The Usual Disclaimer: This is a work of fantasy. All characters featured in sexual situations are over 18. The characters in these stories are fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons living, dead or undead is purely coincidental. Do not try this at home.
When I first started jotting down my thoughts for this story, I was concerned that it might be too similar to another story I had read on Literotica some time ago. I did a search for "quit smoking" and then gaped at all the results. I read nine or ten of them, and briefly browsed a dozen more before I stopped. This story idea had been "done to death" and nobody would want to read another one, I thought.
Then...dammit, I sat down and got caught up in telling it anyway. I just hope I haven't been ripping off someone else's story idea that I read years ago. Next thing you know, I'll be writing a story about some mom sitting in her son's lap for a long drive to college... Not really, but I hope none of you are upset that this story lacks originality.
Thanks again to my good friends I've met through this site, who took the time to read over my story and helped me make it better. You guys are just the best.
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One of my favorite movies of all time is
Office Space.
It isn't just me, either. So many people I have talked to over the years absolutely love that movie, love reciting lines from it, and more than a few have shaken their heads and said something like, "Jesus. Sometimes I feel like that's my life, man."
I can still recall the first time I watched it. It had been out on video for years at that point, and a bunch of my friends in high school raved about it. "Oh, man! You
have
to watch that movie!"
I busted up immediately and often as I watched it, but the scene that really stood out to me—that made the whole thing
work
in my mind—was that scene with the hypnotist early on. For those of you who haven't seen the movie, you really should. But the main character was in a hypnosis session where the hypnotist told him to let go of all his cares and concerns, and then the hypnotist had a heart attack and keeled over before he could bring the main character out of that relaxed, not-giving-a-shit frame of mind.
To this day, I wonder if it could really work that way. I assumed for the longest time that it didn't work like that, and that I couldn't be hypnotized unless I wanted to be. The way it was depicted in movies made me skeptical in the extreme. However, I learned the hard way that an unscrupulous hypnotist could really mess up someone's life.
* * *
My sister started smoking when she was a freshman in high school. Our parents didn't know, but they both smoked about two packs a day. They didn't notice—and neither did I—when my sister started sneaking a couple of their cigarettes a day. By the time she graduated high school, she was buying her own cigarettes. She was eighteen, so it wasn't a big deal. A few years later, she decided she wanted to quit. That was about the time I turned eighteen. Gwynne was in college, working on her master's degree in psychology.
For the next year, she tried again and again to quit smoking. It really bothered her that she couldn't seem to give them up. She tried using nicotine gum, then the patch, and she even joined a 12-step program. Each time, she would manage to get a couple weeks along and then she would relapse and start smoking again. Part of her concern was that she was planning to be a therapist for people with addictions, and she could not shake her own addiction to nicotine.
This was all stuff she would tell me later. While she was going through it, I was already living on my own and had my own life. I'd never taken up smoking. The smell had always bothered me, and it was nice just to live in a place where I didn't have to deal with that constant, pervasive odor. It was definitely a factor in my relationship with my parents. After I had moved out, I didn't visit with them nearly as often as I might have otherwise.
I took a few college classes after high school, but I started working that first semester. I was really fortunate. That part-time job led to a full-time position, and I earned a promotion almost immediately. A second promotion followed just a few months later, and I was making really good money. I had my own apartment, which was across town from where my sister lived. I'd been there for almost a year when Gwynne asked if she could move in with me.
At first, my answer was, "I'm sorry, Gwynne, but no. I don't want my place smelling like cigarettes."
"That's just it, Mitch," she groaned. "Both my roommates smoke. It's impossible for me to quit when one of them is lighting up around me all the time. With you for a roommate, at least I'd have a chance!"
I thought it was a bad idea, but eventually I relented. To be honest, it wasn't just her smoking that I was worried about. There were three different women I had been hooking up with for sex, and I figured having my sister living with me would make that impossible. But then two of those women moved away and the third got engaged and told me she couldn't see me anymore. That all happened within a week of my sister's frustrated plea, and I had already felt bad about turning her down.
She had sounded desperate when we had talked, and it made me feel like a heartless bastard the way I had brusquely told her "no." I kept thinking of all the times she had been there for me when we were growing up. When she really needed my help, what had I done? Instead of being helpful or supportive, I had basically told her I didn't want her stinky cigarettes in my apartment. It sounded bad when I thought of it in those terms.
So I sighed and called my sister. I was very straightforward about her smoking, though.
"Gwynne, if you live with me you absolutely cannot smoke here. I love you to death, but I will kick your ass out of my apartment if I ever come home and the place reeks of cigarettes. Got it?"
"Oh, Mitch, I promise that will never happen!" she gushed. "Thank you so much!"
I doubt I would have actually kicked her out. I had said it just to be clear I was serious, and I thought it would make it easier for her to quit if she thought of the apartment as a place where she simply could not smoke.
* * *
Three and a half weeks after that phone call I helped her move her things into my apartment. It was a two-bedroom apartment, and I had intended to either set up the second bedroom as a sort of home office or a guest bedroom. I hadn't gotten around to doing either of those things, so it wasn't a problem to quickly vacuum the carpet and empty the handful of boxes I had stored in that closet. A week or so earlier I had moved the little computer desk and chair into my bedroom.
We took all of her clothes and her bed linens down to the laundromat in our complex and washed all of it so that there wouldn't be any residual smell of cigarettes. I helped her fold her laundry and make her bed, and we had a really nice time just hanging out and talking while we did it. I always liked Gwynne, and it was fun having her around again.
After we got everything put away in her new bedroom, Gwynne gave me a weak smile and lifted the sleeve of her blouse to show me the nicotine patch on her shoulder.
"This should do it, now," she said.
It was tough for me to watch her over the next few days. She was obviously struggling and anxious. Gwynne chewed her nails relentlessly whenever we watched television together, and she often popped up from the couch to pace around nervously for several minutes before she realized why she was so uncomfortable. Each time, she would sigh loudly and then plop down next to me on the couch with an apology.
I would just wrap an arm around her back and give her a reassuring squeeze and a smile.
"It's okay, Gwynne," I assured her. "You can do this."
Two days later, she looked crestfallen when I walked into the apartment after work. My apartment didn't reek of cigarettes, but I could smell it on her.
"I broke down and had a cigarette in my car," she admitted. "Please don't kick me out!"
I chewed my lip and nodded. Because I really didn't know what she was going through, I had looked online for some helpful information. I understood that most smokers who eventually quit went through this. They would relapse and it normally took several tries before they could finally give up the habit entirely. I knew she probably felt despair in that moment, and I wanted to be supportive.
"Come here," I said softly, spreading my arms.
She got up from the couch uncertainly, but approached and let me hug her. When she was in my arms, I held her to me tightly and ran my right hand up and down her back. She sighed into my chest and then wrapped her arms around my lower back, returning the hug.
"I love you, Gwynne," I murmured into her hair. "I always will, no matter what. I understand it's really tough for you, but I know you can do this if you keep trying."
She trembled and let out a little sob, and I just held her tighter. We stood there holding each other for another minute or so, and she sobbed quietly two or three more times. It was one of those times where I felt like I shared her frustration. I was helpless to really do anything, and I wanted desperately to help her. All I could do was hold her, and it felt like it wasn't enough. She seemed better after we released each other, but she frowned.
"Mitch, I'm sorry," she mumbled. "I really need a cigarette right now."
I nodded and thought for a moment. Since our parents had smoked, I could recall what it was like. There had always been ashtrays scattered throughout the house, and our parents would leave packs of cigarettes lying next to several of them. That wouldn't do in our current living situation, but I happened to glance past her and my eyes lit on the plastic lawn chair sitting on the balcony.