I have been devastated. My banishment from my goddess has been torturous. I have been the walking dead. Writing about my separation from my goddess has helped me a bit. It was almost a form of therapy. I missed her terribly and I had been reaching out to her getting no response. I didn't want to give up. I made a terrible mistake and I took my relationship for granted. I paid the price for it. It was a separation and loss like none I have ever known. I was truly one hundred percent heart broken. I had no one to blame for it but myself the remorse was crushing me. I had all but given up hope. I contacted her every day and still did not receive a response. I was in my hotel room and my phone buzzed, the last person I expected to see a message from was Mina. I was thrilled beyond thrilled when I saw that my goddess reached out to me to give me an opportunity to explain myself. My heart soared and I was so happy I began to weep. My goddess gave me an opportunity to be heard. She had read the story I posted on Lit and was pleased with it. I took my time and gave her the most heartfelt apology I could. It was sincere and truthful and I poured my heart out to her. I love her I would have opened a vein for her if she wanted me to. She told me that she was considering seeing me. I was never so happy. I was told that she would think about it and let me know. I was so elated that I could barely contain myself.
I got the message that made me the happiest human on the planet the following morning. It read: I am toiling over the idea of seeing you...It could be possible. I was also treated to a message that stated that she missed my level of service and was tentatively excited to see me. I was so honored to see those words. We went back and forth for a few days and finally the date was set. I was so nervous. Would she scold me? Would she allow me to serve her well? I know she was being cautiously optimistic that we could pick up we left off. I was scared she would resent me and the session would be difficult. I had a ton of anxiety as I drove to her lair. I arrived at the appointed time but was told to delay. I waited in my car till I was given the go ahead to come to her. This was by far the most stressful wait I had known. I didn't know how I would be received. I climbed the stairs quickly and rang her buzzer. The seconds felt like hours. I was so frightened she wouldn't want me anymore. I would be sent away from her. The door opened and my heart stopped.