I slammed the door in my brother's face and locked it with trembling fingers.
Turning, I slumped back against the door, my knees wobbly. I covered my face as shame and embarrassment coursed through my body.
My eyes burned. Tears started to roll down my face, and I swiped at them miserably.
The look on Alex's face as he looked down at me in horror was stuck in my mind. My big brother was the one constant thing in my life. The one thing I had never screwed up. But now... but now...
I started to cry harder. He was going to hate me now. I had ruined everything!
His cum was wet and dripping between my legs. My breath hitched in distress. I stripped off my nightie and swiped at the wetness, but it wouldn't wipe off.
I had been in love with my brother for so long. It just seemed natural to kiss him...to touch him...and have him touch me. And it had been amazing until the end. Until I saw his face. He was disgusted with me.
Throwing my nightie down, I climbed in the shower, scrubbing at my skin roughly under the water.
"Bella."
The shower curtain slid slowly back.
I turned from him in shame and hid my face in the tiled wall.
"Sweetheart," he murmured, sounding like he was crying too. "I'm so sorry, baby boo. I'm so sorry." His voice cracked.
He stepped inside and drew me, wet and trembling, into his arms and stroked my back while I sobbed.
"It's not your fault," I blubbered. "It's mine!"
"No," he said, grabbing my chin and holding it so he could look me in the eyes." No. Bella, it's nobody's fault."
"But...I kissed you!" I wailed.
"We love each other," he said quietly. "You did nothing wrong."
I tried to duck my head, but he refused to let me. "I saw your face," I whispered.
"I was upset with myself for taking things too far. You did nothing wrong. You were perfect and wonderful." Alex's expression implored me to believe him.
I drew a shuddering deep breath. "You don't hate me?"
His thumb traced my cheek and a tear ran down his face. "Bella, I love you more than anything in this world. Please don't be upset with me because I was a stupid dumbass."
A tiny giggle escaped before I could stop it.
Alex crushed me to his body, so tight I could barely breathe. I didn't care. I held him back just as tightly.
"I love you. I love you," he groaned into my hair.
"I love you, too, big brother," I whispered back, clinging to him. "Please don't leave me."
"Never," he vowed, kissing my forehead, each of my cheeks, and then my mouth very gently.
I smiled up at him tremulously, my lips wobbling a little.
"May I wash you?" he asked softly.
I nodded shyly.
I hadn't grabbed a washcloth, so Alex pumped some bodywash into his hand, rubbed it into suds and gently soaped my shoulder and back. His hands lingered over my small breasts, cupping them and playing with my nipples.
"You're so beautiful," he murmured. His eyes roved over my naked skin.
He washed my tummy and dipped between my legs. I gasped as his slick fingers stroked my folds and felt a little disappointed when he didn't linger. He steered me under the water to rinse the suds away.