I'm a writer; I always have been. The minute I learned how to write, I was telling stories of unicorns and knights rescuing princesses. They were terrible - I mean, I was five! But as I grew up and kept writing, my stories grew and flourished until I was really good at it. When I discovered that fanfiction was a thing that people read online, I started writing my favorite book and movie characters in new situations. I became extremely popular, with thousands of followers waiting every week for my newest story. Being wanted, being loved, by people you don't even know? It's an amazing feeling.
But right now, as I procrastinate my college homework by staring at my laptop screen, I am well and truly stuck. This? This is a horrible feeling. This sucks. I know exactly what I need to write, but I can't get the words out. The longer I sit here, the more frustrated I get. Finally, I close my laptop and hop off my bed. Maybe a break will help me.
I head downstairs and grab a bottle of tea out of the fridge. I hop onto the couch in the living room and turn on the TV. Watching chefs sabotage each other is always fun, and I quickly lose myself in the ridiculousness of the show. Time flies by; I watch episode after episode with no idea that I'm burning daylight. It's so easy to just get lost in something you're really invested in. It happens to me all the time when I'm writing.
"Hey, Jennie." I jump as the front door closes beside me. My dad just got home from work. He's a factory man, so he gets home around 2:30, hours before my 9-to-5 mom. I'm usually in one of my long classes or hanging out with friends when he gets home, so this is definitely out of the norm for me.
"Oh, hey! Sorry, I lost track of time." I reach for the remote to change it to his preferred TV station.
"No, leave it on this channel. I have to shower and change. It's a hot one today." He disappears into the master bedroom for a while. When he comes back out, he's wearing shorts and a T-shirt, a far cry from the jumpsuit and boots he wears to work. It's nice to see him so relaxed for once. He drops onto the couch beside me and drapes his arm over the back of the couch. "So, why are you out here?"
"I have writer's block, so I'm taking a break." I smile and pull my bare legs closer to my body. I'm wearing really short jeans shorts and a crop top because today was a real scorcher. I feel a little awkward being so undressed in front of him. I tug my shirt down a little bit to make sure that my bare breasts are hidden. How embarrassing would it be if he saw my naked titties?
"Oh? Maybe I can help. Sometimes you gotta talk it out." He shifts so he's facing me. "What's your story about?"
My face burns with embarrassment. "It's...uh...well, you know it's Marty and my one-year anniversary next week."
"Yeah, I remember. I'm sorry you can't go to the convention with him this year."
I shrug. I'm not resentful. My convention ticket money went to fixing my car after an accident last month, and my parents can't afford to send me themselves. It's a shitty situation, but it's nobody's fault. "I'm not worried about it. Yeah, it sucks, but I'll survive."
"What does that have to do with your writer's block?"
"We...we're writing stories for each other as gifts."
"That's sweet." He smiles encouragingly. "What's yours about?"
"It's...um...it's a dirty story."
"You're writing porn, huh?" He chuckles. "Well, just write what you know. Simple."
My face is redder than a firetruck. "I...I don't know anything about it. I've never...you know..."
Dad stares at me in surprise, his eyebrows shooting up into his shaved forehead. "You've never had sex before? Really?"
"Really, really." I shrug, trying to play it off as no big deal. Lots of girls wait to find the right guy before they give it up, right?
"Wow. That's...surprising."
"Why?"
I glance at him and notice him shifting his weight. "I... you're a very attractive girl, Jennie. I'm surprised you haven't had any takers, that's all."
"I haven't offered. I'm waiting to find the right guy."
"And you think that Marty is the right guy?"
"Maybe. I mean, we've been together for over a year, and the most we've done is send nudes. We haven't done anything else."
"Huh." His eyes roam my body for a moment before flicking back to the TV. "So, you're not sure what to write because you've never done it."
"Yup."
"Why not watch some porn and describe what you see?"
"Porn is so fake." I haven't watched porn in years for that very reason. The buxom blondes with fake boobs bigger than their heads, the dicks so long that I could pole dance on one... it's ridiculous. "I read stories. They're more realistic. That makes them so much hotter."
"So why not copy what you've read? I'm sure he won't notice if you send him your favorite story and change the names."
"Because, for one, it wouldn't mean anything. It would be like me stealing your power tools and giving them back to you for Christmas. Besides, I've already shown him my favorite stories. He'll recognize them immediately. I have to write something real, something from the heart."
"That's a tough one." He drums his fingers on the back of the couch, resting his other hand in his lap. "How about you combine the best elements of your favorite stories? Take a little from one, a little from another...rewrite it to make it yours."
"That was the plan, but I'm so hung up on if it's realistic or not that I'm scared to write anything."
"Tell you what." Dad turns to face me again. "You go upstairs. Write down what you think is the sexiest thing that could happen between you two. When you're done, bring it downstairs and I'll read it for you, tell you what needs changed."
"You'd do that for me?"
He shrugs nonchalantly. "Of course. You're my daughter. It's my job to help you, right?"
I leap to my feet, beaming. "You're the best, Dad! Thank you so much!" I plant a kiss on his cheek before bouncing up the stairs. Already my mind is racing with the sexiest things I can think of. I snatch my laptop and begin writing as fast as I can, trying to milk this surge of inspiration for all its worth before it shrivels up and dies. I'm up there for over an hour, typing faster than I've ever typed in my life. Turns out writing sex is a lot of fun! And it's really turning me on - I squirm every so often as my panties start to get wet and the folds between my legs starts begging for attention. I should stop and masturbate, but I can't. If I'm not horny when I write this, it won't come out as sexy as I want it.
I finally finish the story and hit print. While I'm waiting for the old printer to warm up enough to print my ten page story, I debate whether I should masturbate or not. I don't want to be all hot and bothered when Dad reads my story. But Mom will be coming home soon, and I REALLY don't want her to know that I let my father read my sex story. I decide to push my desires aside for the moment; I've been horny at school before, so I have plenty of practice there.
I skip down the stairs with the warm sheets of freshly printed paper and sit down next to my dad. He mutes the TV, takes the story from my hand, and starts to read it. I turn on subtitles so I can still watch while he reads, but I can't focus on what's happening. My hands are shaking in my lap, and my foot is bouncing uncontrollably. Not only has Dad never read my writing before, but this is also my first time writing a sex scene. I'm incredibly nervous right now.
"All right," he finally says, gesturing that I should get a little closer. "It's not bad, but I definitely saw a few things that need changing."