I slammed the door in my brother's face and locked it with trembling fingers.
Turning, I slumped back against the door, my knees wobbly. I covered my face as shame and embarrassment coursed through my body.
My eyes burned. Tears started to roll down my face, and I swiped at them miserably.
The look on Alex's face as he looked down at me in horror was stuck in my mind. My big brother was the one constant thing in my life. The one thing I had never screwed up. But now... but now...
I started to cry harder. He was going to hate me now. I had ruined everything!
His cum was wet and dripping between my legs. My breath hitched in distress. I stripped off my nightie and swiped at the wetness, but it wouldn't wipe off.
I had been in love with my brother for so long. It just seemed natural to kiss him...to touch him...and have him touch me. And it had been amazing until the end. Until I saw his face. He was disgusted with me.
Throwing my nightie down, I climbed in the shower, scrubbing at my skin roughly under the water.
"Bella."
The shower curtain slid slowly back.
I turned from him in shame and hid my face in the tiled wall.
"Sweetheart," he murmured, sounding like he was crying too. "I'm so sorry, baby boo. I'm so sorry." His voice cracked.
He stepped inside and drew me, wet and trembling, into his arms and stroked my back while I sobbed.
"It's not your fault," I blubbered. "It's mine!"
"No," he said, grabbing my chin and holding it so he could look me in the eyes." No. Bella, it's nobody's fault."
"But...I kissed you!" I wailed.
"We love each other," he said quietly. "You did nothing wrong."
I tried to duck my head, but he refused to let me. "I saw your face," I whispered.
"I was upset with myself for taking things too far. You did nothing wrong. You were perfect and wonderful." Alex's expression implored me to believe him.
I drew a shuddering deep breath. "You don't hate me?"
His thumb traced my cheek and a tear ran down his face. "Bella, I love you more than anything in this world. Please don't be upset with me because I was a stupid dumbass."
A tiny giggle escaped before I could stop it.
Alex crushed me to his body, so tight I could barely breathe. I didn't care. I held him back just as tightly.
"I love you. I love you," he groaned into my hair.
"I love you, too, big brother," I whispered back, clinging to him. "Please don't leave me."
"Never," he vowed, kissing my forehead, each of my cheeks, and then my mouth very gently.
I smiled up at him tremulously, my lips wobbling a little.
"May I wash you?" he asked softly.
I nodded shyly.
I hadn't grabbed a washcloth, so Alex pumped some bodywash into his hand, rubbed it into suds and gently soaped my shoulder and back. His hands lingered over my small breasts, cupping them and playing with my nipples.
"You're so beautiful," he murmured. His eyes roved over my naked skin.
He washed my tummy and dipped between my legs. I gasped as his slick fingers stroked my folds and felt a little disappointed when he didn't linger. He steered me under the water to rinse the suds away.
I noticed his cock was hard again, and I wanted to touch it. But shyness kept me from being bold. I was afraid of doing the wrong thing and looking stupid or being rejected.
Alex shut the water off and guided me to step out. He grabbed a towel and gently dried me, whispering the whole time how beautiful and sweet I was. I let the love shining in his eyes replace the shame I had felt.
As he swiped the towel over his own self, I hesitated shyly, wondering if he wanted me to go back to my own bed.
Alex quickly answered my unspoken question by sweeping me up off my feet into his arms.
I giggled and buried my face in his shoulder.
He deposited me back in his bed and quickly climbed in behind me, pulling me close. His naked skin felt so amazing pressed to mine.
I snuggled happily against him. His hard penis poked my tummy, but he held me tight and whispered his love in my ear.
"I love you," I murmured and drifted off to sleep.
Soft sunlight awakened me in the morning. Alex laid on his back, and I was nestled into his side with my cheek pillowed comfortably on his chest. One of my legs was thrown over his leg, and one of his hands had a firm grip on my bare bottom cheek.
I peeked up at his face and saw he was still asleep. Biting my lip, I glanced back down to where his penis was tenting the covers. Curiosity had me slowly dragging the sheet and blanket off until his cock bobbed free.
After another quick glance at his face, I reached out to tentatively touch his shaft with my finger. It was so soft! I traced a vein with my finger, then up to the fleshy head.
"Mmmm," Alex rumbled, and I snatched my finger away.
He opened one eye. "Don't stop, baby. Wrap your fingers around me...please."
Nervously, like it might bite me, I circled his length slowly with my fingers.
"God, yes," my brother muttered, his cock twitching in my hand. "Stroke it," he encouraged. "Up and down."
I stroked his hardness like he instructed, my eyes darting from his face to his cock and back again.