I suppose I was unusual. I never took any interest in boys, even when I reached my teens. I was too busy reading. Books were all I was interested in, and I spent all my time with them.
I really didn't even discover the hole between my legs until I was 18 or so. When I found it, I was quite surprised. I wondered if I should tell someone about it. I even thought for a moment I might be the only girl in the world to have one.
Still, even then, I never took much interest in that special place - though I did occasionally find myself touching it when I was reading a book. I was surprised at how nice it felt.
It still took me a little while to work out that it wasn't just a place for me to put my fingers. Recently, my only real friend, Tina, had to give me a fast update on sex education. She couldn't help laughing at how little I knew. After all, I was 18. I had cousins the same age who were already married.
Still, it sounded yucky, what Tina told me that boys do. I was in no hurry to have something like that happen to me. But I did get very curious about boys' penises – or their cocks, as Tina said they were called.
For the next few weeks I got more and more curious about boys - and about cocks. I really wanted to see one. But the only boy I really knew was my brother Nick. Even though he's only a year older than me, we've never really had much to do with each other. Some brothers and sisters are close, some go their separate ways. That's what Nick and I were like. We didn't dislike each other, we just didn't have much in common. He's into sports, I'm into books, and we never seemed had anything much to talk about. But Nick was a boy and I thought, well, if I want to see a cock, there was one in the house I might be able to get a look at. I just wanted a peek, that's all.
So this is what I did. One Friday evening our parents were out. It was about 6.30 and Nick was about to take a shower because he was going out too. I was staying home to do some homework. While Nick was in his room undressing, I slipped into the bathroom and hid in the small broom cupboard opposite the shower. I left the door open just a little so I could see out. Nick came in with the towel around his waist. I was surprised right away how muscular he was – you never notice things like that about your own brother. He turned on the shower taps and dropped his towel. Well, there it was. His cock. It was soft and floppy, just hanging there. I almost laughed. It looked like such a silly thing. But it did hang down quite a long way, which made me think it might get very big if it got hard.
That's when I realised my first mistake. I wasn't going to see his a hard cock because he wasn't going to get excited just having a shower. I felt really let down. But then I got surprise – I found that girl's aren't the only ones who play with themselves.
I watched as Nick got into the shower. Through the clear glass of the shower, I saw him wash his hair and then wash his whole body. Then he started to wash his cock. He seemed very concerned about getting it as clean as possible, because he rubbed it a lot with the soap. Then I saw what I had hoped for – Nick's cock was starting to rise. He put the soap down and started to rub his cock even more. So this is what boys do, I thought, getting very interested. His cock was very big now, I'd say at least 8 inches, and he was pulling the foreskin back and forth down the shaft. His eyes were closed and he seemed to be moaning to himself.
Suddenly he groaned – and splat – white goo shot out of his cock and splashed against the glass door of the shower, directly at me. I couldn't help myself. I gasped – then laughed. It was just a short laugh, more out of surprised than anything, but Nick heard it. I held my breath, hoping he'd think the noise came from outside. But he looked towards the broom cupboard and saw it was slightly open. Dripping wet, he stepped out of the shower and pulled the door open. He was bright red with a combination of embarrassment and fury.
"Sis! What the fuck do you think you're doing!"
I froze. I was shaking with fear. I could only think of one thing to say.
"Please...please don't tell mom and dad...please."
"You fucking little spying bitch...I bet you've been doing this for years"
"No...never...please don't tell."
He pulled me out of the cupboard. I thought he was going to hit me. I noticed that his cock had gone soft. Suddenly he calmed down. Somehow this was even more frightening.
"Okay Sis, I won't tell. But only if you do what I tell you, right?"
I was so relieved he wasn't going to tell that I agree right away.
"Yes, anything, anything at all. Do you want me to clean your room or, or..."
He stopped me mid sentence.
"Right then, you've seen me without my clothes. So I want to see you the same way."
I was thunderstruck.
"But...no, please no Nick."
But Nick wasn't going to listen to me begging.
"Either that, or I tell mum and dad. Make up your mind."
What choice did I have? I'd gotten myself into this mess, I suppose I deserved my punishment. I started to undress. I only had on a t-shirt and denim skirt, so it took just a few seconds before my skinny body was only covered in my bra and panties. I stopped for a moment, looking at my brother with pleading eyes. He wasn't going to change his mind.
"Come on, take it all off."
