All characters involved in any kind of romantic or sexual context are over 18. And all of them are fictional, as the story itself.
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Clara had some troubled periods in her past. Not always but unfortunately, when it most mattered, in her early adolescence.
She had to move to her grandmother's house, which was in another town, due to some problems at home.
She didn't have many friends in this new place and the ones she had didn't care for her at all. In this new life, nothing was like she used to be at home.
She was far from being confident and perfect like 'Clementine'.
At least she didn't look like she was.
She wasn't an ugly duckling cliche, she didn't have idiotic large glasses, her face wasn't full of pimples but she didn't know how to care for her hair, she didn't have fancy clothes, she was feeling and acting insecure and socially distant.
Her dysfunctional family, their temporary money problems didn't let her find the strength in the crowd she had to stay. Knowing that there were still problems at home didn't let her find the motivation to make a new start in this place.
She always felt she didn't belong.
She kept telling her mother that the girls in this school or neighborhood were spoiled brats and they annoyed her a lot.
Especially when her father left and her mother with all her bitterness, moved to this town as well, the happy lives of others annoyed her more. She wasn't stupid, she knew it wasn't their fault. But she couldn't help herself. This was a feeling of envy mixed with a bit of hatred.
Except one of them.
That girl was special among them. As if she was doing it on purpose, she frequently talked about her father, how a great man he was. This was annoying.
Her envious grudge increased when Clara was once invited to her birthday party at their lovely house.
She never had such a birthday, with so many people celebrating her birth, her existence. And how that girl's father pampered her. She didn't want to show how depressed she was but when the girl came and said "Come on buzzkill, stop sitting there alone. Come to the front garden", Clara wanted to punch her.
She didn't even ask her why she was sulking.
She probably wasn't aware how Clara could be feeling but still. She was giving Clara traumas; how could she not empathize with her?
Then, that brat's mother caught her attention.
She wasn't a distant woman, not like her own mother. She was a beautiful, very elegant and sweet woman. Too sweet to be that girl's mother.
She saw her only once that day but she couldn't forget her.
"Are you OK?" she asked Clara, with the softest voice.
"Err, yes mam, thank you" was all she could say. She just wanted to leave. But the woman didn't leave her alone and brought her cake and caressed her hair after giving it to her.
That slight kindness mattered a lot for Clara at the moment, she could be the only person there who helped her ease her pain. This could be the first time she didn't feel that much alone.
She didn't leave the party and watched that beautiful woman when she was running around, trying her best for her daughter's important day. Since she first saw her in their short encounter, probably without being aware, she felt different about her. In an innocent way, in a way she couldn't name. She couldn't take her eyes off of her that day. She wondered how it would be to have a mother like her. But she wasn't sure that was all.
She didn't have a chance to go to their house again and she managed to fit in at the school somehow. At least, she didn't show her emotions anymore. Her skin was getting thicker.
Just before high school was over, she realized that she was feeling funny when a couple of girls were around her. They were the opposite of 'nice girls' but they were very beautiful, in their very expensive outfits. And they behaved like they owned the world.
She wasn't a type to dwell on such things, she wasn't afraid to consider if she was OK with such new inclinations.
She still liked boys; this discovery didn't change that. But she learned something about herself. She had that irresistible urge to try anything she found interesting.
One day, she started to play with herself, thinking about one of those girls. Probably all boys at the school were doing the same every day, together with some of the girls. They were hard to ignore.
That was the exact moment when something else was unleashed in her mind.
That girl's mother replaced the hot brat she was thinking about. She tried to think of that girl, the sexy short showing her butt cheeks, but no, that woman was coming back each time. And thinking about her excited her more. Maybe she had a thing for mature women.
Or...
She didn't have a single clue that she found that woman attractive. Not like this. What if that woman was the reason? The reason of such changes, making her find those girls hot? Maybe her repressed feelings for that woman made her turn bisexual, unknowingly. The thought of being changed by her made Clara aroused. As if that woman possessed her years ago.
She was realizing many things that day. The thought of being manipulated by someone sounded hot. She didn't have a clue that 'manipulating someone' would make her feel even hotter at that point.
But there was a problem. She was that girl's mother. Wanting her mother that much didn't feel right. Especially when her imagination was mostly limited to kissing her. Besides a few other things.
She was naive, living in the mainstream back then.
Still, this didn't stop her. She kept masturbating, thinking about that woman's perfect legs, her sweet face, her lips and her breasts.
Whenever she thought about that woman, she was also remembering who she was, whose mother she was. This never changed. The only changing thing was the magnitude of those feelings. She disliked the girl more while almost falling in love with the woman she created in her mind. Or, the woman who seeded such lesbian thoughts in her head, without even moving a muscle. This thought, the thought of being turned lesbian by that woman was increasing her bonds with her. She used that fantasy many times when masturbating.
Once or twice, she even fantasized marrying that woman. Then in one of her darker moods, she extended this thought, picturing herself as that girl's stepmother or whatever it was called. To make her miserable.
Her mind became less occupied with them in time. She had no complicated thoughts but she knew she still didn't like that brat. And probably because of that, she never could focus on her mother and her desire for her, without remembering her daughter. She couldn't dream of being real lovers with her, not peacefully.
She learned how to dress and how to keep herself attractive. She was surprised to see how easy that was for her. She discovered that it was a piece of cake for her to pick up guys.