Chapter 36: The Men Who Wanted What He Had
"They didn't always understand it. But they felt it--my power, his devotion. And it stirred something they couldn't name."
-- Mistress Staci
Men noticed.
They didn't always know what they were seeing.
But they felt it--my presence, his submission, the way we moved together like something choreographed but completely natural.
He held doors. Carried bags. Kissed my hand in casual conversation.
He never interrupted me. He never tried to explain me.
He stood behind me in social settings--not out of shyness, but because he knew his place.
And other men?
They watched.
Some with confusion. Some with amusement.
But more than a few with quiet, restless envy.
They'd make jokes--light jabs about him being "well trained," or me being "the boss." But their eyes lingered longer than their smiles. Their wives looked at me. Their girlfriends looked at him.
Because they could feel it.
That I didn't ask. I expected.
That he didn't argue. He obeyed.
And somehow, we were closer for it.
I remember once at a dinner, one of the husbands leaned in when his wife left the table and said, "You know, he really worships you."
I smiled and said, "Of course he does."
And the way his throat tightened told me everything.
Some men flirted with me.
They saw the control and mistook it for openness.
But I could see it in them--that craving, that ache to be led. To be stripped of pressure, expectation, performance.
They didn't want to dominate.
They wanted to rest.
They didn't want to win me over.
They wanted to surrender.
And a few?
A few were bold enough to ask--what it was like, how it worked, if I ever needed someone else to serve.
I rarely indulged them.
Because they didn't want to serve me.
They wanted to feel what he felt.
And that wasn't something they could fake.
What he had took years of shaping, training, surrender.
It wasn't just devotion.
It was depth.
But I saw it--again and again.
That flicker in their eyes when they saw him kneel.
The hush in their voice when they asked if I'd ever let him... touch me.
The jealousy, sharp and unspoken, when I laughed and said, "He's never been inside me. And he never will be."
They didn't envy his cage.
They envied what it meant:
That he belonged to someone so completely...
they couldn't imagine it.
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Of course, now and then, one of those men would strike my fancy.
And if the mood was right--if his wife looked curious enough, or I felt generous--I'd indulge.
Never for love. Never for ownership.
Just for fun. For contrast. For appetite.
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One night, at a party in the city, a silver-haired man with clever eyes flirted with me over bourbon and jazz. His wife was beautiful, bold, and a little bored. I let him touch me under the table while my husband waited at the bar--watching. That man begged to go down on me in the guest bathroom, and I let him--for five minutes. When I returned, I sat in my husband's lap, pressed my lips to his ear, and whispered, "He wasn't half as good as you are."
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Another time, during a weekend away with friends, a couple we'd known casually invited me to their hotel suite after dinner. She was curious. He was eager. I let him strip me while she watched. Then I let her touch me while he begged to be allowed in. I denied him with a smile, leaned into her kiss, and left them both aching and undone. I returned to my suite, and my husband was kneeling--waiting--eyes full of questions he never asked.