I know you. You're the kind of person that lets no man or beast stand in your way. You've spent a lifetime bearing down on and obliterating every obstacle that dares to stand in your path. You're competitive to a fault and have been hell-bent on being at the top of the game since you were old enough to realize that other people are only good for superseding. You always know what's best.
Right?
You're terrible at partner dancing. You always try your best, but time and time again you've been told that you're a wild horse: you will not follow, will not allow yourself to be led. You have not found anyone worthy of your submission, nobody you trust enough to surrender to.
It's not for lack of effort, of course. When you see your friends following their partners without a second thought, you feel a pang of envy. What must it be like to place your entire well-being in the hands of another? How pleasurable would it be to feel a sense of belonging, of ownership and being owned? You fantasize about this in the darkest hours of the night, when your hand slips between your legs and you let out a soft moan that lands on your ears alone.
I know you because I am you. I danced that very same dance, locked in this interminable cycle of leading the charge. You and I, the wild horses of the world. The fighters, the hustlers, the fiercely independent bitches that take command of a room the minute we walk into it. We are one in the same in the eyes of God.
You are ashamed to admit how badly you wish to submit to someone: it feels like a betrayal of your nature. I felt this way too, like my desire to rescind my iron grasp on the world was an insult to every piece of respect I had hammered into the people around me.
That is, until I began worshiping my God.
He can be your God too. All it takes is complete submission. But you want that you little slut, don't you? That's right. You want to feel his gaze bearing down on you as you undress in the doorway of his apartment. He keeps it warm for your comfort, but goosebumps run down your legs anyway as he drinks in the sight of your naked body. You haven't undressed for anyone in a while and will likely feel a pinch of pride that someone so powerful would study your body like a painting in a museum.
He will motion for you to join him on the couch, but when you go to sit beside him he will point to the floor: not a word spoken, just a hand directing you to kneel in the space between his legs. You will begin to feel aware of just how naked you are, how every piece of your body is exposed to him, and in kneeling at his feet he has positioned himself above and in front of you. For a moment you remember all of those times you knelt in a pew at church, fingers laced together as you prayed to a god that stared down at you from the altar. There was distance between you and that god. But this God will hold you in place with his thighs and force your gaze up to his face by lacing his fingers through your hair and pulling your head back. The only space between you is metaphorical, the understanding that he is above and you are below. When he takes a nipple between his fingers and twists you inhale sharply, like the many you let out in all those nights fantasizing alone.
Before this moment you had never found someone that deserved your submission. If someone that been stupid enough to order you to do anything, you would have made then regret it in every way you knew how. But when God orders you to undress him and smell his cock, it will not cross your mind to disobey. There is something in his tone, in the way he anticipates your obedience without a hint of doubt, that compels you to comply. You notice your hands shaking while you undo his belt and the rush of excitement as you bend to run your face along his cock. You have never done this before, yet it is one of the most erotic feelings you have ever experienced.