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Chapter 5 - The Cat's Out Of The Bag.
After I was dropped off at home by Simon, I remembered that I hadn't held this much cold cash at one time since my working days. It's not that I hadn't seen money before, because I've held substantially more money than this; however, I've always dealt with cheques.
I was nervous about this $1500 for a couple of reasons: firstly, I didn't want to carry so much around, for security reasons; secondly, if I banked it all at one time or spread out in smaller amounts over time, it might seem suspicious! I knew from experience that banks were extra sensitive about withdrawing or depositing 'large' amounts of money. Usually, this meant anything over $ 500. But, I decided to use a bank machine and put in $ 300 dollars. I had a guilty, sinking feeling of depositing money that I wasn't intending to declare for tax, but there was no way that the government was going to tax me for what I did for this money. I had essentially whored myself out for it to seven guys, whether I wanted to or not. The money, therefore, felt a whole lot more personal.
I arrived home safely, with still an excessive amount of money, particularly because I had withdrawn a couple of hundred dollars beforehand for use on groceries. I decided to keep most of the money in a box, in the space between my drawers. I hoped to use it up somehow, before I'd lose them somehow.
Despite being with an outrageous amount of men in one night, I felt very happy that I was continually discovering the raw power of sex and how much it was changing me. I was learning more about myself, but I didn't feel bad. I was past the point of no return and completely irredeemable. I was a wife, with her wedding ring still on, that was uncontrollably wet almost all the time, especially in the mornings. I masturbated regularly, using toys or not. I looked at porn. I almost considered going for a hook-up with a complete stranger, but I didn't want to take any chances with the sexual diseases that were out there, if I could help it.
Fortunately, Jimmy gave me the amazing sex that I needed, with each frequent visit that he or I made at our respective homes. At this point, he rarely needed to tell me how to do things better now. I made sure that I always did my best. Gradually, he'd stay over for the night on most nights. He'd make breakfast for me in the mornings or he'd take me out for dinners. We had great conversations and had numerous shared interests: he loved cooking and I loved baking, so it wasn't uncommon for us to be in the kitchen together; and we loved to exercise together, as he'd have me do a little bit of lifting, while I made him do a little bit of running. It seemed like we were a couple.
Although he had mentioned in his first email that his background was in construction, he said he was sorry for deceiving me on what his career was, which wasn't in the construction industry, though that was his hobby, rather than marriage counselling! Regardless, I didn't fault him completely. For all the lies that he told me in the past, I forgave him because of the attention and care that he gave to me now, despite him being some ten years younger than I was. Besides, I could understand the difficulty in telling strangers, especially women, that your line of work was in the seedy business of pornography! I
Yet, after I was formally introduced to his studio, the relationship felt like it was forbidden or taboo, in the same sense like an employer and employee one. We didn't act out our feelings with each other at work. In fact, I didn't even start out as a 'star', like he declared that I was. Instead, he had me employed as a fluffer, because Jimmy couldn't have a say over who was being casted, but he still wanted me to be familiarized to the industry in general, which could later convince his producers to cast me in! He assured me that I'd 'only need to do it for a week or two'.
I knew what the job involved. As part of the "makeup department" on sets, it was my primary duty to keep the men hard with my hands and mouth, in the background, so that they would be ready on camera for their gang-bang scenes! I was very confident that I could do the job, especially if it was only for a week or two. It'd be fun!
Actually, I'd end up doing that for two months! When I started, I was gradually adjusting to working with an overwhelming number of penises that innumerably varied in length, girth and appearance. At first, it was fun, as I had expected, but it was also very repetitious and very impersonal. Countless men came and went after using me. Occasionally, when time permitted, I was asked to masturbate in front of them, sometimes using vibrators and other toys. Other times, I helped distribute water and paper towels. There was no doubt that I learned a lot, but I frequently pushed for answers from Jimmy on when I was going to be doing something else, as he had promised. He kept telling me to keep up the good work, as I was being noticed.
Outside of work, our relationship remained strong. We had our date nights. He satisfied my urges all the time. He knew my situation, inside and out β no pun intended. I knew his too, the same. He was upfront about what he was doing. He told me ahead of time whenever he was going to have sex with other women. He didn't need to, considering I knew full well what I was getting into, in knowing him, but his policy was that communication was always better than not. I was surprisingly grateful that he was honest.
I had doubts about whether I wanted to be in front of so many cameras β and I told him that. It was intimidating and if I had a choice, I'd much prefer staying as a fluffer, even if it was paid less. But because I was good at it, the crew members and producers really talked me into going on camera instead, especially Jimmy, who urged me to try it once. If I didn't like, I could stop, no questions asked, so, considering all the assurances from everyone, I decided to try it, but if I were to do this, I'd want a different name to be used on camera, so I went with Winnie, my much lesser-known middle name. For the paper work relating to employment, Jimmy offered to do them for me, but I'd still have a look first.
In my debut, in which Jimmy actually directed, I was with one Caucasian man only. In the presence of so many cameras and extreme lighting on me, I had to look comfortable. It helped that I was licked and fingered beforehand by some of the male fluffers. It was finally my turn to reap those benefits! I thought that I was more than prepared for anything that he'd want out of me, except I realized early on that I was only half prepared.
I was at the center of attention, in the sense that the physical and verbal abuse in the scene was directed onto me now, instead of onto others, like I had witnessed in their films. For instance, he crudely called me a 'useless whore' and proceeded to fuck my face and throat. I survived it with very minimal gagging. He continued his abuse by skull-fucking me when I had my head hanging from the armrest of the couch. As a result, there was a lot of drool and my make-up was messed up. Then he finger-fucked me, in which some water was put into me beforehand so that it would look like I was squirting! He laughed at that and said I'd get his cock soon. He slapped my tits with his backhand and made me call him 'master'.
Despite all of that, whenever he terrorized my pussy or anus, I actually begged for more, mostly without faking it! He roughly took me in all sorts of positions, from being held upright in his arms to being fucked upside down, and more! I really did orgasm a couple of times in the scene, but not everything that we did was entirely that pleasurable though - that's when I had to do some acting. Nevertheless, I always showed my gratefulness when he wanted me to suck his premium hardness with my hot, wet mouth. It gave me the necessary breaks. And for the final scene, he kept my face buried into the couch as he fucked my pussy doggy-style until he unloaded into me! I loved the entire feeling, particularly being 'forced' to accept his deposits. The cameras humiliatingly captured the cream-pie and the hot cum that was oozing out, in which he'd scoop the latter back inside! Then, finally, my loose holes were, put up for display. It wasn't that I genuinely wanted to be abused, but it was really fun to act out in what I felt was a controlled environment. Thus, the film was completed without too many re-shoots.
After I came home, I was very sore everywhere. My skin was burning from the slaps and there were some bruises too. Still, I was somehow satisfied sexually. Some of the positions in which I was fucked, particularly the one being carried upright, was forever going to be engraved in my memory. It was wild and exhilarating to be embraced by a man so bulky.
Jimmy made a visit to check up on me. As he told me how well my shoot went, I gave him head, as well as let him fuck my tits, as per normal. I thought it was going to end there because I had no expectation of doing anything more with him, until he told me that he wanted more, despite acknowledging that I must have been sore! I was definitely sore, but I wasn't going to turn him down for anything. As a result, he rewarded me by using his mouth and tongue! He really brought me into the mood.