did when you were much younger."
"'"Do you remember those silky pyjamas you used to have when you were a little boy?" "I think so." A warm memory began to stir in my mind. "Well when we had very little money I made them up from an old semi-transparent rayon evening dress that didn't fit me any longer. I thought nothing of it. After all, there were plenty of men who wore silk pyjamas. But my sister got on her high horse when she saw you wearing them and warned me about turning you into a sissy. She said she'd noticed the way you kept fondling the material. I told her to mind her own business. However, I think she may have been partly correct because when you got too big to wear them any longer, you made a terrific fuss when I took them to the jumble sale. I don't think you're a sissy, Bill. You were telling me only the other day about a girl, in your class, that you really fancy but didn't have the courage to speak to." "Oh, Angela you mean? Yes, she's gorgeous."'"
"'"Well there you go, nothing to worry about. Would you like to put on the costume for another couple of hours before Ted (her boyfriend) gets home? You won't have much of an opportunity again for a long while - the deposit alone on each costume was more than three weeks wages."
"Thanks Mum," I said, taking the costume from her. "Both items, please Bill," she said firmly, " I think you know why. Oh and come back here when you've put them on."'"
"'In no time at all I was back in the living room. "How does all that lovely chiffon feel against your skin?" Mum asked. "It's heavenly, Mum." "Ooh you lucky boy. Now, have you ever touched my nylons?" "No I haven't. I've got no idea what they're like." "Well, if I'm right, you won't be able to resist these," she said holding up a cellophane packet. They're one of the really expensive ones Ted insisted on buying me, but to be honest, they're so fine they ladder almost without an excuse so I don't wear the others very often." With that she opened up the packet and unwound them carefully from the piece of card on which they were wrapped. "Now handle these carefully, they're very delicate," she said, handing them to me.'"
"'I tried hard to keep hold of them, but my fingers were trembling so much the nylons just slid over my fingers and onto my lap. Mum laughed. "They're very slippery, aren't they?" "When they slid across my hands the feeling was so cool and silky," I answered. "So you like them, then?" "They're just absolutely gorgeous, Mum. I never knew anything like this existed." "OK, they're yours to keep, seeing as you won't have access to the negligee for too much longer, but don't try wearing them. They feel nicer to fondle if they remain unstretched."'"
"'As I reached school-leaving age, I realised that I would never have the opportunity to touch or wear a glamorous theatrical nightgown again unless I somehow worked with costumes for a living, so I subscribed to the trade papers, collecting them regularly from the newsagent. Then one day, I couldn't believe my luck, the job I've got now was advertised. I was a bit disappointed when I was told the job was in the men's department, but I knew that I couldn't afford to miss the opportunity and here I am.'"
"'So did you enjoy wearing the nightgown you borrowed last night?' I asked Bill. 'Did you manage to get full pleasure from it?,' I said with a wink."
"'Yes,' he answered, turning red, 'it looked really beautiful and felt wonderful against my skin. I was careful not to make a mess. It would look even better on an attractive woman, though, someone like you.'"
"I let the flattery get to me and suddenly I was suggesting that I would model it for him that same evening in the shop after everyone had gone home. 'At the same time I'll take your measurements for your nightgown.' Bill looked astounded. 'See you about 6.30, then.'"