"Penny, I'm not sure I can go on much longer," my younger sister Marina blurted out to me one day, taking me into her confidence at last. I'd suspected something was troubling her for a while, we are so close and share so much, despite the nine-year age gap between us.
"What is it, sweetie?" I asked her, "you can tell me anything you know that."
"It's...it's about me and Calum."
"Oh, he's not been... he's not been playing around, has he. I'll kill him if he has," and when I said that I meant it, I've always been protective of my little sister, and if her husband had hurt her in any way he would have me to answer to.
"No, it's not like that, at least I don't think so. It's just, it's just...no Penny I can't tell even you, it's a personal, embarrassing."
"Marina, you can tell me anything, I've never judged you in the past and never will, I love you too much to do that. Heck the things you know about me should tell you that."
After a big gulp of air Marina blurted out, "Sex; we're not having sex, Cals not made love to me or even tried to have sex for over a year now, he's not touched me at all, even if I try and start things he just turns me away. I can't stand much more. Penny, I'm getting desperate," she sobbed.
To say I was shocked would be an understatement as Marina and Calum have always been very tactile and physical, and the things Marina confided in me in the past made my hair stand on end, and I am quite liberal in a lot of ways. To me, it seemed that they had a full and energetic sex life together.
"Are you sure he's not playing away from home, got a bit on the side?"
"No, definitely. He doesn't really have the chance and I'd know if he was spending more money, you do know I do all the accounts for us both. He's not spending any more money. Penny, I've confronted him and he just says it's a thing he's going through, he still loves me, but at the moment not in a physical way.
"Penny, I love him, I don't want to lose him, I don't want to leave him, but I'm getting frustrated. I've not had sex for over a year now and toys, well they only go so far. I'm only twenty-eight. I need sex, and if I don't get some soon, then I think it may be over between us. I'm that desperate and worried"
"Are you definitely sure about Calum and to be fair to him I've never pegged him as one who'd play away, he's not you know, switching sides?"
"GOD NO," Marina shouted at me.
"OK, OK, just a thought, I mean after what you've just told me."
"Penny I need sex soon, but I don't want to cheat, and I don't want an affair."
"Why not, a quickie with a stranger, pick somebody up around Kings Cross, no strings attached, just for the sex, wham bam thank you, mam, get your rocks off, and to be fair Calum couldn't realistically complain, could he. If he can't or won't satisfy you then he can't object if you look elsewhere, hell you're still young and very pretty and dead sexy."
"No, I can't have sex like that, I'd feel dirty, like a slut, I can't cheat on my husband, a husband I love desperately, you know that."
"Do you want me to talk to him, find out what's wrong?"
"NO."
"How about professional help then?"
"What a therapist? Calum would never agree, you know what Aussie men are like, he'd think it's a question on his manhood, he'd never agree."
"No, not that, how about an escort? There are plenty of men that do that sort of thing for women, and the added bonus for them is that you are young and sexy, not some old biddy."
"God, no Penny, that would be too cold, I mean, I'd be thinking about who he'd been with before and going onto next. No, I could never think of doing that, I need some emotional attachment when I make love. You know I've never been one for casual sex, not like you."
"Marina, you're not talking about making love, you need sex, you said so yourself.
"It could be the only way to save your marriage and your sanity."
"No way Penny, I'll just have to find some other way, but it's helped just talking to you about it."
Hesitating, for a second, I then committed myself to something I'd wanted to do from the first second Marina had spoken to me, but had been too nervous to broach. Something that had been on my mind for years, but recently had become increasingly more and more in my thoughts, there was never a day now that went by without me thinking of it.
"There is another way, one other option, if you're willing to try something different, let go of your inhibitions and go a bit wild," I said softly.
"What?"
I just smiled at Marina my little sister and then said, "You know."
"What, you don't mean; you can't mean with another woman?"
"Why not, it wouldn't exactly be cheating, well at least not as if you'd been with another man. Hey if Cal found out it may turn him on, you know men and their girl on girl dreams."
"No, I could never go with another woman, urgh no, yuck!"
"Why not? Look girl on girl in some ways is the purest form of loving you can get. Women give more and you could keep things very tight that way."
"No Penny, I'm not gay, I've never thought about another woman, anyway where would I meet somebody?" I didn't say anything just kept looking at my frustrated and emotional sister, letting her come to her own conclusions.
"Hang on, you've done it haven't you?? Been with a woman?"
A sly smile spreads across my face, "Just a couple of times, a long time ago, with a friend just as an experiment." I lied to her, not telling her of my by now, weekly liaisons with the girls. Weekly meetings that were getting increasingly more extreme now that I had entered into the group and was a willing participant in all that went on. That and the fact that they couldn't get enough of my big strong body, big boobs and bum and very pretty face surrounded by flowing curly dark hair that reaches my shoulders.
I'm a well preserved thirty-seven standing about five foot eight inches, have a 40F-26-38 inch figure, big boobs that despite their size don't sag and droop too much, and big very sensitive nipples that are a dark cherry shade and stick out when excited. My bum although big is quite perky and is still firm, or so I've been told, and long strong legs that could break a mans back if I crushed him between them. Mark, my husband loves it when I trap him between them and hold his face buried in my cleavage, smothering him. One day I'm convinced he'll suffocate between my more than generous boobs, he spends so much time with his head buried between them.
I'm what you would call a full woman, voluptuous, big and curvy, a full handful, big sexy and proud. I've got what I've been told is a pretty face, brown eyes, that sparkle when I smile or laugh and soft dark brown hair that falls in soft curls halfway down my back.
Marina, is a younger, slightly smaller version of me, five foot six tall, her boobs are just a little bit smaller, hips equally as wide, and her delicate, open, face is encased by hair that is the same dark colour as mine, but cut a lot shorter, just under her ears in a soft wavy style. She has stunning legs, big and firm and strong and when she wears heels, it only emphasises the shape of her calves.
If I'm sexy, and I am then, Marina is a sex goddess, if only she knew it. Or more pertinently if Calum knew it.
I moved closer to Marina, and took hold of both of her hands in mine, looked deeply into her eyes and said gently, "There's somebody close who could help you, teach you."
"What do you mean, who do you mean?"
A smile answers her question as well as me taking hold of her hand and bringing it to my lips and kissing her fingers.
"Penny, you don't mean...you can't mean...you," the first words louder the last one uttered with shock and in the softest tone, I could hardly hear it.
"Why not?" I whispered back to her, smiling all the time, trying to make her feel at ease.
"It's not right. It's not right in every way, your my sister, girl on girl, and I'm sure I could think of something else," she objected. "It's a sin, incest. If nothing else it's against the law."
"It's only sinful if you think it is. And I don't, not with you."
"Well I do, and what would people say if they found out?" Confusion, doubt and guilt at even contemplating the thought, even talking about us having sex together passing over her innocent face.
"Let people say and think what they want. You have a need, I'm happy to help you with it like a sister should. It's just that that need is a bit more unconventional," I say trying to calm her fears and convince her. In all honesty, I had made my mind up I wanted to make love to my sister. Maybe I wanted to make love to myself as we look so alike.
"No. Penny, I love you, and thank you for offering to help, but not that way."
