So I meet this pretty young woman on line. We joke a bit and interact through a forum site, 'Literotica'. She catches my interest with some uniquely placed words. I tend to like her humor and open minded thoughts. Seriously I did not single her out just because she is a female. I have plenty of those friends and at the moment I am not hunting for kitty.
Being a man with a sincere heart and a twisted mind I take a close look originally just to scope who she might be. Upon some petty talk in a few letters I soon discover she is not only interesting but in a weird coincidence she also lives nearby my native hometown. Having left that area some years ago in search of who I was; I find it peculiar that my life suddenly circles back to home if only in thoughts.
Within days I learn some things I like, but question. Being no dog my self I have the confidence and means to take on any situation. It is, just as I mentioned before I am not really looking for female comforts. I am looking for friends, but I never rule out the possibility of a relationship growing.
My mind perplexes with thoughts, I am a 34 year old male and this sweet lady of the north is 19. Letting that sink in for a moment I ponder the thought. Ok it is not like I have never been hit on and I can fathom the maturity of a young female. It just was never a consideration before now. My eyes roll back as I brush my hair. For God's sake what am I thinking?
Briefly after a few letters are exchanged the fair princess of the north disappears from my screen. Not really knowing what to make of it I continue along with nice thoughts. Never really stopping to take a second look back. It would have been different if my goals were to see how many females I could tag. Really now if that was the case I surely would not be playing on line. As I live next door to spring break USA there is never a shortage of willing participants.
Within weeks posting at my favorite boards I stumble upon this woman once again. Not wanting to be a pest; it was more a happy to see she has returned. I feel the pleasure arise as I post my usual not so politically correct responses in a silly thread. Now some of what I write was more or less humorous but in a deep manner it also has a bit of reality to it. Underline message was, 'Yea, I am interested but not willing to make the first move.'
Allowing the screen to fade to black! A few days pass and being coy I play the subtle cat and mouse. Posting, and then ever watching for her to post a reply. Being careful not to look to zealous I restrain from an immediate response. Give it a few more days, and it ends, poof she is gone!
Not gone just minimal sightings. Hey all is well and good in the land of make believe. What should one expect? Be honest with your self and realize this is not a place to find the right one. I know many relationships have developed right out of the forum pages. I guess it is an excellent place to look for like minded people.
If you the reader can't tell up to now I am interested but not willing to actively pursue. My dick says yes, but my mind says don't be retarded. Escaping the cyber world for a few weeks my self I return to find among my Private Messages a familiar name. Alright they are all familiar names, but one name in particular makes me leap.
I respond with proper etiquette and am very pleased when she responds back. My apologies to all who are waiting and this one person jumps to the top of the list. Could it be... nah keep a level head? The thought secretly turns my heart something within is wishing.
The day passes to the next, when another kind response is read by my eyes, from her: "I was thinking of a story along those lines the other day, playful chat, and perhaps while visiting family we happen to arrange a meeting... which leads on to other things... I never thought about the happily ever after tho... lol, you read my mind."
Like an adolescent I read her words not dissecting them, just enjoying the moment. In the back of my mind I try to rationale with myself. While in the moment I take pleasure in loosing my mind to the next step. Now taking a closer look did she mean story or is that just a way to break in without actually having to ask for real?
Mystifying my thoughts; as unbelievable as it could possibly be. I want to know and there is only one way. Taking a deep breath as this is a long shot in the dark.
I begin to type: "My fine female friend from the north, what a delight it truly is to read your words. I take pleasure in the thought of what you say. I am not sure how to propose this question. As much as I wish to write such a story, I need to ask; do you think it might be possible to effectively meet? I understand there are some things that may hinder any relationship between us. Still since I will be headed your way soon, it would be real nice if nothing else; could we meet and at least allow me to take you to dinner?"
I close my eyes and hit send. Frozen in the shock of what I have just asked, and sweating with anticipation of her answer. My thoughts run distorted this could go real good. Oh, that would be so sweet like hitting the Lottery. Then again I could very well frighten off a wonderful friend. Oh, that would be awful as that was never my intention. When did meeting someone become so complex?
I awake at 6 am. turning on the magical glass box I look into my messages, nothing. Again at noon I find nothing. Not giving up hope as I know it is early for her to respond.
Then at 4:30 there it is, the return response. My heart flutters with anticipation of the greatest magnitude. I am excited but scared of her response. The questions dart through my mind as I prepare to open her note. Simple but I was in relief to read: "I suppose I don't know as much about you as you might know about me, but I'd like to learn. However I am unsure of what I should say in response. Almost all of your messages make me smile, and/or laugh, that really is a good thing. And yes, I am of sorts hitting on you also. Just as you mentioned age is a consideration, and I agree. So if we are going to meet, we should wait until we know each other better."
I know for many this might seem like a bit of nothing. To me right at the moment it was the world. I understand this was not a definite yes to her heart. But it sure was a far cry from a flat 'No'. Like a youngster heading to the Circus I spun around in my office chair with cries of joy and splendor.
Coming back to the keys my fingers trembled with a tingle, the excitement was bona fide. Pulsing through my veins the blood pumped me to a condition, I felt incredible. Stroking the keyboard the journey had begun.
Day after day we write and I will admit with each day I feel more comfortable. The gap in age quickly is reduced until it no longer seems to be there. Still being careful for the stumbling blocks it was just a pleasure to be greeted with her genuine letters each evening.