The three of us were sitting at the table eating breakfast. Mom was just having coffee. I thought she looked hung-over, her eyes were red and swollen.
"Your father has moved out." Momma said.
I don't know why we were shocked; Momma had said they were having serious problems; daddy had been absent so much these past months, we hardly saw him. He moved like a ghost through our lives. We got reports from Momma; his job had taken him to Philly, Baltimore, Trenton, he won't be home for supper, breakfast, your birthday. But we were shocked and we pulled our chairs around on either side of Momma and put our arms around her and our heads on her shoulders and she managed to put her arms around us. I cried. Richard cried. But Momma never did.
"Fuck me, Richard, please. Fuck me."
I'd come up behind him and put my arms around him. He was sitting at his desk shirtless, writing one of his stories. My hands were pinching his nipples.
"Take your big hard cock and ram it deep into my cunt and fuck my brains out. Fuck my cunt Richard."
I had hardly ever used these words before, they were so forbidden. In the pantheon of profanity these words were nearly sacred. But I loved the hard 'K' sounds of 'COCK' and 'CUNT' and the big Kahuna, 'FUCK'. FUCK. You had to put your lower lip between your teeth and then spit the word out as if you were going to hit somebody with it.
And that's what these words did, they raced through the ear and slammed into the brain like a truck. Like a FUCK truck. These were words you couldn't ignore, they demanded a response.
"Sandy, are you alright?! What's gotten into you?!"
"You haven't!" I said. "You haven't gotten into me! Not yet, and that's what I want!"
"You're drunk aren't you?"
It was true. I don't drink. But with everything that was happening to us I felt I needed some kind of escape. I'd put some of Mom's Vodka in a glass of orange juice and gulped it down. Then I made another one and drank it too, totally unprepared for the effect it would have on me.
"I want your cock deep inside my pussy, I want you to split me wide open and fuck me till it hurts! I want you to come, shoot your come into me so hard it blows my brains out! Knock me up Richard, make me pregnant, I want your baby!"
"Sandy! We can't have a baby! You know that. You know the risks." he said
"I don't care! I don't care if it comes out purple with yellow polka dots! I don't care if it has cloven hooves and a tail! I need your baby!"
I was hysterical. Crying now.
"Please, Richard, please. Please. Please. Please."