[This short story has been provided by a wonderful friend. I have made very few changes with a view to protect the flow of her thoughts and the nuances]
I am Mrs. Mohini Rajendran., middle aged woman of good health. My husband was in Real Estate Business. Unfortunately he met with accident while going to his site and died before admission to the hospital. He had constructed half a dozen shops in a prime area of the town and gave then on rental basis for commercial shop keepers. Rent received from the shop-keepers was the only source of income for me and his insurance money also came to us by way of security.
I have a teen age son Raju, who was studying in the second year Engineering course. He was demanding a two wheeler to keep himself mobile. But my memories of my husband haunted me and I really do not want to lose him like my husband. So I refused to buy a two wheeler for him and I told him that he is too young and when he finishes his engineering Degree I will buy a car for him instead of a scooter. He was pleased and stopped asking for a two wheeler.
My son Raju's academic performance was always more than average and as such I had no occasion to interfere with his class work. He was well disciplined boy. I always him money whenever he wanted to buy his thing. I told him that he can always buy anything he want but only what was necessary. He should not spend money without thinking.
Money should be respected and we should spend only when there is a necessity.
Every thing was going on well. Of late I found that he was bringing cheap girlie porn magazines and he was reading hiding them inside his text book pretending as if he is reading class text book. Initially I ignore thinking that it may due to his transition to adulthood. But it becomes a regular habit for him to bring these magazines. I thought that it is time for me to step in and stop his activities. If he was reading openly in all probability I would not have bothered but hiding inside the book displayed his negative characters like fear and guiltiness. If these characteristic was not nipped in the bud it could certainly ruin his career.
It was a Saturday night around 8 p.m. I found Raju was reading his filthy magazine as usual. I went behind his chair and pulled out the magazine and threw it on the floor. For a moment he was perplexed and somehow adjusted himself and said sorry.
"I was watching you for the past one month. What did you gain by reading these magazines? Lost your sense or what? How will you fare in the examinations if you continue to read these filthy magazines? "
He was keeping quiet for a few minutes.
"Why don't you answer my questions" asked him again.
"I am sorry mummy I will not bring these magazines again. I did not buy these My friends gave it to me. He got it from a circulation library. After reading one issue I got addicted to read more issues and I was curious to view female bodies" he said.
I felt sympathy for him and as long as the suppressed feelings remains in his mind any amount of scolding to bring him to a controlled atmosphere will not help. He will always tempted to view these magazines may be outside home.
I wanted to remove his negative characters and help him to focus his attention towards his studies.
"You are curious to see a female body is n't it " I asked him.
"I myself do not know why I have so much curiosity to view female bodies." he replied.
"O.K. come on I will help you. " I told him.
Put off the light come with me and let us have a cup of coffee.
I went to the kitchen prepared a coffee for both of us.
