After our lunch, while sharing a Dr Pepper, she suddenly got quiet and withdrawn. I waited until she looked at me. "I want to tell you what happened to me at college, what drove me back to the farm, why I have so many fences around my heart."
"I was attending dairy management school in Sioux Falls when it happened. My first time away from home, nobody called me ugly or homely, I was just another person. Part of the ag management course was finances, I ended up in an economics class, and there met a boy. He was sort of geeky, part of a frat house. We'd been going out about a month, I'd let him feel my breasts over my clothes, but wouldn't go any further. Long story short, he took me to what was supposed to be a party at the frat house, I found out when I got inside that I was the party."
"There were 13 of them, they held me down and started tearing off my dress and underwear. When it was discovered I was having my period someone yelled "backdoor". I was bent over a table with guys holding my arms and legs, repeatedly raping me anally for over two hours. It was only when blood was running out of my rectum did they stop, they drove me to an urgent care facility and dumped me at the door. My sphincter muscle was damaged, and the lower rectal lining was torn in several places. When I got out of surgery the police were waiting for my statement, thankfully a doctor had done a rape kit on me before I was taken into surgery."
"I told them which frat house and as many names as I could recall. Nils, they had to do a temporary colostomy while my anal lining healed, I pooped into a bag attached to my side. It was humiliating. They arrested all 13 of the boys, the ones with rich parents hired expensive lawyers and got off with probation and community service. The other 5 went to jail for a while, only the guy I'd been seeing went to prison, for 3 years. My folks brought me home, Mankato State has a similar course, most of it online, that's how I got my associate degree. Maybe now you have a better understanding of why I'm so guarded."
I had tears in my eyes, I was so angry. How could one human being treat another like that?
It was already four o'clock and she needed to get back to milk. On the trek back to the house she said she was milking alone, so I offered to help.
"Are you sure you remember? Cows get pretty antsy, you sure you're up to it?"
"Britt, I milked all my life until college, pullin tits is still pullin tits, unless you have some other kind of cow."
"I hate that phrase, my older brother used it all the time. It's disgusting and degrading."
"Speaking of your older brother, I haven't seen him around."
"Nor will you, he died in Iraq. His wife remarried and lives in Iowa with her husband and their two kids. Einar wasn't married long enough to have any of his own."
We put the tractor in the machine shed, I changed into barn clothes and we headed for her folk' s farm. They had a pipeline for milking, we always had buckets and a step saver, so it took me 4 or 5 cows before I got the hang of a different set up. By the time we'd hit the halfway point, we were both moving with efficiency. The barn held 60 cows, but with the two of us we had them done in less than two hours. There were several fresh cows giving massive amounts of milk, which takes a little longer to milk out.
We were flirting a little, messing around, teasing each other as we milked. At one point we were standing together in the alleyway waiting for cows to finish milking out, Britt stepped up to me and kissed me tenderly. Before I could draw her in for a more intimate kiss one of her milkers started squawking, she pulled away with a smile as she attended to the cow. The milking was done, the feed bunker was filled, cows turned out, alley was scraped, and the pipeline was washing. She checked everything in the milk house one last time and we headed toward the house. When we got to my truck I started to say goodbye, she was having none of that, I was to come in for supper. Her mom had cooked a pork roast, Britt and I ate like pigs.
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I had a surprise visit the next day, my older sister Bente. We talked family stuff, I gave her the tour showing her how much progress had been made. She wondered why I was going to all that effort, I told, I was going to start milking again within a year.
"No you're not, that's bullshit. There are easier ways to go bankrupt. Besides, you're too old and you will be all alone."
"I can hire Amish to help me with chores and farm work, as for being alone, I plan to be married in the next few years."
"Nils, the scuttlebutt in town is you've been dating Britt Nilsen. Little brother, if you hurt that girl I will personally kick your ass. She's suffered all her life at the hands of the inconsiderate bastards in town, she doesn't need more rejection. Besides, you were always a sucker for petite blondes."
"Not planning to hurt her, and as for her being my wife, I'm not sure she'd have me. Petite blondes, I've been the pretty girl route twice, both times getting kicked in the balls. When I left for college mom told me not to marry a pretty girl, they were usually full of themselves. She said to find a plain Jane with a big heart and healthy sexual appetite, she'll please you all the days of your life, she'll raise your babies right, work by your side, and she'll never cheat on you."
"Mom said that? She never said that to me about guys."
"That my dear Bente, is because you are smarter than most men, mother knew you would make the right choices and rule your home from a position of love. You already had your eyes on Steven, you didn't need her advice."
"Back to this farm bullshit. Nils, it costs a lot of money to farm these days. We carry so many farmers feed bills that it scares me, and if they go belly up, we get nothing. It will eat everything you've got Nils. Don't do it, keep playing with your computers, at least you make enough to live."
Bente and her husband owned and operated the feed mill in town. Bente has a degree in marketing/economics, she takes care of all the business stuff, Steve covers all the outside stuff. They have 5 kids, the story is they fuck like rabbits.