Laying in my bed in my loft near Place Pigalle, I listened to the sharps and flats of the car horns echoing from the street below. I stared at the ceiling unable to sleep, my nerves frazzled and my body wired from the events of past eight hours. I had taken the red eye from New York to Paris. It was past midnight but I was still wound like a clock. Partly it was the jet lag, and partly it was what happened on the flight.
On the plane, I had found myself sitting, quite by chance, next to one of the most attractive and charming men I have ever met. Derek, a photographer and writer, had managed to not only get into my head, he got under my skin. I couldn't stop thinking about him. And fantasizing about him.
It wasn't just his physical beauty, and he was tres beau. He had a way of talking to me, of being with me, that made me open up to him. I told him things I had never told anyone. Private things. About my past. Things I've done that I never speak of. And that I'll never forget.
There was something about his big, brown eyes, the way they looked at me, so deeply, without judgment. He was inquisitive, but not prying. Caring but not cloying. Strong and sensitive at the same time. We lay side by side, face to face, as if we were sharing my bed. Just talking, telling our stories. Our secrets.
I found myself telling him all about growing up in Paris with my family. How my mother and brother and I would spend our summers at our beach house. I don't know why, but I found myself telling him about how we'd go naked all the time. It was de rigueur, customary, to be without clothes in that place. My mother was a great beauty, she was a fashion model after all, and so she was not shy in the slightest. She liked being admired. My brother was, is, tres beau and to see him, his body, in that beautiful place had a great impact on me. I can say it changed my life.
I was a girl, a young woman really, whose body had just, how do you say it, blossomed. My shape had become womanly. My breasts were full and ripe, sitting high with little pink nipples that pointed upward. My mother had told me that men would love my body and that my ass was "parfait". She taught me how to walk so my ass would move sensuously, to show it off. I would take long walks on the beach, une plage naturiste, a nudist beach I think you call it, and the men would all stare at me. I would arch my back, with my breasts in the air and moving my ass just so. I would watch them, one by one, get hard for me.
But it was my brother that I wanted to notice me. He was so handsome, with beautiful brown eyes and dark curly hair. He had the hottest body too, with broad shoulders and a perfect ass. But it was his cock that I was obsessed with. I used to stare at it from behind my sunglasses so he wouldn't catch me. He would lay in the sand and I would imagine being with him. Touching him. Loving him.
I don't know why I told Derek all of this. I've never breathed a word of it to anyone. Perhaps because Derek looked a lot like my brother, with his swept back curly hair and his bedroom eyes. Maybe it was because I could see the effect my story had on him. How his breath became more rapid his cock growing hard in his pants. Maybe that's why I kept telling him my secret.
Now, as I lay in my bed, unable to sleep, I found myself thinking back on those days as a girl. With my brother. I thought about how the two of us would spy on our mother, peeking through her bedroom window, watching her put on a strip tease for some man. I remember one such man, a young man my brother's age. He was laying naked on the bed, watching her. She was dancing for him, seducing him. I remember staring at his cock, growing long and hard. Just like the men watching me on the beach. It was so exciting to watch. My pussy was dripping.
Reliving these moments in my mind, while I touched myself, was spellbinding. I felt like I was in a dream, a swirling, erotic fever dream. I was in a perpetual state of arousal.
I looked over at my phone. It was 2am. I thought about calling Derek. But at this hour that was folly. I decided to text him.
"r u awake" is all I could muster. I went back to touching myself.
A few moments later, the phone dinged. It was a reply from Derek.
"Yeah. Can't sleep. You?"
"Je suis enervΓ©," I texted. "Totally wired"
"Me too," he answered.
There was a delay. I bit my lip. Waiting.
"Call me?" he texted.
"Oui," I texted, and then tapped his number.
A moment later, I heard his voice, his dark brown voice, on the phone.
"How are you?" he asked.
"Wound up," I answered.
"Me too," he murmured. "I think it was our...conversation on the plane. I keep thinking about it.",
I gave a quick intake of breath.
"Oui, d'accord."
"That was an incredible story you told me," he went on. "About you and your brother."
"I've been thinking about it too," I said. "I've never told anyone..."
"I know," he replied. "I'm grateful you trusted me enough to tell me."
There was silence.
"Do you want to talk it?" he went on. "Would that help?"
"Je pense que oui," I heard myself replying. "Perhaps it would."
"Why don't you start at the beginning?" he suggested.
And so I told him about living in Paris with my mother and brother, how it was often a clothing optional house. My mother was such an exhibitionist, she would often surprise my brother and I by flouncing into the room au naturel. After a while, it became normal for us too. I remember times when the three of us would be naked, lounging in the living room. I would sit on the couch reading a book, while my brother played video games next to me. I would pretend to be engrossed in my book but in fact I was stealing glances at his body. At his cock. His beautiful cock. If he only knew how my heart was thumping in my chest!
"Was this before the time at the beach?" Derek asked. "When he was watching you in the dunes?"
"Oh yes," I replied. "I didn't have the nerve to act on my feelings. It was taboo."
"So he initiated it?" Derek asked.
"There was just so much sex in the air," I replied. "My mother and her friends. The parties. I was filled with such feelings. Like tonight."
"You were 'hot and bothered', Derek said with a chuckle.
"Quite," I replied. "As was he. It was a lot of stimulus for a young person."