Chapter 7
First thing the next morning I called Kim. She sounded groggy.
"Do you know what time it is?" She croaked.
"Yeah, it's time for you to get your sad little ass out of bed and go have coffee with me. No, don't argue, I'll pick you up. You got thirty minutes to get up and get ready."
Kim sounded concerned, "Is everything alright?"
"Yeah," I sighed. "I'll tell you about it over coffee. It's on me."
"Then hurry up!" Kim chirped, suddenly perky over the prospect of free coffee.
Kim plopped down in the car and turned to me, "What's so important that you're taking me out for breakfast and coffee to talk about?"
I glanced over and narrowed my eyes, "Who said anything about breakfast?"
"Honey, you should know that the only reasons I get out of bed this early are sex and free food. And somehow I don't think you want a quicky. Unless..." Kim put her hand on my leg and wiggled her eyebrows suggestively.
I brushed her hand off.
"What?! Are you turning me down?" Kim feigned being hurt and put her hand to her chest.
"Don't take this the wrong way, but you're just not my type," I played along, enjoying the lighthearted banter.
"Why? Am I not dark haired and sexy enough?"
"It's not that..."
"Or is it cause my name's not Natalie?"
I pulled into a parking spot outside of Mrs. Winter's, shut the car off, leaned back against the seat and closed my eyes. When I spoke, it barely came out as a whisper, "That's just it. It's driving me crazy. I have never thought about someone so continuously before, and it questions everything I've ever been taught."
I kept my eyes closed. I felt her hand on mine. She said, "Adi, some things can't be taught. And others can be un-learned. What's happening with you?"
"I don't know," I answered honestly and shivered as the chill crept into the car. Kim noticed and opened her door.
"Let's get some food and coffee and sort things out."
We sat at a table by the window, watching the few people who dared to be out this early pass by, staying silent until the waitress brought out our coffee.
"So, what happened to change things over the last couple of days? Was your Christmas nice?"
"It was as nice as could be expected; apart from all the lectures I got."
"Lectures?" Kim looked confused, "about what?"
"About that damn book!" I filled Kim in on the events of the last few days, pausing just long enough for the waitress to drop off Kim's food and refill our mugs.
"Well, tell me this Adi, are you scared of what you're feeling?"
"Wouldn't you be?"
"Not really. I don't see anything wrong with love. But then again, I don't have your family to contend with."
"That's just it. I don't have a problem with it either, but I feel like I've got to make a decision between my family and upbringing and what my heart feels." I snorted. "No, screw what my heart feels," I looked down at my coffee and then up at the light fixture above the table - anywhere but at Kim. "She makes me hot. I've never reacted like that to anyone. Ever."
"And you don't know what that means," Kim finished for me.
"Yeah."
Kim sat back and thoughtfully fiddled with her coffee cup.
I tried to explain, "I don't want to make a mistake. I don't want to give up my family for some thing I'm not sure isn't more than infatuation."
"That's it!" Kim put her mug down a bit too hard and the waitress shot her a look. "I've got a plan. Here's what we're going to do."
I sat back and listened to her scheme and by the time I dropped her back at her place, I had reluctantly agreed to go along.
God help me.
Dear Natalie,
I know I've been a bit hard to get a hold of for the past few days, but I've been traveling and sorting out some stuff. What do you have planned for New Years? A huge party, I hope. Kim has some crazy idea planned for us. I don't know why I agreed to trust her and let her set the whole thing up. It's not that I don't trust her, it's more that she's a whole lot more liberal than I'll ever be and she wants to loosen me up. Anyway, we're off to the big city in a little bit; she bought us tickets to a costume ball. And, to top it off, I agreed to let her dress me. Think me, in slutty princess attire. I seriously don't know why I listen to her sometimes. Anyway, It's going to take me a while to get in the mood, so I've gotta go. I hope your New Year's Eve is wonderful.
Think of me at midnight.
Xo,
Adi
I sent the email, shut off my computer, and sighed. I had spent the last several days in the haze of helping dad in the shop, avoiding Danny and sneaking up to my room at night to read the book that Kim had bought me. And, when I wasn't doing those things, Kim was dragging me along to store after store to look for the perfect outfit for the masked New Year's Eve party she had planned.
It was finally New Years Eve. Downstairs, dad shook his head and said, "I don't like it Adi, I don't like you going out on New Years Eve. And to Atlanta? It's not safe."
"It's perfectly safe. I'm going with Kim to a private party. It's not like we're going to be prowling the bars of the underground. Don't worry so much. I'll be back tomorrow afternoon-ish." I walked into the kitchen.
"Do you have your cell phone?" Mom called out.
"Of course."
"Do you have enough cash? In case, you know, you need a cab or something."
"I have about thirty dollars."
Dad pulled his wallet out and flipped through it, sliding three twenties out and holding them toward me. "Just in case you need it," he held on to the bills when I reached for them. I met his gaze. "Be careful, and remember, you can call your mother or I at any time and for any reason."
"I know dad, thanks. I love y'all, but Kim's waiting on me."