The day of feasting left me exhausted, all my energy depleted on trying to digest the content of my massively swollen midsection. Free from the remains of the unfortunate dress I laid down into my bed all the while rubbing my gut gently, fascinated, I simply couldn't take my hands off of it! I was amazed, looking at its almost spherical shape deceiving people into thinking I was pregnant. I knew it was only a matter of time before it would start drooping down, making it obvious I was just a bottomless glutton. I wasn't thrilled by the prospect, but then again, just a couple years back it seemed like nonsense that I would enjoy having big round belly and yet here we are. My phone audibly vibrated on the desk of the table, but I didn't have the strength to get up and read the message. My body felt just too heavy for that. I closed my heavy eyelids and fell asleep before I knew it.
I woke up tired, drenched in sweat to the hellish sound of my ringing alarm. With an effort I got on my feet and silenced the screaming phone. Still half asleep I made my way to the shower. The night left me feeling groggy. My sleep has been a restless one, constantly hindered by my noisily overworking and aching stomach. Soaping up my still bloated belly, I've been shocked at just how much more it stuck out than only yesterday morning.
I don't feel like eating anything... Maybe gaining on purpose isn't such a great idea after all.
Only in my underwear I stared at my reflection. Normally full of self-confidence and cool with how I looked, today was going to be different. I felt... off. My blonde hair falling down to my mid-back was a tangled mess, bags underneath my eyes showed I didn't sleep well, and my body... My body was a chapter of its own. Usually I felt comfortable in my own skin, but today everything seemed to irritate me. I could barely notice my rather flat chest. It was so unfair! More and more I realized I did have a thing for big full breasts, yet I was cursed with these pathetic things. I kept imagining what would it be like to have boobs like Becca or Mary have. Or even at least like my mom has! Looking at my own 'endowments', it was such a sad sight, especially with what was below them... To be fair I enjoyed having a big belly. As weird as it may sound I really did. It made me feel unique in a way, made me stick out. Literally. I found it quite amusing when people assumed I was pregnant. Today it seemed too big for me though, protruding way too much. My skin seemed to be strained and I could see new stretch marks forming. I turned to look at my profile, groaning in displeasure. I hated how rolls of fat formed on the sides of my torso. Even my finely shaped ass seemed lacking, overshadowed by the sheer size of my gut. As much as it hurt, I had to admit it. At the moment I felt repulsive.
"Crap! I left my new clothes at dad's place! I'm such a moron..." I cursed myself bitterly, fully realizing I was running out of clothing items to contain my growing figure. Fortunately I had more chance of finding something fitting than I had in my dad's apartment and after few minutes I did come up with an acceptable outfit, although the black t-shirt was stretched across my midsection rather tightly. Since I recently burst out of my biggest jeans, I had to go for leggings.
Thank god for elastic waistbands! It's at its limit as well though, I better not overeat today.
I let out an unsatisfied noise looking in the mirror, checking my reflection. My outfit... well, it didn't look so good, but it had to do for today.
I've heard their voices before I reached the kitchen.
"... don't understand, why are you enabling her to do this to herself!" Kurt said angrily.
"I'm not having this conversation right now. I'm already late!" My mother said cooly.
"Good morning." I said smiling, pretending I didn't hear they were clearly talking about me.
Kurt at the sight of me just grumbled something and shook his head disapprovingly. I decided to ignore him.
"Hey honey, the breakfast is on the table." My mom was standing at the door, ready to leave, but she stopped at her track and looked me from head to toe. "I'm gonna pick you up after school and we're gonna go to the mall and buy you some new clothes."
"But I-" I started to protest, but she cut me off.
"I wasn't asking." She said emphatically. "I have to go. See you."
I blinked a couple times in surprise, unaccustomed to my mother being so commanding. I shrugged and sat down at the table to enjoy my breakfast.
On the afore mentioned table awaited a very generous portion consisting of twelve thick pancakes. Just the sight of them awakened my slumbering appetite.
Guess I'm gonna eat something after all.
In the middle of the table there stood a large plate with even more pancakes. I couldn't be bothered to actually count them, but it seemed like there was about twenty more pancakes. I wondered what would it feel like to eat them all, but I quickly dismissed this voice of my gluttony. Truth to be told I wasn't hungry and so I wasn't even sure whether I would finish the pancakes already on my plate.
Yeah, I still forget who I am sometimes...
Pouring the syrup over my pancakes I started to salivate. The closer I got to eating the more I desired it.
"Don't you think that's enough syrup?" Kurt asked stopping me for a second. I forgot entirely that he was still present. Again I started drenching the pancakes, without a doubt using more syrup than I would if he stayed silent. I poured myself a nice big glass of whole milk before I dug in.
I made a short process with my meal, laid my hands atop of my filled belly and let out a satisfied sigh. The pancakes went down surprisingly easy, considering my utter lack of hunger. I felt them expanding inside my stomach, distending my already swollen belly further. It felt so damn good! All of the previous discomfort forgotten, I reveled in the pleasure of my filled middle.
"Can't you see how fat and disgusting you're getting?" Kurt spitted out of the blue. "What the hell is wrong with you?!"
It hurt. Even coming from... him. I think you can be self-confident as much as you like, but hearing such things still wounds you somewhere deep inside. It's even worse when you're not in your best state of mind. Suddenly emotional I felt like crying, but I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction to see me cry. Trying to keep my emotions under control they started to turn into rage. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from yelling at him.
Who does he think he is anyway?!
I rose to my feet, locked my eyes with his and smiled oh so very sweetly. I was piercing him through with my stare, as if I knew something he did not and I put aside my now empty plate.
"What are you doing?" he asked dumbly.
I pulled the large plate to me. "Getting fat." I said sweetly and started pouring syrup over the remaining pancakes. "And disgusting."
Well, if it bothers him this much... I guess the plan is back on!