Her life has been difficult to say the least, and she only wants to live again. The darkness has consumed her for over two years and she is ready to look up at the sun again. Susan knows that it will take awhile to get herself together. Getting over the kind of pain she has suffered will not be an easy task. She thinks back over the last few weeks and realizes her major mistake. Trust, it came too easily and once again she felt pain.
Daniel seemed like such a nice man. He was the perfect gentleman, always polite, and kind and caring. Also the perfect date, he picked her up on time, took her to a wonderful restaurant and enjoyed a lovely meal with her. On the first date. He did not press her for any physical contact and acted the part of gentleman very well. On the first date.
Susan was thrilled at the aspect of having a man in her life again. There was another one that she longs to be with, but distance has a way of interfering with love, passion, romance and relationships. He is just so far away, and seems so out of reach. She met Eric at a mutual friends gathering. Kindness, strength, character and humor radiated from him. For the first time in a long time, Susan smiled and felt warmth. Gentle humor and genuine conversation ruled the evening she met Eric. The wine was good, the food was better and the company of friends was excellent.
On the second date, Daniel took her to a nice little out of the way place, soft music, candlelight and a delicious dinner. The evening seemed perfect. On the way back to her apartment, Susan noticed that he seemed reserved and distant. She wasn't sure what had happened and was concerned.
Reaching her apartment, he walked her in and asked to come inside for a few minutes. Susan felt safe with Daniel, so she let him come in with her. She laid her purse on a table and switched on the lights and stereo. She was nervous being alone with him like this, but not afraid. He was a gentle, kind man after all. On the first date, he was.
Both of them sat on the sofa and she began talking, small talk, and nervous chatter. It had been a very long time since she had been alone with a man. Within moments he inched closer to her on the couch and Susan noticed his eyes were peculiar. They seemed dark and intense and the first shiver of apprehension started taking place in her mind. Continuing to speak, she moved slightly away from him, something was wrong, and her intuitive mind picked up a negative feeling from Daniel.
Suddenly he was on her, hands pushing and pulling her. Susan was terrified, she shoved him and scratched him and pleaded with him to stop touching her. His hands were rough and cruel. Daniel slapped her, several times and she fought back with all the power she possessed. She wedged a leg between them and gaining leverage she kicked with all her strength and he fell to the floor.
"Why are you doing this?" She asked while holding her throbbing cheek. "Get out, go now!"
"I'm going, but you asked for this, remember that!" Daniel screamed as he went through the door.
Tears were falling down her quickly bruising cheeks as Susan fell on the sofa. She could not understand what just happened. Her body felt abused and she ached all over from their struggles. What now, what I do, she thought to herself. Reaching for the phone she called her friend, Amy. "Amy will help me through this." Susan said to the empty room.
A few hours later she looked at her reflection in her rear view mirror as she drove the last few miles to Amy's home. Susan saw the cuts, scrapes and bruises that would darken her face for days to come and wept. The cars headlights alerted Amy to her arrival and she went to her friend to help her from the car.
"Dear Lord, what did he do to you?" Amy asked as she took Susan's hand and helped her to the house.
Both women went inside Amy's home and Amy led Susan to a comfortable chair and gently pushed her into it. Susan felt the comfort surround her in the safety of her friend's presence and home. No fear was allowed here in this cozy room and she felt the tension start to ease from her worn out body. Her mind would not shut down however, and memories of the evening began seeping slowly back in. Hugging her arms around her body she began to sob, releasing the tears of terror from her soul.
Amy fixed her friend a drink and they talked for hours until Susan was ready to sleep. Deep sorrow settled within Susan, but she felt more relaxed and ready to rest. Her friend led her to a nice little room and told her to make herself at home. She undressed and looked at her battered body in the mirror, the bruising was deeper. She saw scratches and scrapes on her face and dark blue circles around her eyes. Sighing she turned and folded herself into the warmth of the waiting bed.
Susan rested as well as her sore muscles would allow, waking often from nightmares of the past hours. Crying out once in the night and longing to feel strong arms embrace her, she pictured Eric in her mind and the easy way they talked and laughed together.
The two friends spent two days together with Amy listening and Susan resting as much as she could. She began to relax and the nightmares came less frequently, but she still felt battered and betrayed and wondered in her mind if she was at fault. Could she have given Daniel the impression that she wanted something she didn't?
Early on the morning of her third day at Amy's home, Susan heard a light knock upon the bedroom door. Drowsily she raised her head and told her friend to come in. She looked up and Amy stood close by her. "Susan, you have a guest, a friend that would really like to see you, can I show him in?"
"Oh Amy please, I have no friends here besides you, I just don't think I can talk to anyone right now. Please tell whoever it is to go away." Susan replied as she lay back upon the pillow and closed her eyes.
As she drifted off to sleep, Susan heard muted voices coming from another room, and thought she recognized the voice speaking to her friend, but sleep claimed her. Dreams of a man that she knew she should remember haunted her but he kept slipping away. She slept for a few more hours, dreaming, listening and waiting.
Susan felt a presence in her room, she knew she should open her eyes and see who was there. Opening dreamy eyes, she saw him standing beside her bed. He was holding a bouquet of the most beautiful wild daises she had ever seen; in the center surrounded by the colorful petals was a single yellow rose. Raising her eyes to his face, Susan said, "You are beautiful."
Smiling gently at her, Eric replied, "You mean the flowers are beautiful."