My Daddy is like the janitor at this kinda real snooty private high school, you know, so they let me go there for free. I started in the ninth grade and now Iâm a senior. For sure, I wouldnât be going here if it was just up to me, with all those bitchy rich girls who think they are just so all that and stuff. But Daddy says itâs important that I get me a real good âeddy-kay-shunâ as he says. He doesnât want me to turn out like my Mom who ran off with this truck driver guy when I was about eleven. But the girls here are always so mean to me. Like theyâre always calling me trailer park trash and making fun of me and Daddy cause heâs the janitor and has to cleanup after them. He says they are all little pigs!
But I donât think thatâs the real reason they hate me. They didnât hate me so much before last summer, cause I was always like kinda skinny and stuff. I mean I think I was pretty and everything, but I didnât have any kind of figure at all. Boys didnât pay much attention to me. My legs, which are pretty long, kinda like Brittanyâs, were probably my best feature, and my hair, which is real curly and naturally blonde, is pretty good, too. But I was pretty blah otherwise, especially in boobs and ass department. You know, the stuff guys really like. Flat as a board, that was me. I mean I just barely even filled up a A cup.
But the summer between junior and senior year, everything changed. I just all of a sudden started to develop. I mean talk about a real late bloomer. (I didnât even get my first period till I was almost seventeen!) First my boobs started growing. I mean ohmygawd they would get bigger every day. They were always so tender and it just hurt so much even to touch them. But Gawd, I loved having them. Finally! When it was time to go back to school, I was already like just completely spilling out of a C cup, you know, and my butt had got real round so it really did kinda look like J Loâs. I got so I just loved to look at myself in the mirror. Finally, I had a body.
Thing was, Daddy couldnât afford to buy new clothes for me, so I had to wear last yearâs, which were way, way tight on me, but, Gawd, they sure did show off what I had. I kinda liked that, I gotta admit. My skirts and pants just made my ass look like so fabulous, you know, and tell the truth, I could hardly get my tops buttoned. And sweaters, ohmygawd! I started getting way lots of stares from all those snooty girlsâ boyfriends ⊠and lots of teachers, too! I didnât mind all the stares, especially the ones I got from the popular girlsâ boyfriends. Iâd smile at them, and I loved it when they all started to come on to me. I wouldnât ever do anything, but it was fun to kinda just to flirt and stuff. So I think thatâs why they hate me.
I guess I did maybe kinda flirt with the teachers a little bit. Maybe some of them even started telling stories about me, and I just know some of the girls started saying I was easy and that all the teachers were doing me and stuff. It wasnât true, not a bit of it. They were just jealous. Believe it or not, I was still a virgin. But I think lots of people believed I was kinda like a slut, you know, I guess even some of the teachers did.
Like one time, Mr. Barnes, heâs my English teacher, kept me after class and just all of a sudden started feeling me up right there in the classroom and saying that heâd like to fuck me. Ohmygawd, I was so surprised. I just ran right out of there, but the weird thing is, I kept thinking about the way he touched me and stuff and how he got all turned on and it kinda made me all tingly inside. I should of told on him, I know, but maybe I kinda liked the stuff he said to me? I dunno. It did make me feel all special and stuff. And I guess I kinda liked having an older man get all turned on. I even started to like it when he would walk by my desk when we were taking spelling tests and I could see him trying to look down my blouse. One time when I had this kinda skimpy like bra on, I even unbuttoned two buttons on my blouse and leaned way forward so he could see better. Isnât that just awful? I could see he started to get kinda hard like down there and had to walk away. I thought that was just so awesome. I hope Iâm not going to turn out like my Mom. Sheâs a whore, Daddy says.
But I guess people really were starting to say bad stuff about me, cause one day, about a month after school had started, Daddy got this letter from the headmaster saying that they were going to have to dismiss me from the school. I guess I wasnât really too, too surprised. Iâm not very smart and I donât even really like school. I was flunking a lot of subjects, specially math. But I was really surprised when I read down at the bottom that like that wasn't even the reason? They were dismissing me for âmoral reasonsâ! Thatâs what the headmaster wrote. I mean, ohmygawd, like I couldnât believe it! The headmaster was the one that was always coming on to me the most, like putting his arm around me and âaccidentallyâ touching my boobs and stuff like that!
Well, when I read the letter to Daddy (he doesnât read too well), he got all upset and he called the headmaster right up and told him he just couldnât do this, and Mr. Wheeler, heâs the headmaster, told Daddy that they probably wouldnât need his services anymore either. Oh man, I could see Daddy got way, way upset about that. He has this kinda drinking problem, you know, and this is the first job he has ever been able to keep. They must a just kinda ignore it for some reason, cause I know heâs drunk lots of times at school. Those snooty bitches tell stories about that, too!
Anyway, Daddy is almost crying on the phone, saying how he needs this job and stuff and I mean like begging Mr. Wheeler. He said heâd be willing to do anything to keep his job. It was kinda embarrassing really. I felt so, so sorry for him. Itâs not his fault heâs an alcoholic. He says itâs Momâs fault that he drinks. I guess maybe it is. She was pretty much a whore even before she ran off, Daddy says.
Good thing is, Mr. Wheeler ended up telling Daddy that the two of us could come by to his office that evening and weâd âdiscuss the matter.â He said maybe thereâd be something he could do.
Now I can see that Daddy is just like so worried and stuff. Besides his drinking problem, he doesnât have much schooling, so this job is really important to him. I can tell heâs real, real scared. He gets all mad and asks me what Iâve been doing there at school and I tell him that I hadnât done nothing really. When I tell Daddy about some of the stuff the headmaster said to me and how he touched me and stuff (I kinda made some of it up, but I was pretty mad too, you know), well, Daddy got this really, really weird look in his eyes.
âYou sayinâ he kinda likes you, Honey, you know, that way?â he asks me.
âYeah, I think he does. Heâs always sayinâ how pretty I am and how Iâve grown into a beautiful woman, stuff like that.â
âHe calls you a growed up woman, eh. And he touches you and stuff? Do you let him?â Daddy asks me.
âI donât let him, but yeah, heâs always kinda like patting me on the butt or rubbing my back and sometimes even, you know, kinda touching my boobs a little bit.â
âWell, Iâll be damned,â Daddy said, kinda pacing around the room. âListen, Honey, I been a thinkinâ. I want yâall to wear somethinâ what makes you look real, real purty when we go see Mr. Wheeler,â Daddy suddenly says.
Iâm like kinda surprised, but I say okay and go put on this real cute sundress and sandals that I got that summer, and when I come out and ask him how I look he just shakes his head and tells me that he means âgrowed upâ pretty. He says I should go look at some of the stuff my Mom left behind. I thought that was kinda weird, I gotta admit, but I thought it might be kinda fun and exciting, too.
So I walked back to where Daddy keeps all Momâs old stuff and started going though it. Some of it was really outrageous, you know the kinda things like you see in Frederickâs catalogues and stuff? I didnât think he wanted me to wear that kinda stuff, but since almost all of Momâs things were sexy like that, maybe he did. Tell the truth, I was getting all excited about trying some of it on. I had never ever thought about wearing clothes that looked all sexy like that, but now, you know, I really, really wanted to. Weird, I know.
I tried on everything and every time Iâd look in the mirror Iâd get this great shock. I mean was that me? I mean, wow! Like I really did look like a grown woman! A way sexy grown woman, I kinda thought! Not at all like a barely eighteen-year-old high school girl. It was like I was turning into my Mom. I finally picked this really tight red leather micro-micro mini and this tiny little backless white silk camisole. I couldnât wear a bra with it, which kinda worried me, but ohmygawd it just showed off my boobs so, so perfectly, you know, the way silk just clings to you and stuff. I found a pair of five-inch ankle strap pumps that made my legs look so long and sexy. It was pretty hard to walk in them, but Gawd, I loved the way they made my boobs bounce up and down when I walked. That looked just so, so sexy! I just adored the way the shoes made my ass look all tight and jutting out. It looked so inviting. Like I said, it was kinda hard to walk in those shoes, but ohmygawd, the whole âpackage,â as guys say, looked so, so sexy, kinda like a Hollywood actress! And I felt sexy, too!
I was a little nervous about walking out and showing Daddy. I was pretty sure heâd be mad and everything. I mean, this was pretty outrageous. At first I thought he was mad cause he just sorta stared and stared, and I thought he was going to get like way mad at me and tell me to go change. I started to turn so red I was so embarrassed. Well, Daddy just walked right over to me and kissed me and said, âNow thatâs more like it. Damn, girl, you look hot!â
Ohmygawd, it was just the perfect thing for him to say. I felt so relieved and all of a sudden like way, way confident. I wasnât at all embarrassed now. I love to please Daddy. But I still didnât know why he wanted me to dress up like this for Mr. Wheeler. All I could think of was that he thought if Mr. Wheeler saw how pretty and grown up I looked he would think I would be a credit to the school. He was always talking about people being a âcredit to the school.â
When we got to the school, it was just getting dark and I could see there wasnât anyone else around. That made me feel good and bad. I guess I was still a tiny little bit embarrassed about the way I was dressed, but at the same time, I knew I looked so, so hot that I was kinda disappointed that no one else would see me. Especially those snooty rich bitchesâŠor even more specially, their boyfriends. Oh, I would really like that!
Anyway, Daddy took me down to the headmasterâs office, and when we got there, I was surprised to see the headmaster and the assistant headmaster, Mr. Washington, who is also the football coach. He is this huge black man that everybody says is just so, so mean. I got kinda scared right then. Daddy and me donât like black people. He calls âem âniggers.â (I âm always careful to say ânigra,â cause I know they donât really like the N word.)
Well anyway, Daddy marched me right in there, and as soon as we came in the door, I saw both Mr. Wheeler and Mr. Washington just stare. Mr. Wheeler is kinda nice looking for a older guy, I guess, but Mr. Washington is really kinda ugly and scary looking cause he is so big and so black I guess he used to be some kinda professional football player or something, but heâs kinda fat really. He has these big lips and squinty eyes. He was the first to walk over to me. âGoddamn!â was all he said, and I think he meant it as a compliment. At least I thought he did. Itâs weird, but it made me feel a lot more comfortable, even if he is this scary black man. I just wished he wouldnât be standing so close to me. He kinda had this bad smell, you know, like all sweaty smelling and stuff.
Daddy got right to it. He walked right over to Mr. Wheeler and said, âI cainât let you throw my daughter out of this here school, Mr. Wheeler. Sheâs a good girl and I talked to her and she says she be willin' to do anything if yâall will let me keep my job and let her stay in this here school till she graduate.â
I surely didnât remember saying I would do anything, but I was so proud of the way he just stood right up to Mr. Wheeler and plus I knew he was so scared about his job that I decided right then that I would do anything for him. He sacrificed a lot to take care of me after Mom ran away, and besides I was sure he wouldnât want me do anything too bad. I mean I was Daddyâs little girl.