For as long as I can remember, it had always been the two of us, me being Valerie and my mom being Margery. She had no siblings, and her parents had long ago passed away in an auto accident shortly after I was born.
When my dad ran off soon afterward, his parents and siblings must have run with him as I had never my entire life seen nor heard from any of them at all.
Mom had done well enough without anyone's help, somehow putting herself through business school and landing a good, solid job right afterward. Growing up, I had not gone without anything, and Mom always seemed to put my needs or wants before her own,
She had given birth to me at the early age of eighteen herself, so at thirty-six years old, she was still a total knockout. I was cute at 5' 5" with my short sandy blond locks and pert, perky little breasts, but my mom, at 5' 8" with her long blonde tresses and bigger breasts, was flat-out drop-dead gorgeous.
I knew my mom, over the years, had made a lot of sacrifices for me. Just before I finally turned eighteen and graduated high school, I had recently realized that although she appeared happy most of the time, she seemed to have grown somewhat weary of working to support me and trying to see that I had everything I needed.
She never complained about it, but I could tell somehow that she could use a break from it now.
She often worked a lot of overtime, and sometimes, I think she did it to postpone coming home and crawling into that lonely bed by herself every night over and over again for years and years.
I never recall my mom going out on a date or bringing a man home. Sometimes, I was away for a few days here and there, so I guess it was possible, but I didn't think so.
I could see the relief in her eyes and feel it in her touch when the letter announcing my full college scholarship arrived. It was almost as if it was what she had been working towards her whole life.
She was ecstatic, and I could feel the radiant energy of pure satisfaction and total freedom escaping from her soul. I am sure she felt her job was finally done, and she could now wholly relax and enjoy life a little for a change.
I was very happy for her as, over the last year or so, it had become painfully obvious how accustomed she had grown to the loneliness, and I knew that she desperately needed to find someone she could love and enjoy life with once again.
Over the years, we had shared much with it just being her and me and almost no one else to turn to for conversation. Sometimes, when she was a little tipsy after a glass or two of wine, she didn't try to keep it a secret from me that she was very lonely in the bedroom department and hoped one day very soon she wouldn't have to work quite so much and could take the time to find and meet someone that would treat her nice.
Though we often shared a lot sometimes, we didn't talk very openly about sex at all. I was still a virgin, and she knew it, but that was about as far as we went with the subject. Mom wasn't having sex with anyone, so it just didn't ever seem to come up that often.
I was not very well educated at all when it came to sex; I had never taken the time to date boys and had put almost all of my extra time and energy into my studies. Mom and I shared the only computer in the house, so I dared not watch porn for fear of her finding out about it.
I remember one specific evening, though after she had finished almost a whole bottle of wine over dinner, I had come from the bathroom and stood listening at her door a moment, thinking at first that she was weeping, after listening closely for a bit before I turned to leave, I decided that she was masturbating.
I remember thinking at the time that although I barely even knew what that meant, for some reason, the thought of my very own mom doing it had suddenly become very arousing to me. Later, as I undressed to shower, I was shocked to notice that my panties seemed to be quite a bit damper than usual.
I don't think I ever really made a conscious decision to go after my mom, and in the end, I wasn't even really sure exactly who seduced whom; it just happened.
My mom and I grew very close that summer, and to this very day, I am still somewhat puzzled about how it all went from nothing one day to slowly beginning to unfold the next.
Was it because we were so close to one another all these years that it had just been the two of us, and now I would suddenly be going away to college?
Was it because we were both so very lonely and sexually frustrated to a near-breaking point?