It was a cold night, and I was shivering in my bed. I couldn't sleep as I was too excited for tomorrow when my uncle, aunt, and their daughter would be coming to our place. We used to live in a joint family in one big house, but my uncle had to move to Kolkata on account of his work with his family.
My cousin Arnika was 18+ at that time. I still remember how when we were kids, we would kiss each other. It wasn't one of those hot or raunchy things because we didn't really know what we were doing. We just did it because we saw it in English movies. During those days, I felt a little weird because I didn't understand what was so good about doing it. It was so long ago, and we seldom met after my uncle relocated.
We would try to steal a kiss whenever we got a chance, more because we wanted to continue our secret tradition and less because we felt anything about it for each other. It had been a while since we met and all this happened so long ago that now it was just a faint memory.
But today, lying awake in my bed I didn't know why those memories had come flooding back. It wasn't like I was in love or anything! Or was it? My right hand instinctively reached inside my underwear and took hold of my shriveled-from-cold dick.
From my left hand, I reached out and picked up my phone, unlocked it, and opened the photos of my cousin. She was very petite and had a pretty face. She was just the right amount of curvy. As I recalled all those memories of us lip-locking while watching her photos, my dick started to grow in my hand as I slowly and gently stroked it.
I was imagining it was my cousin's hand that was on my dick, while my tongue was exploring her mouth. Then I moved my hand a little faster while my eyes were glued to that petite figure and juicy boobs of my cousin in her photo. I was now moving it faster, my foreskin was sliding rapidly from the tip of my penis to the base of the head.
I could feel the buildup while imagining my dick sliding within the wet walls of my cousin's tight pussy. My fingers were parting her pussy lips. Then I released a good amount of sperm within the sheet and in a few minutes, I drifted off to sleep.
The next day my uncle arrived in the morning with my aunt and my cousin. I was feeling a little guilty about last night for thinking about my cousin in that way. Anyway, I picked up their luggage and welcomed them inside while avoiding looking at my cousin. I just said a simple and cold "hello" to my cousin and she nodded.
After talking about how their journey was and laughing reminiscing, it was time for breakfast. We had some hot samosas and jalebi with curd for breakfast and we decided to go out shopping later in the day. The topic moved on to my studies in 3rd year of engineering and my future career prospects and all the thoughts about previous nights vanished from my mind. My cousin would be giving JEE at the end of this year.
"Bhaiya, when does the placement start in your college?", she asked with a smile.
"It will be starting pretty soon. There are a few companies that pick students for internships in their 3rd year. If their work is satisfactory and they show a good affinity for learning, then the same companies pick them in their final year and offer them the suitable package."
"So how much package is offered on average?"
I could see she was really curious about what was awaiting her in the later years in terms of her career after she would enter college. Honestly, I too had been wondering about placements lately.
"Well, I am not in some IIT or NIT, but in a normal private college. So I wouldn't expect anything more than 3-4 LPA at the start. But the average package goes to about 7 LPA and above."
"Oh, don't worry, I think you will surely get a good package. It is perfectly all right for us average students." She winked at me and I laughed at her attempt at humor. I knew her parents must be pressuring her to get into IITs or NITs and she must be quite nervous for the entrance exams.
In the late afternoon, all of us went to the market which had a combination of showrooms, mini-malls, and normal shops and restaurants. After shopping and buying a few things, we decided to go to the nearby multiplex and watch a movie together for a perfect evening. It was a little crowded on the street and Arnika didn't know where the multiplex was. So, without thinking anything, I took hold of her hand and we followed my parents and uncle and aunt.
It wasn't until halfway to the multiplex that I became aware that I was holding my cousin's hand and the thoughts of my previous night came flooding back in my mind. Oh! The things I wanted her hands to do last night!
We were near the multiplex and it wasn't nearly as crowded. With the previous night's guilt, I let go of my cousin's hand. It wasn't until a few steps ahead that my cousin was beside me holding my hand. I looked at her. She was looking toward the poster of the movie and smiling. Still feeling guilty, I brushed the thoughts of her having any similar thoughts aside. It most probably was innocent, I was after all her cousin brother.
We bought the tickets and waited outside the entry door with other people for the gates to open. I was standing back leaning on the wall, Arnika was standing beside me and everyone else was seated on a sofa kept there. I didn't want those thoughts to resurface in my mind and create a misunderstanding. It was a tussle between my desire and lust and morality.