Author's Note: I am in the process of putting my diary and journal entries online because I don't want my kids stumbling upon them some day. I exaggerate/fantasize where it is fun to do so, but I am staying true to where I was at the time. One journal entry doesn't necessarily fit together with another like puzzle pieces because I wrote them years after, just for the fun of it. I am writing this only for myself. (We were 18 when the events below occurred.)
We're Getting There
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Will and I started going out in high school. What originally drew me to him was his blonde hair, blue eyes and big shoulders. It sounds corny, but when he asked me out, my first thought was what a Teddy bear he looked like, and how nice his hugs must be. It took him two weeks to muster up the courage to kiss me, so you can image how slowly our physical relationship developed.
On weekend nights we would go to his house and hope that his parents would go to bed early and leave us alone. They usually did. Once their door shut, we would make out for the rest of the night, hardly coming up for air. The first time he put his hand up my shirt, I was shocked. I didn't imagine THAT happening with his mother down the hall. I was all snuggled up between his legs with my back against his belly, and his arms in a bear hug around me. He was nuzzling my neck and telling me how good I smelled. I was warm, content, and barely watching the inane movie we had rented.
I felt his hands fiddling with my shirt, and I thought, "Well, here goes." I closed my eyes and felt my pussy starting to throb. When his hands touched my stomach, I gasped right out loud. His hands were freezing because he was so nervous! He asked, "Is this O.K.?" I laughed nervously and told him it was just that his hands were like ice. He continued to slide his hands up my belly to my breasts, where he quickly slid his big hands into my bra. I felt his cold fingers against my already hard nipples, and I leaned my head back against his chest and sighed.
My pussy was on fire, and I could feel the already familiar hardness of his erection against my lower back. I took a deep breath, arched my back a little, and said, "Mmmmmm..." as he rubbed his palms gently against my nipples. Occassionally he would take both breasts in his hands and squeeze them a little. I was so turned on, I felt dizzy.
He hesitated before opening my front-clasp bra, just long enough for me to whisper, "Please." I was trembling as he unhooked my bra and pulled my shirt higher in the front. We stayed like that for a long time, with his hands softly caressing me. Suddenly his parents' door opened, and I covered up in a big hurry. He took me home after that, and I fastened my bra in the car!
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After that first interruption, we made sure we were under a blanket. I figured that his mother would surely be able to figure out what that was about, but at least she wouldn't see my tits!
The first time Will put his hand down my pants, I was really surprised by the wetness of my pussy. I had never masturbated before, so I really had no idea how much fluid could be coming out of me. I had just really learned that the throbbing between my legs was sexual arousal. My pants were on, so his wrist was at an awkward angle, but he rubbed my clit (way too hard, but I didn't really understand that then), and stuck one slippery finger into my vagina.