The "virgin" mum (part 1)
It was never planned but worked out so well for both of us. Mum was in her late forties and had been divorced from my dad for around ten years: they had seemed to drift apart and, when I moved away, there didn't seem to be any glue to hold them together. Looking back, they had never seemed close or particularly affectionate towards each other but you never really think about your parent's relationship as you have nothing to compare it with.
Dad moved on and remarried, and I have a reasonable relationship with him, his new wife and his stepchildren. In the time since they had split up, mum had never seemed to have another boyfriend, or anybody really close really. I didn't think too much about it as I was busy with my job and my own family. I phoned every week; the family visited her for holidays, and I would come down for long weekends when there were jobs that needed doing around her house. This was one of those long weekends. As we had reached the end of autumn, I had been up ladders clearing gutters and making sure that the house was sound against the winter.
After a long, hot shower I was relaxing with mum on the big sofa in the living room. I was in a comfy tee shirt and jogging bottoms; Mum was dressed as usual in a pair of slacks and a stretchy top. Mum was always good looking, with a curvy figure but she was just my mum. The film on the TV was not particularly good one but neither of us were in the mind to turn it off and start again with something else. The main characters were a married couple who were constantly arguing and seemed to be heading for a breakup.
I was watching this without much attention and mum shifted on the sofa and leaned against me. This was nothing more than to do with the fact that the room was not overly warm and a bit of body heat never hurt. This was not unusual for the two of us, especially when we were alone together. I started thinking about the couple on the TV and the state of their relationship. I could see my mum was not that interested in the film, she kept looking at her watch and wasn't really watching the screen. I wondered whether she had gone through the same sort of arguments when she and my dad broke up. I asked, "Mum, was there any particular reason you and dad broke up?"
She seemed to think for a while before replying, "Not really, we drifted apart. I suppose we were never really happy together and," here she paused, "There was nothing physical to keep us together so the emotional part of the relationship just died away."
This was not quite what I had expected and wondered whether to ask more. As it turned out, I didn't have to ask. Mum went on "We had never had any experience of other people when we married so the physical side of the relationship never really worked." Now I was out of my depth but mum seemed to be quite happy to talk on.
Intrigued, I asked what she meant.
I need to explain that any reference to the physical act of sex on our house while I was growing up never happened. To hear my mum, make reference to the 'physical side of a relationship' was startling. "No sex?" I said.
"Of course there was" said mum, "Otherwise you wouldn't be here, it just wasn't very satisfying." I stayed silent, letting my mum speak. "It was always very quick and it was only later on that I began to realise that a woman could experience the same physical sensations as a man but I don't think your father ever thought about that."
I gently asked, "He never considered your pleasure?"
With a big breath, mum said, "He never gave me pleasure. In the whole of my life, I have never had an orgasm. Nice girls didn't play like that when I was growing up and your father is the only man I have ever slept with, so the chance has never been there."
"What about since then?" I asked.
Quietly my mum replied, "I never have, I don't know how and it seems wrong."
Now I didn't know what to do or say. I did the only thing I could think of and squeezed her around the shoulders. "Would you like to know what it feels like?" I asked, waiting for an explosion.
Mum nodded and said, "I probably never will, I am too old to start out with a new man, besides, it would be too embarrassing to admit to anyone that I don't know what I am doing in bed, especially at my age."
What came over me I do not know. I loved my mum very much and she obviously felt very deeply about this, but she had never articulated it before and, for all I knew, probably never could again. "I have an idea" I said, "Let me help. It will be between us, if it doesn't work, no one will know and we can never mention it between us. If it does work out you will be happier, even if it is just knowing what it is all about." It was said and the silence hung in the room. At least she had not screamed at me to get out, unable to bear the silence any more, I said, "If it doesn't feel right, or you want to stop then just say and we will finish watching the film." Another long pause, she seemed to be thinking about it.
"How would it happen?" she said.
"Just naturally" I replied. Then came the biggest announcement from her I had ever heard.
"Let's try" she said.
"If there is anything you are not comfortable with" I said, "Say something and we can stop or change things." Mum nodded and smiled. "I suggest we get you undressed slowly, see how that feels."
My mum laughed. "Undressed? I have never been undressed in front of your father, I always wore a nightdress and just lifted it up. He would then climb on top and push himself in then when he had finished, he would roll off and I would pull everything back down. It was never a nice experience and made me quite sore as he had to push quite hard to get inside."
This was quite a lot of information from my mum and it showed just how much she was opening up to me as well as just what a rotten lover my dad had been. I said, "I think you will have a better time if we are not fumbling around under clothes, besides the light isn't very bright in here so you will feel more comfortable."
Mum seemed to come to a decision and began to sit up. Reaching down to the hem of her top she started to lift it. Then she stopped. "Oh" she said, "I have just thought of something, you need to know that as I never see anyone, I don't bother to shave under my arms and there is quite a bit of hair there. I do know that people shave their armpits but I haven't bothered. I haven't shaved elsewhere either if you know what I mean."
"That is not an issue for me mum" I said, "Becky doesn't shave either, we prefer for bodies to be that way so don't worry." I wasn't lying, I really do find a natural woman to be incredibly arousing. I truly thought that everything would stop now as the mood was possibly broken, but mum took a breath and lifted the hem of her top up over her stomach, over her breasts and then off completely. As she removed it, I could see the dark patches of hair nestled in her armpits before she lowered her arms and leant back against me. She wore a white bra which cupped her large breasts. At first, she went to cover the bra with her hands but seemed to come to a decision and put them down by her sides. I lifted my hand and started to gently stroke her. Firstly, I stroked her stomach, then the area below her bra before lifting each arm in turn and stroking the silky hair in each armpit. It seemed to relax her to realise that I didn't find it unattractive and she lost the tension in her face as I caressed the hair.
I moved my hand to the cups of the bra and ran my fingers over the surface feeling her breasts move beneath the fabric. Again, there was small smile on her face. Moving my hand, I made the big move and pushed my hand underneath the material of the cup to the nipple of one of her breasts, this was, for all the things that had gone before, the first real sexual contact between us. The nipple hardened as I touched it and I could feel the aureoles begin to crinkle. I gently stroked the nipple and the breast before moving my hand to the other breast. The nipple here was already half erect and standing proud. I continued to caress swapping my hand between the breasts and hearing my mother's breathing steadily becoming a little faster as I did so.