This story starts with a warning and I feel I should also put one here for you, dear reader. It is a long tale (sorry) and the sex comes a long way into it (sorry again).
It also has some references to violence and abuse (really sorry) but they are a feature of one of the characters.
Anyway... given that, I hope you enjoy.
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Chapter 1
My sister warned me about her.
"Sure, she's my best friend, but stay away from her, she'll fuck you over."
I had known Kate for years, a frequent visitor to the family home and constant companion to my sister. I also had a crush on her, one of those that starts early and someone goes from being your sibling's annoying little bratty friend to a cute girl and blossoms from there. Of course, nothing happened, we were too young really, but there had been flirting. She had no siblings and teased Suzy about her brother, often when I was in earshot.
"Hey Suze, your big brother is pretty cute for a nerd." being the most common one.
Despite my sister's warning, I was looking forward to meeting Kate again, although my excitement had been somewhat stymied by the look Suzy was giving me as she spoke.
"Seriously, don't!" she stared at me hard. "I don't know what's up with her, but she is gaining a reputation and not a good one."
"You talk with her about everything, so what's going on?" I asked, wondering how this shy and cute girl had gone off the rails.
"I have no idea. I've seen her go off with guys who have come over to talk with her when we are out. She'll just leave. She's turned into a flaky bitch." she said, the anger more at the loss of her friend than anything else I suspected. "Anyway, she's a prick tease, or worse, just remember that and don't get any thoughts into your head about doing anything." Her eyes softened. "I love her, but I love you more, you're my brother, a fucking annoying one at times, but still my brother. She's..." her voice trailed off as she thought what her friend was to her now, "She's Kate." she mumbled.
We were born three years and three days apart. A fabulous symmetry that enabled us to have joint birthday parties. Kate added to the symmetry by being three months ahead of Suzy. Kate had been at a fair few of the parties over the last eight years, in fact, I can't remember her not being at one in that time. This was a special one, Suzy was eighteen and I was twenty one and newly back from Uni. I didn't have many friends, so I had asked a few people from my new job. I had only been there four weeks, so didn't really know people, but there were a couple of guys who I had bonded with. There was also one who I hadn't. Alas, he had walked in as I asked Charlie and David to come and he accepted the non-invitation. Greg was that kind of guy.
"Ok. If I am not to try anything with Kate, then you have to avoid Greg." I said to Suzy.
"This isn't some mediation thing, I was trying to help you not get fucked over. Anyway, what's up with him?"
I gave her a brief rundown, the bragging of his conquests, his derogatory remarks about any girl he met, the usual laddish behaviour.
"And you invited him, why?" Suzy glared at me. I explained I hadn't really, he had just jumped at the invite of others and I was too green at the firm to really argue.
"Well, I am pretty sure he won't be bragging about me." Suzy said and smiled. She was pretty smart, but I worried about her, especially with bastards such as Greg in the same way as she worried about me with Kate. For a little sister, she was pretty cool and we looked out for each other, always messaging and emailing, even being friends on Facebook and teasing each other. in comments.
The party was at the family home. I had moved out a few weeks earlier, across the other side of London as it was better for work, plus, I had got used to being on my own now. I missed the place, it was in a good part of town, close to lots of parks and the river and my little one-bed place was on a busy road with barely a tree to be seen, but it gave me privacy. It didn't stop me going back to see Suzy, plus mum and dad for the weekends.
"Welcome to the party." Suzy and I greeted the guests. There weren't that many of mine and Suze had been reticent about inviting too many of hers as the parents had trusted us with the house and gone away for the weekend.
I didn't see Kate arrive, maybe she had been there earlier. She was such a regular visitor to the place she may well have a key and let herself in. I looked for her every time the door opened, but then she appeared on the sofa, looking shy and slightly awkward, a warm smile beaming at me.
"Hey stranger. How are you?" She said, standing and her arms going wide as I walked to her. "I hear you have a fancy schmancy job now." she giggled and the warmth in the room shot up.
I sat on the footstool and we started chatting. She was keen to hear about my job and how Uni had gone. We talked like we always did, easily with lots of laughing, frequently touching the arm of the other, flirting, but not, but maybe. Kate had dark hair and eyes and tended to look quite serious, until she warmed to you, then the sparkle would light up your soul as her soft laugh tickled over you. She was slim and quite modest in her look, which made my sister's comment all the stranger. I had always known her as quite shy, never really talking to people or giving much away, but, clearly, something had changed.
She was wearing jeans and t-shirt, nothing fancy or suggesting she would be eating any men tonight and I tried not to stare at her legs in the tight material. We chatted away, oblivious to anyone else, but I did see a glare from Suzy from across the room now and then. She told me of her own Uni plans and job ideas after that, wanting to move away, but still torn as she loved London. She would be going with Suzy to University and she looked forward to being on campus with her 'bestie'. She was clearly oblivious to my sister's concern and she would lean in closer as we talked, her soft breath on my cheek and the light in her eyes clear. I was torn, I trusted my sister, but my schoolboy crush was now a beautiful young woman and I could feel my heart racing as we spoke, just us in a little bubble.
"Hi Mark, great party." The voice threw me, I didn't recognise it and I looked to see Greg smiling widely, his eyes flicking to Kate. I didn't want to introduce him. "Who's your friend?" He scuppered my plans straight away.
"This is Kate." I said quietly, hating the words as they left my mouth. She looked up and smiled, but only a little and I took some faith in that. "Kate, this Greg. From work." His smile was slick, as were his moves and he quickly wedged himself onto the sofa next to Kate.
"Lovely to meet you, Kate." he said, the voice turning my stomach and Kate's head and her smile warmed. He started to ask her how she knew me and, with each question and answer, her body turned from me to face him, slowly, like a glacier until I was stuck fast, frozen out and trapped watching her as she was now sideways on to me and edging away. Her laughter now sickened me, the false lilt in it slapping me, taunting that it wasn't me causing it. I stumbled to think of something to say, but Greg had sat back on the side of the sofa and Kate had moved with him, slowly, surely, further from me until I wasn't anywhere in her vision.
I tried to catch her eye as I stood, heading to get another drink. Neither of them looked away, wrapped in each other. I stood and breathed deeply, trying not to vomit as my stomach sunk lower with each laugh from them.
"Sorry." Suzy said, squeezing my arm, "But..." she didn't need to say anything else. I understood. I breathed deeply as I stood in the garden, watching the aircraft pass in the darkening sky, the Swifts screeching between me and the jet.
"What changed?" I said, knowing Suzy didn't know. "I mean..." I stared at another aeroplane that rumbled over.
"I don't know. This is who she is. A guy pays her attention and she is his. Well, only if they are totally unsuitable."
"I am not sure he is unsuitable to her." I mumbled, feeling the bitterness rising.
"Is he the one you warned me about?" Suzy said, standing close, resting on my side as I tried to control my feelings.
"Yes. That's him. Maybe I should have warned her." I said, feeling choked.
"It wouldn't have mattered. In fact, it may have just encouraged her. I am sorry, Mark. really. For years I had hoped you two would... Imagine, my best friend and my older brother." She laughed, but a cynical one and I realised I hadn't been alone with that thought. "Anyway. I still love you." she added softly and hugged me.
We walked back inside and the sofa was empty. I walked around, hoping to find Kate and talk to her, try and bring her back, away from Greg, but she was nowhere to be seen. Worse still, Greg had gone too.
The party wound down. Everyone had been well behaved and nothing was broken. Charlie had tried to chat up Suzy, but they ended up just talking, all serious intent lost in the warm summer sky as they sat in the garden with various other friends as the gathering drifted away.
"Charlie was nice, but not my type." Suzy said as we tidied up. "He asked me out, but I was honest with him. He still said he'd like to meet. Is he trustworthy?"
I laughed. "You know I wouldn't trust anyone with you. No one would be good enough." I said and she gave me a little slap. "But, he's a nice guy. Very gentle and quiet. I was quite surprised to see him talking to someone, especially a girl."
"You could have said beautiful girl." Suzy said and crossed her arms across her chest to look angry.
"I could have, but he was talking to you." I said and then ran back to avoid her flailing arm as she laughed.
Then came the silence. We both knew what we wanted to say, but... I took a breath. "Kate vanished and..."
"Yeah, your creepy friend went too. I guess..." We looked at each other and I tried not to be sick.
"I really don;t know what to say." Suzy said quietly as I sat on the sofa, my head spinning. I had known Kate for years, I knew there were feelings, but I had hoped this party might be the start of something. A chance for us to get to know each other now we were adults and the 'schoolkid crush' tag was lost. It seems I was too late, my signals had been badly crossed by the earlier talking too, so easy and light, finishing each other's sentences at times as we laughed... until he had come along.
The weekend after the party had been subdued, Suzy and I going for walks. She had no messages from Kate, not indication she was ok, no thanks for the party. Nothing. "That's standard Kate." she said with a wry smile.
I didn't see Greg until Wednesday. Then I wish I hadn't. I was in the small kitchen area and I heard his laugh, it went straight to my insides and made me want to get rid of my lunch. He sat down and grinned at me.
"Thanks for the party." He said and slapped my shoulder. I wanted to slap him back, but didn't have a brick handy. "That bird was fucking fit." he added. It had taken all of ten seconds.
"Yeah, she's..." I couldn't think of anything to say in this context.
