Author's Note: Fair warning, this story is entering pretty deeply into the realm of the bizarre. The chapter surprised me. As any writer will tell you, sometimes characters do unexpected things. This is one of those cases. I realized that for David and Ashley to continue with their co-dependent relationship things were going to get kinky. But as this chapter was wrapping up, well, as you'll see, if you choose to read, things got pretty weird. If your stomach is strong, and you don't mind the body's various waste products, read on. But be advised, this is for those with a special taste.
I was exhausted when my stomach finally settled down. I was drenched with sweat, my hair matted with sweat and what had splashed up onto me. I was gasping as I reached, weakly, for the handle to flush the toilet for about the 10th time.
I was still gasping, my cheek resting against the cool porcelain, when I felt him clean my ass and the backs of my thighs with the towel he had laid across back there.
And the thing was, I felt no shame at all. Oh, don't get me wrong, I wasn't proud of shitting myself. I just wasn't ashamed. It's not like I had any control at that point, and I understood that. Evidently, he did too. He wasn't making any, you know, disgusted noises or comments or anything. He was just cleaning.
I felt him get up and leave but I was too exhausted to move yet. When I heard the water running and realized he was getting the tub ready. I smiled, pushed myself up into a more or less vertical position on my knees, and took several deep breaths preparatory to trying to stand.
He came back into the bathroom and I felt strong hands on the softness of my arms, helping me, steadying me as I stood.
"Will you kiss me?" I asked, honestly curious. I knew what I must look like with my mouth still shiny with God knows what.
He kissed me. There was no hesitation at all. He laid his palms on my cheeks and kissed me. Not a little peck either. It was a full-on kiss. I felt him retch a little as his tongue probed my mouth, tasting me, but he persisted.
"I love you. You're beautiful. And I think this will work and I can give you what you need," he said.
I was crying again and he was laughing softly and holding me.
He walked me to the big walk-in tub, closed the entrance, and then used the handheld shower head to hose me down before filling the tub for a soak.
He was oddly timid when he started talking to me while he was bathing me.
"Did you enjoy it?" he asked at last.
I giggled.
"Which part," I asked, "the feeding, the cumming like a garden hose, or the puking my toenails up?"
He laughed then and the tension was broken.
"Well," he said, fingers digging into my hair as he shampooed me, "I know you like being fed and cumming, so I guess we're down to the, well, the 'purge' is the word I found when I was researching the possibilities."
He was being serious so I gave it serious thought before I answered.
"It's worth it," I said, giggling when I sneezed from the bubbles in my nose.
"I can't say I enjoy throwing up like that," I went on, "but it was worth it and, on some level, it's a VERY special intimacy if that makes any sense."
He surprised me then, by saying, "I liked it."
That made me open my eyes, and then close them, splashing water to stop the burning from the shampoo. We were both laughing as he poured water over my head to clear them.
Back under control, I said, "You liked it? You mean the puking?"
"That's part of it," he said and kissed me, "but just part of it. I liked feeding you but I liked watching your face, knowing how much you like being fed."
He finished rinsing my hair and started on my body then.
"But there was also the anticipation," he said, "I knew what was coming and you didn't. I was nervous that you wouldn't like it or think I was disgusting or something."
I laughed and said, "Honey, you inspect my body daily and put Desitin on my rashes. We've fucked every way we can imagine and never hesitated to do oral stuff afterward. And you were worried I'd be disgusted?"
"Yes," he said simply, "this is a whole new area we're getting into."
"Yeah," I said, meeting his eyes, "we
are
doing that."
We were quiet for a while.
"What, exactly," I said, grinning and meeting his eyes, "did you like about it? About my puking like that?"
He grinned back.
"God help me," he said, mirroring one of my pet phrases, "I liked it all. I liked seeing the way your body arched as you threw up. I liked the sound you made. I liked the way you had to gasp for breath. I liked the way I realized that I needed to drape that towel over your ass because you were losing control. Shit, Ashley, I liked the smell and the taste of you when I kissed you afterward."
I had been watching him and couldn't help but smile. His eyes had gone unfocused as he remembered and organized his thoughts.
"Pervert," I said.
He laughed and said, "That's hardly a surprise at this point, is it?"
"Well," I said, thinking and mentally taking inventory of my body, "as a bonus, it's good exercise. God, I'm sore in places I didn't know I had places."
His grin was like a kid who found the toy he had been hoping for under the Christmas tree.
"Is that a 'yes' then?" he asked.
"Oh, David, don't be silly," I said, putting my best mock-stern look, "it was yes at the first taste of that wonderful gravy."
"There's a name for it, you know," he said.
I laughed softly at my husband the researcher.
"Of course there is," I said.
He chuckled and said, "It's called
Bulimia Nervosa
, kind of the opposite of
Anorexia Nervosa
. Anorexics basically starve themselves. Bulimics binge and purge. But we have to be careful. It can be hard on your teeth, all that acid, and your throat. But we'll work all of that out."