We’ve been friends for almost 3 years now. There have been a lot of late night talks, hours of advice giving, and even some plain old fun. Remember when we first met? I was still married and very miserable. You stood by me every step of the way when I got divorced. You are the one I always ran to crying. Even when I thought I shouldn’t, you let it be known that with you was where I belonged.
I remember sitting on the couch curled up with my head on your shoulder as you ran your hand through my hair and gave me words of comfort. I always had a strong attraction to you, and found it hard to hold back my feelings at times. I never wanted to make things weird between us, taking the risk I could lose you as a friend. After all, who else could I be “funky” and “groovy” with? Those were our two favorite sayings to each other. It was our code words to each other to let the other know everything was good in our lives.
The first time you ever kissed me took me by surprise. I knew that it was probably just a comfort kiss, but still, you have no idea how much those first kisses made me want you more. It just seemed our timing was never right. Being the patient person that I am, I wasn’t worried that we would never get together. I didn’t realize that it would take 2 years after my divorce before it finally paid off.
I came home from work and found a sticky note on the computer screen from my son. All it read was “Jim called” I sat down at my desk and called you. You had been away on holiday and just returned home. I listened to the fun stories, and then you emailed a couple of your pictures showing just how much fun you had while in Canada. I expressed my concerns that there would be “little Jim’s” running around all over Canada next year, and you just laughed and said that you didn’t have THAT good of a time there.
You asked how things were going, and what kind of plans I had for the weekend. I filled you in with what had been going on here while you were gone, and included that I had no plans for the weekend. That’s when you hit me with the plan to head to the lake for the weekend.
The next morning you picked me up. We talked the whole 5 hours up there. We pulled up to a cute little log cabin that overlooked the lake. You carried both bags in and disappeared into one of bedrooms. When you came out, I noticed you had left both suitcases in the room.
My heart racing now, I quietly walked through the place looking around, stopping in front of the big window that faced the water. I was watching the sun sparkle off the waves as they hit the beach. Since fall was almost over most of the other cabin on the lake were already vacant for the year.
I didn’t hear you walk up behind me, and I jumped when I felt your arms wrap around me. I turn my head and look up at you. You kiss my temple telling me to relax and enjoy the weekend. Relax? How can I relax when I am so confused by this whole situation I thought to myself.